I am a Christian who is in recovery (drug & alcohol issues)
recently Ive discovered that I have a vast and armor clad network of co dependent behaviors and habits. I now realize that I am a double minded man, unstable in my ways, a people pleaser of the worst kind
seeking to pleasing anyone who comes my way even if it means betraying the next person. My marriage need so, so, so much help. I know it all starts with me.
On top of all of this...I relapsed on drugs back in December 03 and again with alcohol in Feb 04. I am married and my marriage relationship has suffered because of these two things. First and foremost, I need change in my attitudes and ways of doing things and relate to people. But I also realize that my wife needs a cleansing and healing in her heart due to the betrayal and lies that I have shown her.
I cannot blame her for not trusting me and not feeling the same way about me as she did before. Most of this depends on me acting and doing things differently...pleasing God rather than whatever person is in front of me at the time. Some depends on whether or not God can reach into my wife's heart and soften her to the point that we can come together in love and trust once again. Please Please pray for us...I love her very much...she has stopped trusting God and stopped going to Church with me...we are for all purposes separated, living in the same house...please pray that God would make her heart more tolerant, encouraging and her attitude less harsh. And then please pray for me that God would restore me with His integrity and competency and give, grow and maintain a desire and eagerness within me to do the things necessary to throw off these dysfunctional habits for holy, healing and God pleasing habits.
On top of all of this...I relapsed on drugs back in December 03 and again with alcohol in Feb 04. I am married and my marriage relationship has suffered because of these two things. First and foremost, I need change in my attitudes and ways of doing things and relate to people. But I also realize that my wife needs a cleansing and healing in her heart due to the betrayal and lies that I have shown her.
I cannot blame her for not trusting me and not feeling the same way about me as she did before. Most of this depends on me acting and doing things differently...pleasing God rather than whatever person is in front of me at the time. Some depends on whether or not God can reach into my wife's heart and soften her to the point that we can come together in love and trust once again. Please Please pray for us...I love her very much...she has stopped trusting God and stopped going to Church with me...we are for all purposes separated, living in the same house...please pray that God would make her heart more tolerant, encouraging and her attitude less harsh. And then please pray for me that God would restore me with His integrity and competency and give, grow and maintain a desire and eagerness within me to do the things necessary to throw off these dysfunctional habits for holy, healing and God pleasing habits.


