I'm not going to spend a lot of time giving you a speach about all the things I could. I'm just here to tell you my testimony.
Alright here goes:
I am 21 years old now. I had a family of God ever since I was born. As I grew up, I developed many health troubles, starting with Tourette's Syndrome and ADHD.
All my young life, I was mocked and made fun of until I got into High School where my Tourettes finally began to settle down.
The longest and hardest part was years and years of scream attacks that Tourettes is popular for.
There were times when all I could do was stay home from school and scream out until I got sleepy and went to bed.
When I arrived at High School, I started getting addicted to pornagraphy. I was missing my real (Bio.) father and step father as well.
I was also skateboarding and playing video games all the time.
All was going well for a while, until I started having 1 panic attack a week that turned into 3 panic attacks a week.
As time went on, I couldn't even leave my own house without supervision because of the fainting spells I was having.
Yes, I was fainting along with these panic attacks. (We didn't know why until the next year).
In February the next year, I was seen by a Heart Cardiologist who diagnosed me with WPW (Wolfe Parkinson White Sydrome) which is an irregular heart rhythm.
After 2 heart cath procedures, my heart was feeling normal again.
All this time, I could not do anything but keep trusting that God is going to heal me one day.
Many times I would lay down on the ground, in bed, and on the couch with tears in my eyes, thinking how much it takes for a mortal to say the words "Lord, no matter what, I trust you"
For two years of panic attacks and no job and no friends to hang out and being alone at home while mom and my sister were gone to work and school made me grow closer to God's heart.
In February, I was admitted to the hospital for tests for my panic attacks but every time I was in the middle of an episode, all my vitals were normal.
In the morning, (after a good several days in the hospital) I was seen by a Psychologist who was very helpful. Now, I'm the kind of guy who will never see someone like this, but he was a God-Send.
He told me this: "It sounds like when you have a panic attack, it links up with your Tourette's Syndrome and makes them look like very voilent seizures."
He hit that on the nail. He prescribed me medication which I was soon going to be off of in a few months.
As the next year went on, I was still growing with God more and more and I began to really wonder what God's plan for me is.
As I kept praying for a while, I got an awakening:
I was soon on a BMX Racing bike and sponsored very guickly by a local bike shop.
As this year went on, (year 2007) I found myself writing poetry on a large level (I never wrote poetry in my life).
It is now December 2007 and God has had me home, Racing Bikes and writing poetry.
God has helped me to write 7 books that are self-published right now and still he is moving me forward.
One more testimony before I close with a letter:
In the summer of 2007, I was given a drumming position in a church in our town.
As time went on, I was posting sermons that God wanted me to post on myspace.com and the pastor and all the church congregation didn't like them, so they asked me to leave if these sermons are going to stay on myspace.
I said they are staying, so I was no longer the drummer for the church band.
As my final message closes, I want you all to hear this:
When God is silent, it's his most powerful intimate time with you.
And when all your friends leave you, your family abandons you, and you are alone with only you and God; that is a whole lot better for you, trust me because I've been there.
I write this for all who want to see that God can turn the most hopeless situations into great things.
God Bless You All
Jordan
Alright here goes:
I am 21 years old now. I had a family of God ever since I was born. As I grew up, I developed many health troubles, starting with Tourette's Syndrome and ADHD.
All my young life, I was mocked and made fun of until I got into High School where my Tourettes finally began to settle down.
The longest and hardest part was years and years of scream attacks that Tourettes is popular for.
There were times when all I could do was stay home from school and scream out until I got sleepy and went to bed.
When I arrived at High School, I started getting addicted to pornagraphy. I was missing my real (Bio.) father and step father as well.
I was also skateboarding and playing video games all the time.
All was going well for a while, until I started having 1 panic attack a week that turned into 3 panic attacks a week.
As time went on, I couldn't even leave my own house without supervision because of the fainting spells I was having.
Yes, I was fainting along with these panic attacks. (We didn't know why until the next year).
In February the next year, I was seen by a Heart Cardiologist who diagnosed me with WPW (Wolfe Parkinson White Sydrome) which is an irregular heart rhythm.
After 2 heart cath procedures, my heart was feeling normal again.
All this time, I could not do anything but keep trusting that God is going to heal me one day.
Many times I would lay down on the ground, in bed, and on the couch with tears in my eyes, thinking how much it takes for a mortal to say the words "Lord, no matter what, I trust you"
For two years of panic attacks and no job and no friends to hang out and being alone at home while mom and my sister were gone to work and school made me grow closer to God's heart.
In February, I was admitted to the hospital for tests for my panic attacks but every time I was in the middle of an episode, all my vitals were normal.
In the morning, (after a good several days in the hospital) I was seen by a Psychologist who was very helpful. Now, I'm the kind of guy who will never see someone like this, but he was a God-Send.
He told me this: "It sounds like when you have a panic attack, it links up with your Tourette's Syndrome and makes them look like very voilent seizures."
He hit that on the nail. He prescribed me medication which I was soon going to be off of in a few months.
As the next year went on, I was still growing with God more and more and I began to really wonder what God's plan for me is.
As I kept praying for a while, I got an awakening:
I was soon on a BMX Racing bike and sponsored very guickly by a local bike shop.
As this year went on, (year 2007) I found myself writing poetry on a large level (I never wrote poetry in my life).
It is now December 2007 and God has had me home, Racing Bikes and writing poetry.
God has helped me to write 7 books that are self-published right now and still he is moving me forward.
One more testimony before I close with a letter:
In the summer of 2007, I was given a drumming position in a church in our town.
As time went on, I was posting sermons that God wanted me to post on myspace.com and the pastor and all the church congregation didn't like them, so they asked me to leave if these sermons are going to stay on myspace.
I said they are staying, so I was no longer the drummer for the church band.
As my final message closes, I want you all to hear this:
When God is silent, it's his most powerful intimate time with you.
And when all your friends leave you, your family abandons you, and you are alone with only you and God; that is a whole lot better for you, trust me because I've been there.
I write this for all who want to see that God can turn the most hopeless situations into great things.
God Bless You All
Jordan
