Prayer never hurts

[BigToe]

Heh, well as some of you know, I have been dealing with some difficult issues recently. I am doing tons better than even a month ago and I have God to thank for that. I do still have moments where I have flashbacks or panic attacks or just bad feelings altogether. I leave on Sunday to go to Hawaii for a week, so that will be a nice vacation away from everything. But I suppose I could use a little prayer for God to continue healing me and teaching me. I know I have a ton to learn! And I have complete faith that God will use what I have been through for His Good Will somehow when His timing is perfect. And for that I am thankful. But there are times where it feels easier to just give up, and I know there is some major spiritual warfare going on in my soul.

In addition to difficult experiences, God recently revealed some areas of sin in my life that we have been working on. And since the revelation He gave me, I have not given in to them because I haven't put myself in a position to be tempted. Please pray that God continues to give me the strength to make these smart decisions. Pray that he also helps reveal other areas of my life that need work as well.

HEHE I better stop now before I write a novel. If any of you have prayer requests, let me know, I would love to pray for ya!

 

[amie]

Hi Blanton
I am praying for you dearheart for any strength and guidance you need...

I would love for you to pray for me too. I need all the help i can get

 

[ukok]

praying for you blanton, you too amie.

 

[BigToe]

of course I will pray for you amie, I hope God works things out and shows you His plan. I pray that you are content with God and fully satisfied.

 

[Vollkommen Warrior]

"I leave on Sunday to go to Hawaii for a week, so that will be a nice vacation away from everything." Great for you Blanton911!! I am happy for you! I have been to Bermuda and Key West but never Hawaii! Just be sure to have lots of fun above all and take good care of yourself. I am praying for you. You seem to be a person of great wisdom though I must say. I am glad God has graced you with this and continues to as well. Have a wonderful time and know some of us are thinking of you in the most positive way. Take care!

 

[BigToe]

thanks. i am looking forward to this escape. i hope things are well when i return... i am kinda scared about it though...

 

[Vollkommen Warrior]

"i am kinda scared about it though..." Why please??

 

[BigToe]

it will be away from everything that has cause my depression and will be able to distract myself so completely from it. To return I am afraid will add all these extra sensors again. I am scared the sensory reload will be more like a sensory overload.

Distractions are great, but they are only that... and they don't last a long time. I am afraid the "high" from being in a great place will only result in what seems a a "lower low"

 

[SAPguy]

Of course I will pray for you. Have a great trip and realize that all the annoyances from everyday life are just that. Annoyances. Don't dwell on them once you get back. Let God take care of them.

 

[BigToe]

heh, sappy there are times when that is easier said than done... I am terrible at remembering to take my medicine, so something small explodes and overwhelms me. If I get one whiff of a certain smell then I am rendered useless and freak out and cant breathe... heh I have a panic attack.. I need to figure something out to help me remember to take my meds. I have notes on all the light switches, the bathroom mirror and the front door telling me to take them. but that doesnt seem to work.

 

[Vollkommen Warrior]

Blanton, dear, you are worrying too much. Nothing can prevent you from having a onderful time. And when you come back? you will in fact be a different person, regardless of you r currsent challenges. These challenges will not go away but don't worry about them contaminating your great time! Live in the joy of the moment!! Life should be a wonderful enjoyment! Worry about when you come back...when you are back. Just enjoy yourself! I think you are going to have a great time and when yo ucome back to the states, we will still be here for you! Your destiny! Brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus our Lord and Savior! What better could there be to look forward to!! God bless you dear and enjoy your time spent of whicjh some will never see!!!

 

[BigToe]

hawaii is part of the state heh. but thanks. you are right. i should live life for the minute more and not live in fear...

 

[Vollkommen Warrior]

Oops, yes. You are correct and caught me on that one. Yes live in the moment and just enjoy!

 

[dreamcatcher]

Blanton and Amie,
you are Both on my prayer list.
Blanton,have fun in Hawaii, hon.try to forget your problems while you are there.let God handle them.

 

[BigToe]

Thanks, yeah my goal is to have fun and not think about anything that's been causing me stress these past 6 months. I get to see some beautiful things that God has created. I am fascinated by volcanoes, so that will be fun Thinking postive...

 

[psycmajor]

ing that Blanton continues her walk with God...

 

[wvmtnkid]

Praying, Blaton that you have safe travel and that you enjoy a well deserved vacation. And that you will not have any problems upon return. And that you will continue to grow closer to God.

I am going to suggest a book you might want to consider reading. I have just started it and so far I like it. It is called "The Purpose Driven Life" but Rick Warren. It is a 40 day study and it helps you to draw closer to God and the purpose he has for your life. I have really liked it so far. There is even a companion journal that you can get to go with it that helps guide you through some journaling by recalling some of the key ideas in the short chapters to get you thinking about things. It says that you can read it mre than once in your life because at different times, it will speak differently to you. So far, I would recommend it.

Let us know how Hawaii was. Sounds like an awesome vacation spot!

 

[BigToe]

i am back from Hawaii. It was amazing. I spent a lot of great quality time with God. A few times thoughts started creeping in my mind, and I did catch wiffs of the smell that brings on my panic attacks, but I was able to quickly distract myself and put them off. So maybe the same can happen at home now. but it was fun. I dont like my sister at all anymore after the trip, heh, but other than that its great

 

[SUNSTONE]

I have something to say, so I hope I don't come across wrong. I pray that God guides my fingers as I type this.


I don't know your problems, or what sends you into panic attacks, atleast not specificly. And I don't know what the smell is that also seems to trigger it.

But what I do know, is that it is what you are thinking.Your thoughts are sending you in this direction.And its not just your thinking, it is what you do after you panic that also is the problem.

The other day I was working, and thinking about Bruce Lee. I was thinking about the movie of his life, called "The Dragon". In it, he was kicked in the back, real hard, and put him in the hospitol, for a long time.

I tried to imagine what that would feel like (why? I have no idea!).
Well I was successfull. I imagined it alright. I sent myself into a panic attack. Immediatly, I started to swet, and had a real hard time breathing.

Well I knew what to do, I prayed in the spirit(tongues) immediatly. Within a minute or two I was fine.
That is the last time I imagine what pain feels like.

There are some things that you pray to God, and ask for help. Then there are some things that God has already provided, and you need to step up and take them.

If you are thinking that God didn't make you strong enough, then you are believing in a lie. And what you believe, will effect, what you do, and HOW YOU THINK.

I can tell you right now, it is not Gods will for you to go through these attacks.

I don't know you, but I believe this is a word for you. I pray that you learn how to become strong.
If a smell did that to me, and I had to face it on a regular bases. I would take that smell outside and beat it up.

I bless you in the name of Jesus.

 

[BigToe]

hehe thanks. yeah, i just take stuff around with me that smells nice incase the smell creeps up. the smell is what was all over me after i was raped in jan. and it isnt that i really THINK anything. i don't sit there and try to imagine the smell. it just comes out of no where. And I know I am strong enough and I know God will turn this into something good in his timing.