PleASW HELP.

[CarolineBlue]

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHH!!!!!!!!!


AARGH!!!

I prayed and prayed and prayed that the guy I am in love with would Love me back. He doesn't care. Today is the saddest day for me my dog will be put down tomorrow. No-one cares. He doesn't care. God doesn't care I've said so many Novenas all I can do is cry I can't do anything at all about it it's out of my hands. No-one cares. No-one CARES! I don't understand why am I here I am in so much PAIN!!! IT HURTS!!!!! IT REALLY HURTS why do I have no-one? Oh God what's wrong with me I hurt so bad nothing helps nothing helps nothing helps me I have nobody they don't care !!!

I want to be dead. I built my future around helping this guy and nothing helps. Not mass not anything. I wanted to help him become a Christian. I asked him to pray for my dog and he didn't write back. He's since written to others though and posted on another forum. He doesn't care about ME. And I have no-one to talk to I can't make anyone care. Why do I feel this way? I am doing my best. Please help. Counselling doesn't help. Tablets don't help they just make you get addicted.
I don't know what more to do. I have noone I am scared to go to sleep. I am so scared and sad I don't tihknI ll ever be normal again. I don't want to lose my baby dog. I don't want to lose my faith or my caring for this guy. I don't know what to do.

 

[hasnoname]

Pain really sucks. Trust me. Out of no where my girlfriend of 2 years, who I was very serious about and could even see marrying broke up with me. Whats worse is my ex-youth pastor was the "new" guy she liked. Pain sucks. Thats it. However, think of the story of Job. He lost so much and remained steadfast in his love for God. Think of this as a test. God will not test you beyond what you can bear. What a blessing. Take it as a compliment, that God chose you to bear this pain. It will hurt, just as mine still hurts. But, through God all things are possible. Christ died for our sins through the worst of ways. What happens to us is nothing compared to what happened to Our Lord. I dont know if you are familiar with this praise/worship song (dont know if you are into comtemporary p & w) but this helped me a lot.

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

This song is great because it deals with how life is. Blessed be the Name of our Lord in the good times and the bad. Without Him, we are nothing but sinful beings. "You give and take away"- yeah it hurts really bad, but Blessed be Your Name. Think of Genesis 22- this really helped me too. Abraham was willing to sacrifice the most dear thing in the world because God told him to. Sometimes you have to do painful things. And as much as you love this guy, if it is not meant to be, and love is a two way thing, than just let go. It will be painful and it will tear you apart, but in the end there is someone out there for you and you only. While you are convinced now that this guy is the one, anyone who turns his back on you is not good enough. You deserve the best. You are God's princess. Just remember, God has a plan for you and He will always be there to guide you. God bless you and I hope this helps,

Chris

 

[Stanfi]

CarolineBlue,

I am sorry to hear that you are suffering under the nasty cloud of depression. It is no fun, and that is and understatement.

Regarding your boyfriend, I know firsthand that you cannot make someone love you no matter how much you love them. I too, have suffered pain at hand of insentive people. It is a difficult thing to cope with, that you put your all into someone else and that were not willing to reciporocate. However, it is an important truth, that if they don't care about you, then you don't need them in your life. You need someone better, someone who will appreciate you and value you. Time will heal your wounds.

I am sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved pet. I have an aging Golden-Retriever that I dread to see that day that he will be gone. However, if your pet is in a condition that he must be put down. Then their is no quality of life their for them, and even though this is hard, it will free them from their pain. Sometimes we have to look at what is better for someone else and not for ourself.

 

[CarolineBlue]

This guy isn't my boyfriend just a friend who I've liked for ages. It just sucks because he's so friendly to everyone yet strangely weird about tihis sort of thing. I don't think he'd deliberately try to hurt my feelings I honestly don't think he thinks it's a huge deal.

But that sucks you know? Because this is a huge deal to me. One time when I was a bit down he asked me what's wrong and said I can talk to him but when I told him how I was sad about ym dog being sick(a different occasion to this)he didn't mention that but mentioned a concert we both want to see. It's kinda like...he doesn't like talking about bad things or something.

It would kill me to think he had a GF and maybe that's what it is-maybe he doesn't know how to tell me to back off.

I think I'll just back off anyway, I'm not desperate and I won't let anyone treat me wrong it's more an online thing and while I know some people look for love online I don't want to-did that once and it worked out very bad. I just want to be friends and maybe if we were to meet at some point with other friends it would turn out. Hard to explain all this is. I just, I don't want to lose my dog and friendships and everything because this guy I may actually end up working with you see. He works for a company I may be working for and I may be moving to his city so it's not like it's so improbable of me to think maybe this guy might end up being "The one" you know? But I've begged God and pleaded for me to accept His will as He makes it known to me so that I don't feel the wrong way about someone. I don't want to get hurt. It hurts all this not knowing and indecision because come November I will be in the city where this guy is and we are all(others from this forum) going to meet up. He doesn't know I like him in a romantic sense but...I'd like to just feel the right things for him so I don't get hurt or confused and I don't want to hurt others either you know?

 

[leigh01]

Pain really sucks. Trust me. Out of no where my girlfriend of 2 years, who I was very serious about and could even see marrying broke up with me. Whats worse is my ex-youth pastor was the "new" guy she liked. Pain sucks. Thats it. However, think of the story of Job. He lost so much and remained steadfast in his love for God. Think of this as a test. God will not test you beyond what you can bear. What a blessing. Take it as a compliment, that God chose you to bear this pain. It will hurt, just as mine still hurts. But, through God all things are possible. Christ died for our sins through the worst of ways. What happens to us is nothing compared to what happened to Our Lord. I dont know if you are familiar with this praise/worship song (dont know if you are into comtemporary p & w) but this helped me a lot.

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

This song is great because it deals with how life is. Blessed be the Name of our Lord in the good times and the bad. Without Him, we are nothing but sinful beings. "You give and take away"- yeah it hurts really bad, but Blessed be Your Name. Think of Genesis 22- this really helped me too. Abraham was willing to sacrifice the most dear thing in the world because God told him to. Sometimes you have to do painful things. And as much as you love this guy, if it is not meant to be, and love is a two way thing, than just let go. It will be painful and it will tear you apart, but in the end there is someone out there for you and you only. While you are convinced now that this guy is the one, anyone who turns his back on you is not good enough. You deserve the best. You are God's princess. Just remember, God has a plan for you and He will always be there to guide you. God bless you and I hope this helps,

Chris

that song really helpes me out its gr8 i really love it

 

[hasnoname]

You know, feelings are natural blessings from God which sometimes turn around and seclude us from the ones we love; especially when they are not mutual between both individuals. However, there is good from this and just keep your eyes on the Maker no matter what pain you are in. Honestly, it will all work out for your good if you do that; that is no lie. Because even if your earthly life sucks, if you endure pain and suffering in this life, and maintain your faith and constantly turn to the Lord, plentiful will be your gifts in heaven because you were a fighter for your Lord.

So yeah, it really hurts when you feel some way for someone special and they dont feel the same for you. I know first hand. It really blows and it can just knock you down. But use the all powerful God, use the power Christ provides for us, and get up and praise the Lord. Because in the end, we spend the rest of our eternity with God. How insignificant these lives truly are in the grand scheme of things (dont take that the wrong way. this is in comparison to God's glory). The struggles we endure on Earth are miniscule compared with the age-long battle between God and Satan, the one we are very much involved in.

So I know this might work for guys (im not female so I dont know how you would take it) but be a soldier for God. Overcome these challenges and the enemy who puts thoughts in your head to depress you. I need to. Everyone needs to. It is a battle, but if you just have pure faith (or as much as possible for a person) and focus on God, he will provide everything. It is hard to accept and I really havent had to deal with that part in life yet, but I know that to get through it, just trust in the Savior.

 

[CarolineBlue]

Why would God continue to allow me to feel things I shouldn't for someone?

 

[CarolineBlue]

I have prayed to accept Gods' will and everything I don't want to feel this way I've tried to reject this person and just be a friend to him. This isn't working. It's been ages what does God want from me??? I am doing what God says it doesn't matter what I do God seems to want me to be unhappy and don't say He doesn't because I am doing everything and still I get pain. I don't know what moree can be done.

 

[dr.p]

I have prayed to accept Gods' will and everything I don't want to feel this way I've tried to reject this person and just be a friend to him. This isn't working. It's been ages what does God want from me??? I am doing what God says it doesn't matter what I do God seems to want me to be unhappy and don't say He doesn't because I am doing everything and still I get pain. I don't know what moree can be done.

I sympathize... I truly do. I've been torn to pieces a couple times in my life by women who didn't share my feelings... I mourned my loss in them... I cried out to God in pain and wondered what on earth was wrong with me... actually, I obsessed about what was wrong with me until I fell into a very deep depression.

When I came to my sense, though, i gave up on relationships, and instead sought God. The only aim i really had was finding out what He was all about... and, really, why i believed in Him... and I thank God that He let me go through those relationships, despite how horrid they felt.

Turns out He didn't want me to worry about what i wanted, or who i wanted to be with... who i was in love with... He wanted me to worry about Him, and what i could do to be fruitful for Him... that's all any of us need to worry about... our Heavenly Father's will.... and it's not what He wants from you... it's what He made you for that you should be asking Him about... because before any of us were in the womb, He fashioned us to His liking, for His purpose.

Oddly enough, my dad gave me a book about bearing fruit and trusting God today... it's called The Secrets of The Vine... it's prooty good reading... and very uplifting, imho.

So, overall... perhaps God wants you to worry about His will. But in the interim... perhaps He's looking for you to trust Him in spite of the odds... and, very importantly, to praise him in spite of the pain.

God bless you in your journey with Him... may it be an ever brightening one

P.S. God really doesn't want you to be unhappy... but He will most certainly let you be if you choose to be... I chose it for a long time... but, praise God, a long time isn't forever

 

[CarolineBlue]

I've been focusing lately on nothing BUT God and it sucks, to be honest. It really isn't helping things keep getting worse. I am only a few things away before becoming an Atheist because it's just not working out for me and I've been a Christian for 25 years.

I won't waste any more of my life Praying for a lost cause-me. If God wants me to do something great or be whatever He'd better steer me right NOW. I am sick of waiting here am I not supposed to ever be happy at all??? I try so hard to find joy in things and it just does not happen.

 

[hasnoname]

God would never want this to happen. The point is He wont make you happy. Look at the story in of Job. Life can be horrific. Just stick in there and keep your eyes on God. He does love you. Just have comfort in that and accept it. Dont give up.

 

[luv4godremains]

God has a reason for everything, and plans for everyone, I'll be praying for you!