Post here when you feel like cutting (2)

[Criada]

want to ...deep, deeper than av done before

Hang in there, sweetie - you can get through
Praying for you.

 

[Eishiba]

I'm praying for everyone.

 

[FoundInGrace]

yeah so i want to
i made a mistake and feel so bad about it i want to get away from how bad i feel

 

[Criada]

yeah so i want to
i made a mistake and feel so bad about it i want to get away from how bad i feel

Sorry you're feeling so bad, sweetie.
Try not to beat yourself up - I know it's hard, but we all make mistakes - you're human
Cutting seems like it will help now - but try to remember how you feel afterwards.. it doesn't make make things better, does it?

You can get through this, sweetie - praying for you

 

[Obzocky]

I hate/appreciate that the only thing stopping me from hurting myself is the fact I don't want to start yet another year where people I have known for less than a month are suddenly aware that i'm "one of those". I hate/appreciate that I'm frustrated that my access to preferred items for causing the hurt is restricted. I hate/appreciate the fact that recent infections have made me wary of doing anything involving skin breaking.

I just hate the fact part of me is screaming that it doesn't matter if I give in anyway, if I do or if I don't if anyone found out they'd brand me as attention seeking. Attention seeking for going through with it, attention seeking because I didn't, attention seeking because sometimes I wish I could talk about wanting to do something as casually as they talk about going out and getting incredibly drunk.

I just wish I didn't want to hurt myself so much and so often.

 

[Criada]

I can relate to a lot of what you said, sweetie.
It sounds like you are doing well - keep going. It really is worth it, even though it might not seem that way right now.

 

[lonlygirl]

Just watched a film and the main character tried to kill himself in the end. I was on edge anyway and the set me off i can feel the panic and desire. i don't know what to do. It is so bad i feel physically sick. Please pray cause i don't know what to do

 

[lonlygirl]

I am stuck in a boarding school and now it seems i have offended someone with something i didn't mean to say. I am really worried that they will speed it round that i have said stuff i don't remember saying. Please pray this situation. Is resolved with all remaining at last a little friendly cause i have to live with these people for the next two years and i don't think i can take being hated anymore than i am already cause they already ignore me completely and i hate it. I can't take much more and i feel like if i am ignored much more i will fade out of the world completely. PLEASE PRAY

 

[Solus Christus]

It's been 9 months, and tonight the temptation is strong. I don't want to start counting the days over again, I promised I wouldn't, but I want to so bad. I've been feeling alone, and I don't know what to do. :/

 

[Criada]

Hope that you are all doing well.

I'm struggling tonight... trying to distract myself, but it's not easy

 

[TomCS]

I'm not a cutter, but rather a puncher. I'm ready to start pounding punches onto myself this moment. I'm in a foul, angry mood. It's getting hard to control it, punching myself hard seems like the only relief. But I'm still dizzy a lot from the head punches I gave myself a month ago.

 

[Criada]

Oh Tom, I'm sorry.
Please try to find something else to punch - your head is so delicate!
A pillow, or if necessary a wall might give you the outlet you need without concussion!
Praying for you, brother

 

[FoundInGrace]

sigh.

 

[TomCS]

I'm feeling very unstable in the past hour or so. In that amount of time, I have gone from feeling rageful and wanting to punch myself, to laughing out loud in giddyness for no reason. I went from rageful to giddy for no apparent reason. I punched myself in the chest a couple of times an hour ago. That isn't good, but it's better than punching to the head.

 

[lonlygirl]

i don't think i can take all of these memories being brought to the surface. I can feel it coming back and I don't think i can take it. I don't have any safties in place for this. PLEASE HELP ME. I can't take this much longer. what should i do

 

[loverules]

It feels so hard holding onto both mine and my friend's pain...i almost cut 2 days ago cuz of so much frustration, anger, stress, heart ache, memories. I havent cut in almost 2 months though, so im happy bout that, but its getting so hard to stay away from doing it again.
I'm scared to tell some people as i dont want to hurt them, i've told my mom of my constant depression, and then when i try to make a choice ash gives me the negatives. I just feel like she doesnt want me to do anything with my life, or she is trying to confuse me.

anyways, please pray i have the strength not to do it, cuz its so tempting to just end it all, thanks x

 

[NumberOfStars]

It's really hard right now, I thought I was over it and could stop this destructive behaviour. I'm shaking as I write this, I'm not strong enough to give it up, I'm going to try and get through the night without giving in.

 

[Criada]

It's really hard right now, I thought I was over it and could stop this destructive behaviour. I'm shaking as I write this, I'm not strong enough to give it up, I'm going to try and get through the night without giving in.

It's a journey, sweetie. You are strong enough - you are doing so well! There will be bumps in the road, but that's all they are, it doesn't mean the journey is over.
Praying for you, sister - hang in there!!

 

[_Ella_]

I want to cut at the moment but my sister is up visiting me
so am keeping busy with her here

 

[loverules]

I'm sick of it all, i really am... i just want everything to end so bad but theres this tiny voice telling me to keep going, and every passing day i hate myself more and more and no one in my life seems to care :'( .... Someone please Help me x