- Nov 19, 2016
- 67
- 64
- Country
- United States
- Gender
- Female
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Married
I've been struggling for a long time with my mental health, especially with obsessive compulsive disorder. My ocd usually involves scrupulosity, and I have evil thoughts about and towards God (blasphemous thoughts). I struggle not to blame God for the thoughts in my head. (Edit: I also have hateful thoughts about and towards God, and also prideful, arrogant and rebellious thoughts.) It's hard to describe it all here. It's a terrible mess and I am very mentally unwell. There are many other aspects I struggle with related to mental health too, and I have a lot of childhood/teen/early adulthood trauma, especially related to my family. I also struggle with trusting in God's goodness. I'm truly suffering most days. It's really, really bad sometimes. Please pray for God to heal me and forgive me, and give me peace, strengthened faith, wisdom, and correct thinking. Please pray for God to have mercy on me.
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