i can't stop this never ending curse. i have anorexia and bulimia. i am 16 and have been to 5 ed clinics (rtc's) in about a yr. the thoughts keep coming back into my head. my entire world revolves around my weight. if it's not one thing it's another. ed or s/h both go hand in hand with my thoughts. i don't know what's going to happen. i have health problems, possible liver damage (still awaiting reply), and am in a down ward slope and cant find my way back up. why can't i just be healthy and look the way i want to. if i gain a lbs, i freak out. i don;t know what to do! i don't have enough insurance to cover another psychologist... i just want to be healthy... is that too much to ask?