pls help me

[iluvtheSims]

When i was younger i was diagnosed with many disorders but I think they all truly are aspergers.

 

[dayhiker]

I've heard others have had a similar experience to yours.

 

[chapmic]

Praying for you! And don't worry about the past each day is an opportunity to show the new identity we have in Christ. God bless!

 

[iluvtheSims]

Thanks like sometimes it's hard to say things without offending someone, and they say I talk fast, loud, and I am rude/arrogant, but to me I'm not trying to be that way. Also I laugh during convos because I don't know how else to react, it's like when is the convo gonna be over? I do not know what else to do. Also why cannot I not look people in the eyes when they ask me? I do not know, it's highly disturbing to me, I just cannot do that. People say I am weird, dramatic, mean, arrogant, insensitive, and so forth but I honestly don't see how... It's like people don't realize I am just being me. I wonder in my mind, how can I fix this if I cannot see their point, ya know? Sometimes it hurts to not have friends, and people say cruel things like - no wonder you have no friends, and it makes you wonder, like yea so why don't I have friends? I feel overwhelmed like how can I fit my thoughts into a complete sentence, and get people to see I am not being mean, I am saying it nice... whats so wrong with my voice? Why and how is it not appropriate? How can I make it appropriate? I am always wondering about why, why this why that... I am tired of hurting people or saying jokes that are not funny, it's like you say I am rude or weird, well I do not honestly see how...

 

[MoeSzyslak]

When i was younger i was diagnosed with many disorders but I think they all truly are aspergers.

It's very possible. I was diagnosed with general anxiety, OCD and elective mutism decades before my aspergers diagnosis. I don't think they were bad diagnosis's. Just incomplete.

 

[iluvtheSims]

Ty for the reply

 

[dayhiker]

Very good questions and not questions that we find answers to quickly.

I too didn't use to look people in the eye, but over many years I've learned to. Now I love to look people in the eye. But I still notice I don't usually notice what they eye color is, so I guess even tho I'm looking I'm not seeing. But they don't know that!

How do you feel about looking yourself in the eye in a mirror?

 

[iluvtheSims]

Very good questions and not questions that we find answers to quickly.

I too didn't use to look people in the eye, but over many years I've learned to. Now I love to look people in the eye. But I still notice I don't usually notice what they eye color is, so I guess even tho I'm looking I'm not seeing. But they don't know that!

How do you feel about looking yourself in the eye in a mirror?

What's weird is it bothers me to even look at my own eyes for too long in the mirror... Is that weird??

 

[MoeSzyslak]

What's weird is it bothers me to even look at my own eyes for too long in the mirror... Is that weird??

It sounds normal to me

 

[Sword of the Lord]

Thanks like sometimes it's hard to say things without offending someone, and they say I talk fast, loud, and I am rude/arrogant, but to me I'm not trying to be that way. Also I laugh during convos because I don't know how else to react, it's like when is the convo gonna be over? I do not know what else to do. Also why cannot I not look people in the eyes when they ask me? I do not know, it's highly disturbing to me, I just cannot do that. People say I am weird, dramatic, mean, arrogant, insensitive, and so forth but I honestly don't see how... It's like people don't realize I am just being me.

I share your pain here. Unless it's a super controlled environment and I have had time to mentally prepare, eye contact is distressing for me and causes uncontrollable flushing. I just want to fall into a hole in the floor and hide.

 

[Sword of the Lord]

Very good questions and not questions that we find answers to quickly.

I too didn't use to look people in the eye, but over many years I've learned to. Now I love to look people in the eye. But I still notice I don't usually notice what they eye color is, so I guess even tho I'm looking I'm not seeing. But they don't know that!

How do you feel about looking yourself in the eye in a mirror?

Wow. I didn't know the color of my own eyes until I was 17. I didn't know the color of my wife's eyes for the first couple of years we were together, and I couldn't tell you the color of my son or my daughters eyes. I have always wondered why I don't notice eye color at all. I don't know the color of my parents or my siblings eyes.

 

[KnowHisJoy77]

Hi there! Praying that you find answers and be at peace.

grace to you!

 

[iluvtheSims]

I share your pain here. Unless it's a super controlled environment and I have had time to mentally prepare, eye contact is distressing for me and causes uncontrollable flushing. I just want to fall into a hole in the floor and hide.

It disturbs me but I do not know why

 

[KnowHisJoy77]

It sounds normal to me

is that so? Why is that? Is this common to Asperger's? Dont you look familiar to yourself? Dont you like what you see and smile making faces?

I am curious to understand.