As I sit here, dazed and confused of what has happened in my life the past week, I wonder why bad things are happening to me and my life right now... What is going on? Thursday, February 12th, 2004 has changed my life forever. That day, I came upon a big stumble in my religious walk through Christianity. I saw shadows twice last week, once in a dream and once when i woke up for no apparent reason with a shadow floating left to right in front of my eyes. My room now, strangely enough, has no heat due to a busted vent underneath the floor. Christian friends and loved ones said it's a distraction from satan. As I am a new believer, I was told he will disturb my new found religion. Now, I have to decide whether Go Ahead or Turn Back. I decided to Go Ahead...recover myself from the fall. I couldn't get up until after 2-3 days later... Just when I thought things are looking better, I fell again. This time, my girlfriend left me. Is this, again, the act of satan? I prayed to Lord and ask why he let these things happen to me... I read that He has a good plan for everybody...does me being fearful at first and now, heartbroken good for me? I fall over and over again...I'm starting to doubt things. Lord has conquered satan, but He still allows this to happen to me...i wonder why...
Please have mercy when replying...feeling very vulnerable
Please have mercy when replying...feeling very vulnerable