Prayer Request

[Alive again]

Hi dear friends here at CF.

Tomorrow is a big day for me. I have not worked since May of 1994. Tomorrow I start the clinical portion of getting my nursing license back. I was an RN, worked ICU/CCU and then Hospice for a total of 15 years before getting so sick I could not continue. I took a 30 day leave of absence and was never able to return.

I now am feeling so much better I have pursued regaining this piece of myself. I have completed the book study portion of this project and now need to complete a on the job skills check list and 160 hours of proctored practice. I start tomorrow am with a local hospice. I am nervous about everything!!!

Know that I had cried and turned this over to God and accepted that this would never happen so many times over the past 13 years.
Around the time I began feeling better, my kids left for college and we lost a chunk of my Social Security. The debts have been building since in the last two years. So I chose to go to voc rehab and here I am. I have been feeling like God has told me to chose between my current ministries and returning to work and I have pushed on forward because of the debt burden. It was then I realized that event hough I had released the desire to return to nursing to God, when I signed up to do this, I HAD NEVER PRAYED ABOUT IT AND ASKED GOD!!!!
So I have been in much prayer and have not felt I should stop or go forward, so I am stepping forward one step at a time and praying for God to place roadblocks in my way if I am stepping off of the path He has for me as I do not want to give up the service ministries I have been doing!!!

God knows what I need for these days and weeks to come more than I possible could. Please pray for God's provision for all of my needs during this time. For my wisdom in whether to continue or not. And especially that I would not harden my heart, blind my eyes or stop my ears from listening to God's guidance in this matter.

I do not know that I will ever be able to return to work successfully, but am trusting God for His will. Funny thing is now that it is closer, I am not sure I really want to return to work! LOL!!! I do not want to lose the time and energy I have been able to invest in serving God through other ministries. So I am not totally sure what Gods will is at this point. But I do know this, no matter what my future holds.

I DO NOT WANT TO STEP OUTSIDE OF GOD'S WILL FOR ME AND MY LIFE!!!!

Thank you all dear friends and new ones for your prayers!

 

[OneOfHisOwn]

Saying a quick prayer now. I know from previous times out of work how daunting it can be to try to return. I hope the Lord will provide you peace as you move on and that His will for you will become clear.

I am in the process of qualifying for SSDI. I do feel some shame about being dependent on the government, but I just could not work at this time. I do hope that I can do as you have done both with regard to service and a return to work someday.

 

[Alive again]

Saying a quick prayer now. I know from previous times out of work how daunting it can be to try to return. I hope the Lord will provide you peace as you move on and that His will for you will become clear.

I am in the process of qualifying for SSDI. I do feel some shame about being dependent on the government, but I just could not work at this time. I do hope that I can do as you have done both with regard to service and a return to work someday.

Praying that things will go smoothly with this process for you. I know that sense of shame you are talking about and have dealt with it over and over again. Know that the process can be long and tedious with many ups and downs. As you go through it talk of your worst days, both up and down. Do not worry about those other days. This is advice direct from an msw who helped me. Also know that the majority of cases are refused and have to be appealled all the way to the hearing, so do not let those letters that say you can work get you down, just appeal!!! Hire an atty for the hearing, the amount they receive is a set percentage by Social Security. Also begin to collect your own medical record and create copies of everything you turn in and keep it all in a file. It will save you in the long run. If I can be of any help, do not hesitate to pm me!!!

 

[Alive again]

So far it is not happening. They are unable to accommodate me now in the town where I live and could offer me a clinical slot in a town and hour and a half from my home. I do not feel this is something I can do at this time. So I am not sure where to go from here!!!

Still praying. Thank you for those who have prayed for this.

 

[njcl]

sister dont base your views/judgements with GODS,i mean you sound naturally disappointed theres no places but perhaps GOD knows your not ready for it??........you need to just go with what goes,dont get stressed out about it,if he wants you back as a nurse {im sure he does} then just be patient,hope i did not sound too harsh,i never meant it to be so,ill say a prayer

*PRAYS THE CHRIST to give his daughter the wisdom,patience and hope of a return to her calling as a nurse but in his time,PRAYS for a remmision of her illness so that it loses its powerful grip upon her therebye allowing her to return to nursing and helping many many people,AMEN*

 

[Alive again]

UPDATE:

They finally called back today and are willing to orient me in the town an hour and a half away and then transfer me to the local office. So I start, Wednesday the 30th, but I have to be there at 7:30 in the morning. So i will be up extra early that day. So now I am pawing through my closet trying to find something that fits and is appropriate (darn weight gain) I am not sure yet how many days a week it will be, but it is set to happen (for the third time)!

 

[Alaskamomma]

I just now saw this thread... congrats on the new job! I pray it will bring many wonderful blessings to your life and those lives you will touch! (Now go shopping!!!!) :-D

 

[lmarie23]

yes, congratulations! i hope this job goes wonderfully for you!

 

[Alive again]

Thank you all for your prayers. It is truly not a job yet, just clinical to ensure to the state board that i am competent so they will give me my nursing license back. Obviously i am concerned about my health holding up as I have not worked since 1994 and my abilities o hacle stress are so very different. ALso my skills nes and knowledge need updated although i did complete the home studuies portion of the reentry program. I have mixed feelings about all of this as I am not as stable as I was in my 20's and I have not told the state board about my diagnosis, because the would not all ow me my license back, although I know practicing nurse who have a diagnosis of bp and are safely working, this old medical profession is not very understanding about this issue yet, ( you know us " crazy" people may not be safe to take care fo someone else!! SIGH)

I drove to their office out of town and know where it is and where to park and how long it takes to get there in traffic. I have to leave my house about 5:45 or 6 am and pray for no accidents to slow me down. I did this drive yesterday and stayed up there and kept busy and left for home about 5 pm and got home about 7 pm and am exhausted today. I could not do this every day without crashing. So I do know more than I did and will see what God provides int his next week!

PL:EASE pray that I will have wisdom and not over do that God will provide the accommodations that I need to make this successful and that the transition to the local office will happen quickly. And that I will not step off of His path and will for my life. If this fails then that I will not slip back into uncontrollable depression and accept God's will to continue on disability and do volunteer ministries as I have been doing!

 

[OneOfHisOwn]

Thank you all for your prayers. It is truly not a job yet, just clinical to ensure to the state board that i am competent so they will give me my nursing license back. Obviously i am concerned about my health holding up as I have not worked since 1994 and my abilities o hacle stress are so very different. ALso my skills nes and knowledge need updated although i did complete the home studuies portion of the reentry program. I have mixed feelings about all of this as I am not as stable as I was in my 20's and I have not told the state board about my diagnosis, because the would not all ow me my license back, although I know practicing nurse who have a diagnosis of bp and are safely working, this old medical profession is not very understanding about this issue yet, ( you know us " crazy" people may not be safe to take care fo someone else!! SIGH)

I drove to their office out of town and know where it is and where to park and how long it takes to get there in traffic. I have to leave my house about 5:45 or 6 am and pray for no accidents to slow me down. I did this drive yesterday and stayed up there and kept busy and left for home about 5 pm and got home about 7 pm and am exhausted today. I could not do this every day without crashing. So I do know more than I did and will see what God provides int his next week!

PL:EASE pray that I will have wisdom and not over do that God will provide the accommodations that I need to make this successful and that the transition to the local office will happen quickly. And that I will not step off of His path and will for my life. If this fails then that I will not slip back into uncontrollable depression and accept God's will to continue on disability and do volunteer ministries as I have been doing!

Alive Again, I will continue to pray for you. I am encouraged by you trying. I guess this is one of those times when you just have to take on step at a time and know that whatever the outcome, He is for you and with you.

Psalm 25:4-6

4 Show me your ways, O LORD,
teach me your paths;

5 guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long. 6 Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love,
for they are from of old.

 

[Alive again]

I actually went for my first day today!! I was partnered with a very open and accepting nurse and had a enjoyable and pleasant day despite getting up at 5 am and hitting the freeway. Praise God for His timing. I have a meeting scheduled for Monday am with the local office and it appears as if I can transfer down here and not have to travel so far again!!! I plan to start at 2 days per week and maybe go up to 3 days after a couple of weeks. I did blitz on my Voc Rehab appt Tuesday because the holiday thru me off!!! Oh well, God has it covered.


THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS~!!! Please say a pray that all will work out for the transfer to the local office!

 

[OneOfHisOwn]

I actually went for my first day today!! I was partnered with a very open and accepting nurse and had a enjoyable and pleasant day despite getting up at 5 am and hitting the freeway. Praise God for His timing. I have a meeting scheduled for Monday am with the local office and it appears as if I can transfer down here and not have to travel so far again!!! I plan to start at 2 days per week and maybe go up to 3 days after a couple of weeks. I did blitz on my Voc Rehab appt Tuesday because the holiday thru me off!!! Oh well, God has it covered.


THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS~!!! Please say a pray that all will work out for the transfer to the local office!

Good news!

 

[lmarie23]

I actually went for my first day today!! I was partnered with a very open and accepting nurse and had a enjoyable and pleasant day despite getting up at 5 am and hitting the freeway. Praise God for His timing. I have a meeting scheduled for Monday am with the local office and it appears as if I can transfer down here and not have to travel so far again!!! I plan to start at 2 days per week and maybe go up to 3 days after a couple of weeks. I did blitz on my Voc Rehab appt Tuesday because the holiday thru me off!!! Oh well, God has it covered.


THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS~!!! Please say a pray that all will work out for the transfer to the local office!

that's so great to hear! praise God!

 

[Alive again]

!!!!

thanks!!

 

[Alive again]

Well, 24 hours of 160 done1 I am readjusting to being more organized. . .maybe!!! Lots of chaos in the office and new paperwork to learn, but fun people to work with so far. Just not sure if they are saying good reports back or not!

 

[Buttermilk]

Good luck for the remaining 136 hours