Hi! This is my first post in these forums. I'm not sure what I'm looking for, but I feel confident God will help me. This seems like a close knit community,

. So....heres my story:
I grew up in church, but as an adult haven't always followed God, or attended church. Sadly, it took a tragedy to bring me back to Him. I gave my life to God on my kitchen floor on April 17, 2008. The weeks that followed were full of happiness and bliss. I was truly a changed person. Praising God in church and on the streets like the other believers I had previously wished I was like. Then I'm not sure what happened. My mother-in-law, who is a pastors wife, knows nothing of my problems right now but once told me that once you are saved, Satan will throw things at you, or "jump on you" as she said it 10 times more. Maybe thats what the deal is, I don't know. But lately I've been absolutely miserable. I'm so unhappy with my life. My church, my husband, my sahm status....everything. I've become angry and hostile. I'm not myself at all. I'm not praying like I was, not reading my Bible like I was. My husband is not saved, and I'm really struggling with that. I want my family saved. I want to find a different church. But I'm having difficulty knowing whether or not God wants me in this church or not. I am very happy with the singing, the preaching....but its not a church family. I've been attending off and on for years and not one single person has introduced themselves to me. Its a HUGE church, has 4 services in the morning, with attendence in the 2000s total I'm sure. My neighbor goes to the same church and I've bumped into her a handful of times if that tells you anything. Anyway...last Sunday during the song service I started questioning myself...have I prayed right? has God even heard my prayers? I usually "feel" what I should do, and I KNOW when its God. But not this time. For months I've been praying about changing churches, but nothing is "coming thru". So I started doubting Sunday morning. Then, a lady spake in tongues and the interpretation was: I am the Shepard, I have not forsaken you. I love you. I have heard your cries, prayers have been answered. Changes are coming. The time is NOW to come to me, to accept me." And I feel that was for me, changes are coming. this isn't the first time this has happened, once before on a Wednesday night, same thing I was in song service not really into just telling myself this is not my church...I feel so alone here. I AM alone here. Then a lady spake in tongues and interpreted: "You are my child, and I love you. I have NOT forsaken you, I am walking with you. I love you." So each time I get to feeling this way, this happens and this is why I can't seem to leave...is this God telling me to stay? how do I know? I have been praying for my husbands salvation, and for my church situation. And I really, really need Gods help within myself...I seriously feel its because I don't feel like I can worship God like I want because I'm not in the church I want to be in, and I've just become depressed and withdrawn. But for some reason, I just can't bring myself to attend another church. I feel like, Doesn't help that my husband doesn't want to change churches.
I'm so sorry I got so long winded. When I got started, I just couldn't stop. I apologize too if its all over the place and a bit crazy....its been a rough day...whew a rough couple of weeks...
If anyone has any words of wisdom they would be greatly appreciated.