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[SpiritualJourney]

I was diagnosed with multiple personality disorder (dissociative identity disorder, as it is currently referred to) around 1985, when I was in counselling. I had been a victim at an extremely young age of ritual abuse, including sexual abuse. It lasted until I was eleven, when my family moved from Los Angeles County to the upper high dessert a couple of hours away. I did not start having memories until after I was in counseling. But never did a counselor let me know about this type of ritual abuse. I told them. And it was accurate. I was married to an abuser in 1980 who did not take well to my "mental-illness." I am divorced right now, having been separated in January of 2001, after 20 years of marriage, divorcing 11/03. I have joined a wonderful church, after a long search, who has supported me in my struggles with this and other issues. If there is anyone reading this who suffers from this particular disorder, please respond. I am very interested in learning how others have dealt with this, especially from a Christian perspection, and with the help from God.

 

[Theresasjourney]

Hi..I'm D.I.D.
mostly integrated now after yrs of therapy..living a good fullfilling life...God was awesome in my healing....and He will be in yours...;o)
I am from SRA/RA abuse...
Any particular things you would like to discuss?
I am off here for the night...be back in the morning...

 

[whitedove7]

Hi! I used to be DID. I was diagnosed about 6 years ago and went through hell learning about the memories but at the same time it gave me relief for the missing time, etc.

I'm healed today! prasie the Lord and want to give you hope that it can happen for you too. I started out with LPC councelor that did nothing for me, then christian counselor that did Theophostics but what got me healed is when I went to Pleasant Valley Church in Pleasant Valley, Georgia. They knew how to work with DID and had two good sessions with them and then got about 5 more sessions by a guy that knew how to do the ministry and praise God, I'm healed completely.

So, I want to give you hope that you can be healed completely. I had been working with DID folks before Georgia but now I truly know how to minister the way Jesus did and see much faster results.

My story is a little different! My parents were not involved in a cult but because I had so many problems as a child, I went to a clinic for 3 years 3 times a week for half a day and when I was there, I had all kinds of ritual abuse done to me. I had no memories until about 3 years ago. I was used for pornography rings to help cults raise money. Fun! Then my grandfather, who was a 33 mason even did masonic ritual abuse to me as well. That was tough.

My parents didn't have a clue but knew about the sexual abuse and physical abuse from my brother. At least some of it. it caused lots of problems when I was about 17 years ago and caused great division in my family. Now the Lord has healed that as well.

Anyway, there is hope to be completely whole. Unfortunately, LPC, psychiatrists and so on will have you coming forever to get well. What happened to me in Georgia was wonderful. I even had much healing in my health as well such as healing of my Asthma, insomnia, wrestless leg syndrom, etc. The best of all is being whole. I went to my counselor months later and had me checked out and was released completely and still fine today. Again, there is hope for you and you can be whole completely.

 

[SpiritualJourney]

Dear Theresasjourney...I was a victim of Satanic Ritual Abuse when I was young. Now I'm almost 55. I went through years of therapy as well. And, although I had a psychiatric nurse practicioner I saw for 3-4 years who most of my alters appreciated, I can't say I became very integrated. When my HMO changed and I had to stop seeing her, she let me know that it would take 2 years or so of 3-times a week therapy and lots of expense to get well. And, she added, at my age (about 52) it would all become undone in no time, as my brain is used to being this way. My church has been somewhat helpful, but my pastor's wife, strong in the Lord, told me it was being "double minded" and "unstablel in all his/her ways." I'm glad for you, being where you are. I'm divorced after 20 plus years of abuse. And, belonging to a good church, and spending time with my Lord on a daily basis and in His Word, has been my savings. Anything you can share, I would appreciate. I just know that this is a delicate issue. Thanks...SpiritualJourney

Hi..I'm D.I.D.
mostly integrated now after yrs of therapy..living a good fullfilling life...God was awesome in my healing....and He will be in yours...;o)
I am from SRA/RA abuse...
Any particular things you would like to discuss?
I am off here for the night...be back in the morning...

 

[RJHarmony84]

Hi...not to be horribly intrusive, but can you tell me what the symptoms of DID are? PM me if you'd rather.

 

[Theresasjourney]

Dear Theresasjourney...I was a victim of Satanic Ritual Abuse when I was young. Now I'm almost 55. I went through years of therapy as well. And, although I had a psychiatric nurse practicioner I saw for 3-4 years who most of my alters appreciated, I can't say I became very integrated. When my HMO changed and I had to stop seeing her, she let me know that it would take 2 years or so of 3-times a week therapy and lots of expense to get well. And, she added, at my age (about 52) it would all become undone in no time, as my brain is used to being this way. My church has been somewhat helpful, but my pastor's wife, strong in the Lord, told me it was being "double minded" and "unstablel in all his/her ways." I'm glad for you, being where you are. I'm divorced after 20 plus years of abuse. And, belonging to a good church, and spending time with my Lord on a daily basis and in His Word, has been my savings. Anything you can share, I would appreciate. I just know that this is a delicate issue. Thanks...SpiritualJourney

Well..do you think while you were seeing the practioner you learned some really good healing skills/tools?
Do you feel you and your alters do well with communicating?
You are on the right track spending time with God and in His word and prayer..God is your revealer of what needs to be done.
Always invite Him [God] into any and every form of your recovery..and He will be faithful.
Take time to journal each day..and let your alters journal.
Though it would be the best case senario to see a T a couple times a week most of the time thats isn't feasible...
but I would advise you to plug into a good T who works with DiD and has some understanding of sra and preferably a christian....I personally think that you could do ok with seeing one just every couple of weeks if you already have some good healing tools in place and God is with you. its just real nice to have that safe person who can listen and give guidance if needed.
When have inner trust has been established...God can do lots with that and healing can go a long long ways within ourselves and our working on our own with Gods help.
One can actually say tons and tons on this lol..this is a good start.
Feel free to ask more and talk about more if you feel safe to...k
praying for you....;o)

 

[Theresasjourney]

Hi...not to be horribly intrusive, but can you tell me what the symptoms of DID are? PM me if you'd rather.

There would be some great online resources you can check out by going to google and putting in symptoms dissociative identity disorder.
the scale and sypmtoms are pretty broad and usually diagnosis needs to be done by a psyc who is experienced in the field...
blessings...

 

[RJHarmony84]

There would be some great online resources you can check out by going to google and putting in symptoms dissociative identity disorder.
the scale and sypmtoms are pretty broad and usually diagnosis needs to be done by a psyc who is experienced in the field...
blessings...

Ok thanks. Will be praying for you guys/gals, God bless. Bye

 

[Hisbygrace]

Hi, I have PTSD (Post Tramatic Stress Disorder) associated with Dissociative Disorder.
I don't know if our symtoms are the same because I do not have mutiple personialities, but I do seperate from myself. I have been seeing therapists since I was nineteen years old.When I speak of dissociation, it is like out of body experiences. It started when I was about 9 years old. One night my stepfather came into my room as usual to do his thing and I can remember that I was standing behind my closet door watching what he was doing. They said that this occured because the trauma was to much for my mind to take, so I seperated myself from the situation. Throughout the following years I have had several of these experiences when stressed. There was a time when I was talking on the phone and I suddenly found myself standing by the kitchen sink watching myself talk on the phone. I have also watched myself sleep. These experiences are very disnerving. for many years I sought no help and just believed that I was going crazy. After I had my second child I became very dislusional and started thinking of hurting myself and the children, that is when I started seeking help. I have been in therapy off and on since. But in 1995 when I accepted jesus as my personal Savior the serperation disorder stopped. I still see a therapist for ongoing depression, but have made giant strives in healing with Christ helping me. He continues to change the way that I look at things and He carries me through each day. I pray that He will work in the same way in your life and give you peace in the midst of the storms. Your sister in Christ, Janice

 

[MsWingz]

I've yet to find a church that "accepts" the dx. Church AND T shopping and T training is beyond awful.

Would like pvt msg w some who understand?