I'm always confused at God for this. I can't afford health insurance. I've been diagnosed with bi-polar multiple times, and have always been on the verge of killing myself when not on medication. I was hospitalized last year and put on Seroquel and Cymbalta; which I was getting through community mental health. It helped a lot. But after six months they told me I don't qualify any longer to get my meds through them. So, until I can afford the pills on my own (which isn't likely in the near future), I'm out of luck. But here's what I don't get? God is supposed to provide for us when we ask for it. I'm trying to cope with my depression while off my meds, but it isn't working. Didn't God give us everything we need to survive when we were born? So, why can't I get through this without medication? Why can't I just be normal?