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aca_rev55
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Not sure if I need to seek help... and even if I did, I couldn't.
You see, I've suffered with depression in the past, but it faded with new ADD medication and moving to an alternative school to better fit my needs. The second half of this year has been AWESOME, not gonna lie. I've made great friends, and have gone from failing every class, to a perfect 4.0 in just one quarter of school.
I have many hopes and dreams; I am (for sure, not just saying it) joining the US Air Force. I can't be on any medication. No ADD meds, but it should be fine. I've been off them for a little while, and I've had some headaches, but nothing major, and now even those are gone. But what's happening, is I'm feeling myself fall back into that depression, with the departure of my 4 best friends, and other really close friends, and the thoughts that I'll probably never see my closest friend... at least not for a very long time, as he's moving across the country. I'm happy for them, and don't feel the need to be depressed. I can't hurt myself, because of the Air Force. But I also can't be in any therapy, because I need to be in top mental/physical condition. I recently had to get my old psychiatrist to give my medical records to my recruiter, and to verify that I'm healthy in mind and body. He's confirmed it.
I don't want to botch this up. But, I don't want to get myself into trouble. And why is this in an ED forum? Because I suffer with a certain one of those as well... but I feel I shouldn't get into, for fear that I won't be able to think about anything else.
This post is mainly about the ED, though... depression sort of goes hand in hand with it here...
I think mostly I'm just sort of venting my current problem.
You see, I've suffered with depression in the past, but it faded with new ADD medication and moving to an alternative school to better fit my needs. The second half of this year has been AWESOME, not gonna lie. I've made great friends, and have gone from failing every class, to a perfect 4.0 in just one quarter of school.
I have many hopes and dreams; I am (for sure, not just saying it) joining the US Air Force. I can't be on any medication. No ADD meds, but it should be fine. I've been off them for a little while, and I've had some headaches, but nothing major, and now even those are gone. But what's happening, is I'm feeling myself fall back into that depression, with the departure of my 4 best friends, and other really close friends, and the thoughts that I'll probably never see my closest friend... at least not for a very long time, as he's moving across the country. I'm happy for them, and don't feel the need to be depressed. I can't hurt myself, because of the Air Force. But I also can't be in any therapy, because I need to be in top mental/physical condition. I recently had to get my old psychiatrist to give my medical records to my recruiter, and to verify that I'm healthy in mind and body. He's confirmed it.
I don't want to botch this up. But, I don't want to get myself into trouble. And why is this in an ED forum? Because I suffer with a certain one of those as well... but I feel I shouldn't get into, for fear that I won't be able to think about anything else.
This post is mainly about the ED, though... depression sort of goes hand in hand with it here...
I think mostly I'm just sort of venting my current problem.
God bless you with all of this. i'm glad you are sharing here with us. 
