Pray for Me.

[LostChildinTheMidst]

I think I'm starting to go crazy. I don't sleep. The world is beginning to feel numb. I cursed at my parents and I dishonor them. I'm so scared, I shouldn't have but I was so angry. I always feel bad. I'm starting to become this evil person. It's like the old me is looking at myself through a glass. It's like I'm drubk with no toxins. I suddenly have an urge to smoke, I want to smoke weed and cigarettes, I want something to take this edge off. I don't know who I am anymore. I always think about salvation and death. Life is not the same anymore. God is done with me, do you know how much I sin? It's like I do is sin and I still don't cease. I want to repent later but what if I don't have the chance? Why am I so stubborn? It's almost as if I'm falling into my own world. I don't want to wake up In hell. I wish I died as a baby so I would be in heaven. I'm so confused. I make everything about me. I wonder what God thinks of me. He sees my heart. I don't know where my hearts at. I'm writing under this forum in an anonymous account but this "christian forums" is my secret. Outside of this I'm just like the rest of the world. Christian forums has become like my diary. I write here, hoping to see someone who has a deep connection with Jesus Christ can give me some advice. I'm such a horrible person. I'm such a bad Person please don't tell me I'm good.im slowly starting to become angry at God. Because I always think he's out to get me, It's like God has been against me ever since my birth. If he really wanted me to be part of his kingdom I would've been chosen. Who knows if I am? God bless you Christian forums for always being here for me to type on. All around me are a bunch of fake Christians, who plaster a huge smile on their face. There is no one real. Just carnal minded Christians. And because I am a youth I am becoming one too. I wish I could speak to God, I would read the Bible if I didn't feel so attacked all the time. The Bible scares me. Where is god? He's out here saving so many lives will he save mine? I'm so lazy, you know, I pretend to be happy in real life, i cuss and listen to secular music and lust and I'm on my phone for 10+ hours a day. I wish I wasn't like this. I'm sorry for being so selfish

 

[ReesePiece23]

What sounds dramatic and scary, is actually perfectly normal. And relatively easy to fix.

You're obviously in a mental bind, and stuck in repetitive thought patterns and behavioural cycles. The trick is to make every day as different from the last day as it possibly could be, and NEVER stagnate. That's everything from the time you wake up, the way you walk to work, eating times, early morning routines, the way you do your hair, everything. Right down to the simple things.

Whatever cycle you're in, break it and don't create another one. Instead, cut that cycle, open it up and make it a continuous line, that only moves forwards.

Counselling might be a good start?

 

[inquiring mind]

I'm praying for you LostChildinTheMidst.

 

[Solomons Porch]

Praying

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[Danielle White]

Dear LostChildinTheMidst, I prayed to the Lord to help you. I think you need the inner guidance and help from the Lord to help get you out of this problem(s) to start with. Try not to be angry at God; He is our first and greatest well wisher. Always remember that.

If you can, pray to Jesus and the Holy Spirit to guide and bless you too. They will always help a sincere soul and will have sympathy for you so long as you don't express hatred for the Lord.

I hope that you will feel better about your faith and life in general soon. We all go through difficult times in our faith so don't think what you're experiencing is anything weird or extra bad. Try to hold onto your faith and weather this personal storm with patience and fortitude. Think of it as your cross to bear and I'm sure the Lord will relieve you of your pain soon.

 

[Adstar]

I think I'm starting to go crazy. I don't sleep. The world is beginning to feel numb. I cursed at my parents and I dishonor them. I'm so scared, I shouldn't have but I was so angry. I always feel bad. I'm starting to become this evil person. It's like the old me is looking at myself through a glass. It's like I'm drubk with no toxins. I suddenly have an urge to smoke, I want to smoke weed and cigarettes, I want something to take this edge off. I don't know who I am anymore. I always think about salvation and death. Life is not the same anymore. God is done with me, do you know how much I sin? It's like I do is sin and I still don't cease. I want to repent later but what if I don't have the chance? Why am I so stubborn? It's almost as if I'm falling into my own world. I don't want to wake up In hell. I wish I died as a baby so I would be in heaven. I'm so confused. I make everything about me. I wonder what God thinks of me. He sees my heart. I don't know where my hearts at. I'm writing under this forum in an anonymous account but this "christian forums" is my secret. Outside of this I'm just like the rest of the world. Christian forums has become like my diary. I write here, hoping to see someone who has a deep connection with Jesus Christ can give me some advice. I'm such a horrible person. I'm such a bad Person please don't tell me I'm good.im slowly starting to become angry at God. Because I always think he's out to get me, It's like God has been against me ever since my birth. If he really wanted me to be part of his kingdom I would've been chosen. Who knows if I am? God bless you Christian forums for always being here for me to type on. All around me are a bunch of fake Christians, who plaster a huge smile on their face. There is no one real. Just carnal minded Christians. And because I am a youth I am becoming one too. I wish I could speak to God, I would read the Bible if I didn't feel so attacked all the time. The Bible scares me. Where is god? He's out here saving so many lives will he save mine? I'm so lazy, you know, I pretend to be happy in real life, i cuss and listen to secular music and lust and I'm on my phone for 10+ hours a day. I wish I wasn't like this. I'm sorry for being so selfish

Trust in what Jesus did for you on the cross.. No one is rejected by God because they are not good enough.. Jesus came and died for us Because none of us are good enough!!! He loved us enough to willingly suffer death to save us in spite of our unworthiness... So Praise Jesus and give Him all the glory and focus on his righteousness, His Worthiness.. Because it is His perfect righteousness that is gifted to us so that we are Deemed to be worthy by trusting in what He did to Redeem us...

I see people coming online in fear because of their feelings of unworthiness asking for prayers to stop them from sinning this sin or that sin because they think they need to achieve perfection in this carnal flesh, in this life, on this fallen world, in their faulty body...

Again we are not saved because we are good enough.. We are saved because we believe that Jesus is good enough.. And good enough = Perfect...

 

[rockytopva]

Father I pray blessings on this request and for a victorious life that will bring you glory in Jesus name I pray. Also taking these needs before God in prayer on the bbnradio.org Family Altar program... BBN Program Schedule

 

[macek]

Dear sister, you look in your heart and you see that you are not perfect. In your grief you see yourself as ugly and unworthy. Your anger against God and your parents is really anger towards yourself, because you fall short of your vision of what you wish be were you without sin. Sister, you are not alone in this, we all fall short from that perfect image. No one on this earth is without sin, only Jesus was without sin. Please, don't put yourself down as you will only feed your feeling of unworthiness. God loves you, sister, He wants you to seek Him while the enemy puts these feelings of abandonment and of not being good enough for God.

Sister, i can not tell you that its all right to merrily live in sin without repentance and forgiveness to those that hurt you and to yourself. Try to place your thoughts more on Him and less on the accusing thoughts that God hates you and wants to abandon you. That is not true, its a lie from the enemy who doesn't want you to be with Him and be happy.

I also caution you against addictions of smoking, drinking and other addictions, they will only cause you more grief. The more you yield the worse it gets and that is from personal experience. At one point in my past i rebelled against God, trampled on all the wisdom He imparted to my heart. I did unspeakable sins, sister. I fell so deep into darkness that demon shattered my soul, claimed pieces of it and told me that i will be ever be whole again for the rest of my life and at that time i agreed. My sins in lust were terrible, i was utterly unable to break from my sin and the corruption in my heart, it festered and i felt that. It was by intervention of Jesus that i was rescued and delivered from the sin that had consumed me. He appeared to me in a dream and was very angry with me and i don't want you to go through this. Get on your knees now and sincerely ask Him for forgiveness and ask Him for help and guidance. Call to Him and tell Him that you want to hear from Him, that you need Him and listen. Don't wait for the fall to happen. I would wish to spare you from that, it is not fun.

I will pray for you, sister, please don't give up on Him!

 

[LostChildinTheMidst]

Dear sister, you look in your heart and you see that you are not perfect. In your grief you see yourself as ugly and unworthy. Your anger against God and your parents is really anger towards yourself, because you fall short of your vision of what you wish be were you without sin. Sister, you are not alone in this, we all fall short from that perfect image. No one on this earth is without sin, only Jesus was without sin. Please, don't put yourself down as you will only feed your feeling of unworthiness. God loves you, sister, He wants you to seek Him while the enemy puts these feelings of abandonment and of not being good enough for God.

Sister, i can not tell you that its all right to merrily live in sin without repentance and forgiveness to those that hurt you and to yourself. Try to place your thoughts more on Him and less on the accusing thoughts that God hates you and wants to abandon you. That is not true, its a lie from the enemy who doesn't want you to be with Him and be happy.

I also caution you against addictions of smoking, drinking and other addictions, they will only cause you more grief. The more you yield the worse it gets and that is from personal experience. At one point in my past i rebelled against God, trampled on all the wisdom He imparted to my heart. I did unspeakable sins, sister. I fell so deep into darkness that demon shattered my soul, claimed pieces of it and told me that i will be ever be whole again for the rest of my life and at that time i agreed. My sins in lust were terrible, i was utterly unable to break from my sin and the corruption in my heart, it festered and i felt that. It was by intervention of Jesus that i was rescued and delivered from the sin that had consumed me. He appeared to me in a dream and was very angry with me and i don't want you to go through this. Get on your knees now and sincerely ask Him for forgiveness and ask Him for help and guidance. Call to Him and tell Him that you want to hear from Him, that you need Him and listen. Don't wait for the fall to happen. I would wish to spare you from that, it is not fun.

I will pray for you, sister, please don't give up on Him!

Did Jesus forgive you after?

 

[Star Dancer]

Praying for you

 

[macek]

Yes, sister, He did. God forgives all sins if we are sincere in our seeking for forgiveness and we repent. Holy Scripture says God forgives all trespasses only sins against Holy spirit are unforgiven. Later on i slipped into sin again (this time was self-pleasure) and i heard from Him again. He was angry and told me He is trying to save my soul and i wasn't helping Him by sinning. At that time i did not understand what He meant by that. After some reflection and His guidance i realized what He meant. My soul was fractured and shards were claimed by the enemy. By persisting in the sin covered by the same demon, he had a legal right over that shard. So i had to let it all go and repent. He was at the same time teaching me to change my ways. It wasn't easy and probably wont be for you, too, but sister, it is well worth it to change, to give up sin. Its like a big load would be taken from your shoulders and you find peace and joy where previous were only confusion and fear. It took me seven years to give it up, but with His grace and guidance i got free from it.

Sister the very fact that you are here, telling us your story tells me that there is a part in you that crys for help and sincerely wishes to change. He can help you and guide you to your victory, if He helped me and forgave me He will help and forgive you, too.

Mark 3:28
Verily I say unto you, All sins shall be forgiven unto the sons of men, and blasphemies
wherewith soever they shall blaspheme: 3:29 But he that shall blaspheme against the Holy Ghost
hath never forgiveness, but is in danger of eternal damnation.

 

[LostChildinTheMidst]

Yes, sister, He did. God forgives all sins if we are sincere in our seeking for forgiveness and we repent. Holy Scripture says God forgives all trespasses only sins against Holy spirit are unforgiven. Later on i slipped into sin again (this time was self-pleasure) and i heard from Him again. He was angry and told me He is trying to save my soul and i wasn't helping Him by sinning. At that time i did not understand what He meant by that. After some reflection and His guidance i realized what He meant. My soul was fractured and shards were claimed by the enemy. By persisting in the sin covered by the same demon, he had a legal right over that shard. So i had to let it all go and repent. He was at the same time teaching me to change my ways. It wasn't easy and probably wont be for you, too, but sister, it is well worth it to change, to give up sin. Its like a big load would be taken from your shoulders and you find peace and joy where previous were only confusion and fear. It took me seven years to give it up, but with His grace and guidance i got free from it.

Sister the very fact that you are here, telling us your story tells me that there is a part in you that crys for help and sincerely wishes to change. He can help you and guide you to your victory, if He helped me and forgave me He will help and forgive you, too.

Mark 3:28
Verily I say unto you, All sins shall be forgiven unto the sons of men, and blasphemies
wherewith soever they shall blaspheme: 3:29 But he that shall blaspheme against the Holy Ghost
hath never forgiveness, but is in danger of eternal damnation.

Thank you friend, this helps a lot. Sometimes I think I commited that unforgivable sin. I used to have nick attacks that I did. Please friend, if you can please help me. And pray for me sincerely. I want to Give up my sin but at the same time I don't. I'm persisting in sin.

 

[SpiritofaDove]

Praying for you. You have to want to change. pray for the desire to change. You are not a bad person but it's easier to be a quitter. It's hard work to become something else. You can do all things through Christ, but you need to seek and be willing to change. You being here shows you have the big part down, seeking. Now desire to really change. God bless you.

 

[brinny]

I think I'm starting to go crazy. I don't sleep. The world is beginning to feel numb. I cursed at my parents and I dishonor them. I'm so scared, I shouldn't have but I was so angry. I always feel bad. I'm starting to become this evil person. It's like the old me is looking at myself through a glass. It's like I'm drubk with no toxins. I suddenly have an urge to smoke, I want to smoke weed and cigarettes, I want something to take this edge off. I don't know who I am anymore. I always think about salvation and death. Life is not the same anymore. God is done with me, do you know how much I sin? It's like I do is sin and I still don't cease. I want to repent later but what if I don't have the chance? Why am I so stubborn? It's almost as if I'm falling into my own world. I don't want to wake up In hell. I wish I died as a baby so I would be in heaven. I'm so confused. I make everything about me. I wonder what God thinks of me. He sees my heart. I don't know where my hearts at. I'm writing under this forum in an anonymous account but this "christian forums" is my secret. Outside of this I'm just like the rest of the world. Christian forums has become like my diary. I write here, hoping to see someone who has a deep connection with Jesus Christ can give me some advice. I'm such a horrible person. I'm such a bad Person please don't tell me I'm good.im slowly starting to become angry at God. Because I always think he's out to get me, It's like God has been against me ever since my birth. If he really wanted me to be part of his kingdom I would've been chosen. Who knows if I am? God bless you Christian forums for always being here for me to type on. All around me are a bunch of fake Christians, who plaster a huge smile on their face. There is no one real. Just carnal minded Christians. And because I am a youth I am becoming one too. I wish I could speak to God, I would read the Bible if I didn't feel so attacked all the time. The Bible scares me. Where is god? He's out here saving so many lives will he save mine? I'm so lazy, you know, I pretend to be happy in real life, i cuss and listen to secular music and lust and I'm on my phone for 10+ hours a day. I wish I wasn't like this. I'm sorry for being so selfish

Praying for you (((hug)))

 

[macek]

Thank you friend, this helps a lot. Sometimes I think I commited that unforgivable sin. I used to have nick attacks that I did. Please friend, if you can please help me. And pray for me sincerely. I want to Give up my sin but at the same time I don't. I'm persisting in sin.

I know sister, you love and hate your sin as i did. It is an addiction we fight and must be fought as addiction would, by starving the beast, by forgiving yourself and by seeking Jesus and asking Him for help and guidance. We cant do this alone by ourselves, our willpower can be worn down and is insufficient, only with Him can we attain victory. It takes time and there were many ups and downs for me, but i tell you, i got tired of sinning and being apart from Him. With time my thoughts were more and more on Him and that helped me alot. that is why i recommend prayer, praise and good worship music. Also reading the Holy Scripture, try to read every day, even if only a little, it will help you being closer to Him.

I felt very unworthy and i thought i was done for, that i will never be able to love Him and that He will never forgive me, that he blotted me out and doesn't love me anymore. Hearing from Him being angry at me was horrific to me, i dint want Him to be angry at me anymore, i wished to see Him smiling instead. That's why forgiving oneself and others and asking for forgiveness is important as it heals you. Yesterday at work i did something stupid and i had to tell the supervisor about it. I told him honestly what happened and that it was my fault and i expected to be yelled at, since childhood i dislike yelling so it was a burden to my heart. As i approached him and told him what happened my heart was racing but he didn't yell or get mad at me at all, he was very kind and told me what to do if such a situation occurs again. Sister, i was so surprised and was exceedingly glad, i almost started to cry there in front of him. Forgiveness brings healing and blessing from the Lord.

Sister, you are here and you are honest. You didn't commit unpardonable sin, that would mean you would sever all ties to God and would refuse to hear Him, which you did not do. I will tell you, Jesus is with you and influencing you as we speak, so don't give up on Him and on yourself, sister. You are in my prayers, sister i sincerely wish you will find peace in Him and that He will move your heart and heal you. I can only help you by prayers and the advice i give and if it is of use to you i am glad for, but it is He who can truly help you, so lean on Jesus shoulder, be honest as you are here with us and ask for forgiveness and tell Him to help you so you would change and be pleasant in His eyes. Trust in Him and allow yourself time to heal and get closer to Him.

God bless you, sister in Jesus name. I am praying for you and cheering for you

 

[LostChildinTheMidst]

Thank you friend that means so much to me what you are doing and saying.God bless you forreal. You show me there is a hope through Jesus Christ. I don't know who you are friend, but I have an unexplainable unconditional love for you. I love you as a family member in Christ. Because you are so good and god spoke to me through you, may the Lord Jesus. Christ fill you with an everlasting heavenly peace. Thank you so much friend

 

[macek]

Thank you sister , from the bottom of my heart i thank you. Your kindness means alot to me. I am certain now that Jesus is healing us both right now. Yesterday He placed it on my heart to share my story, to tell a testimony of my life. I pondered what to write whole day and then your post appeared.

I also wish for you to be filled with joy and love and may you have an everlasting peace in Him. Bless you, sister in Jesus name. You are very kind person and i thank you, sister. Bless her heart Jesus and may she know joy and peace in You, Jesus. Amen.

 

[gennypearl]

I am praying for you. May you find that inspiration that is in Jesus Christ to go on with life because it's meant to be lived according to His Holy will and enjoyed at the same time. God bless you!

 

[gennypearl]

oops, posted a lot. sorry. praying for you!

 

[gennypearl]

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