Please pray for me.....

Dak man · Sep 21, 2004

I am an 18 year old college student. In high school I was an athlete (swimmer). I worked very hard in swimming to get where colleges wanted me to go to them. I had deals set up with TCU (texas christian university) and LSU. At the last moment both of these dreams were taken away from me by things out of my control. At LSU, the coach got fired ONE WEEK before I was to sign my letter of intent. At TCU, my school made an error in my application that was something that could not be fixed. After all of this, I used video games to escape the pain of my broken dreams. Through all of this, my girlfriend of one year helped me through it. She was someone I had a crush on for quite some time, and she was probably the only reason I lifted myself from the TV and tried another go at my goals. I am attending junior college and was still training to achieve swimming in college. I recently realized that I should be focusing on something else, my girlfriend. As a christian I will be honest with you. We had sex several times. Yesterday I realized that what I should do, is go to school with her. I quit training and planned on transferring to her colleges honor program in the spring. Today I got an email saying that she wanted to see other people. She and I are strong in our faith, but I admit that my faith is teetering on the edge of a knifepoint now.

In addition to all of this, my family has fallen apart too. My closest cousing, who because I have no brothers I consider them my brothers. Are basically all turning to drugs and crime because they feel that life is hopeless.

I feel that god has been testing me, and right when I chose the right decison I feel that he took the last thing I had left away from me. Again Ill be honest, I havent been to church lately because I really do feel that god is punishing me for something. She is the only woman I ever want to be with, and I know that in her heart she feels the same.

This may seem petty and it is my first post. But if anyone can give me advie or pray for me that would be most appreciated. I have been a man of faith all my life, but for my dreams and my love to be taken away from me so soon after I was at such high of a peak, is almost more than i can bear.

crossrunner · Sep 21, 2004

Dear one...
I wish I could give you meaningful advice but since I've never walked in your shoes I can only offer encouragement and prayer to help heal your broken heart.
I pray that you will stay strong in your faith and know that when all seems hopeless Jesus is always there and He will fill you with His hope and love.
Meanwhile, the only advice I will offer is for you to get back into church and immerse yourself in God's word and in the fellowship of other believers. You need the support. Pray for guidance on your future and please don't give up on your dreams. God has given you a special gift (swimming). Use if for His glory!

God bless you!
cr

All4THALORD · Sep 21, 2004

Dak man said:
I am an 18 year old college student. In high school I was an athlete (swimmer). I worked very hard in swimming to get where colleges wanted me to go to them. I had deals set up with TCU (texas christian university) and LSU. At the last moment both of these dreams were taken away from me by things out of my control. At LSU, the coach got fired ONE WEEK before I was to sign my letter of intent. At TCU, my school made an error in my application that was something that could not be fixed. After all of this, I used video games to escape the pain of my broken dreams. Through all of this, my girlfriend of one year helped me through it. She was someone I had a crush on for quite some time, and she was probably the only reason I lifted myself from the TV and tried another go at my goals. I am attending junior college and was still training to achieve swimming in college. I recently realized that I should be focusing on something else, my girlfriend. As a christian I will be honest with you. We had sex several times. Yesterday I realized that what I should do, is go to school with her. I quit training and planned on transferring to her colleges honor program in the spring. Today I got an email saying that she wanted to see other people. She and I are strong in our faith, but I admit that my faith is teetering on the edge of a knifepoint now.

In addition to all of this, my family has fallen apart too. My closest cousing, who because I have no brothers I consider them my brothers. Are basically all turning to drugs and crime because they feel that life is hopeless.

I feel that god has been testing me, and right when I chose the right decison I feel that he took the last thing I had left away from me. Again Ill be honest, I havent been to church lately because I really do feel that god is punishing me for something. She is the only woman I ever want to be with, and I know that in her heart she feels the same.

This may seem petty and it is my first post. But if anyone can give me advie or pray for me that would be most appreciated. I have been a man of faith all my life, but for my dreams and my love to be taken away from me so soon after I was at such high of a peak, is almost more than i can bear.

Hey man i feel you. I've been in similar situations. I just kept on believing and trusting in Him. Read all of Job. It will help. I will definitly pray for you and if you ever need to talk, just PM me. Please don't hesitate.
With love and concern
All4THALORD

All4one · Sep 21, 2004

Yes, Job is an awesome encourager. Another thing to be aware of is allowing satan to slowly pull you away from God. As I read down through your list in order it was one thing after another and after each event there seemed to be a lost piece of your relationship with God and not the world.
I cannot say I know exactly how you feel because I don't. I have never had many hard situations hit me at one time... but im sure I will, everyone does. Remember this, trials either make us stronger in God or weaker in Him... they either make us sell out more to Him or satan. Beware though that selling things out to satan will eventually become more horrible then all these events happening in one day! I'm sure you already know these things.
You seem to be at a crucial stage of decision here and that is the time right before the decision is final. PLEASE remember this if anything:
NEVER MAKE PERMANENT DECISIONS ON TEMPORARY SITUATIONS!

Your trial is brutal and tough to say the least but remember that the reason for these dispicable things are satans rebellion and our sin. It was all caused because of a simple rebellion... It makes me HATE satan. So be careful not to, in these circumstances, find yourself near the one who caused these problems. God allows them only so that we can have refuge in Him and grow near Him.

In Love,
All4one

Ceenwc · Sep 22, 2004

Dak Man after reading your post I would like to encourage you to get back to your rightful place in God. It is the enemies job to tear down, steal and destroy. It is your job to STAND! This race is not given to the swift, neither to the strong. You must learn to ENDURE! This is a test, and only a test just to show you where you stand in your relationship with God. There are areas that need improving, we all have fallen short. Beacuse of your honesty the healing process can begin. Ask God for direction and follow His leading. He wants to direct your path. I know the pain oh too well. I let my trust in another almost crush me to the point that I thought I would never rise again. I wanted to die and that's when the Lord said live, stand. An after you have done all that you know to do. STAND! Be encouraged, your not alone. God has better for you, don't settle for less. Go to the school God tells you to go. Things will work out. We at times want to take people with us when God wants us to walk with Him. Obey Him. Trust Him. He will not steer you wrong. :crosself: Father, I pray that your child will submit fully to You and not move until he hears and understands clearly and then obeys. In Jesus' name. Amen. Obey God you will never go wrong. God Bless

skatergirl4God · Sep 22, 2004

I'm feeling the same way, I wander if God even exisits sometimes. Just keep at, I have a feeling we'll al make it thru

ukok · Sep 22, 2004

I will pray for you.

God Bless.

TheOriginalWhitehorse · Sep 22, 2004

Dak, I'm sorry for your pain and I pray the Lord will redeem your dreams. Sometimes He puts them on hold so we can see where we're putting our faith, and we all go through this testing. It's the thing that solidifies your faith into an eternal commitment with Him. It's the point where we discover that the Lord has us here for a purpose, and it mayu not be the purpose we had for ourselves. All we can see is what we can see.

As painful as the situation is with your girlfriend, I really think it's best you don't go to school with her. For most people, it takes a lot of work to keep the commitment to abstain until marriage, and if you two are going to be able to help each other in your walks with the Lord, sin can't be in the picture, and maybe that's what your girlfriend has in mind by stepping back for now. Who knows-maybe being apart is God's plan for bringing you back together again someday. But until your schooling is finished and your career established, it may be very hard for you to be on good terms with the Lord if she is near you, so God will cut down every high place, everything that stands between you and Him. Anything that weakens your commitment to living for Christ will be cut down-because the Lord is faithful to preserve His own. Anything that causees you to sin, God will take away because that thing will threaten your soul.

This is your opportunity to make the Lord's will your only desire. When you do, He will redeem your dreams. Sometimes in the way you expect, and other times He'll give you something far better than you ever dreamed for yourself.

Peace, grace and healing to you,
Whitehorse

Mrs. Matt Dally · Sep 23, 2004

Dak Man,

I'll be praying for you. You have alot on your plate. I don't really have much advice to give you, I'm not as spiritually wise as all the ones who have posted before me, but I will be praying for you, and tell all my Christian friends to pray for you too.

Uriah · Sep 28, 2004

I will pray for you, god bless you and all your family

Dak man · Sep 28, 2004

Some of the things I listed are starting to improve. I am beginning to trust god again, though it isn't easy. Last week was really tough because my extended family fell apart, and now one is back in jail. But I think the only reason I was able to pull through it was trusting in god, and your prayers so thank you to each and every one of you. I think I can see a light on my horizon in just a few more months.

crossrunner · Sep 28, 2004

Praise God!
I will continue to include you in my prayers. Keep your chin up!! God loves you so much and so do I.

cr

ArtMommy · Sep 29, 2004

I will keep you in my prayers. Just know thru all this God loves you. He pulls back at times to test you. He is not punishing you for any reason. Just rely on the Bible, and keep praying. Remember to talk to Him as a Best Friend. He is always by your side. Don't fall away from Him.

God Bless.

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