Hi guys!
I wasn't really sure whether to put this on here or not, given that there seem to be many others who need prayer more than I. However, if anyone has a spare minute and would be willing to pray for me that would be great!
Firstly, I am feeling a little far from God. I hardly ever seem to pray at the moment, and reading my bible is something of a non-event. I am trying to start up again properly, as of yesterday, with a book on systematic theology which is essentially a huge bible study. I hope that doing this will help me to pray at the same time. I need prayer for the strength and will to carry on with this, and that I should grow closer to God though it more importantly. I really want Him back in my life properly again, though he never left I became rather lukewarm. I need to know His love again, and to once again be certain of His risen existance.
Secondly, and troubling me lots as well, is my ex-girlfriend. We've been apart for about two years now, so ex-girlfriend is maybe even non longer an appropriate term, right now she is still my best friend. We never stopped being friends, and maybe thats part of the problem. The problem is, I am still in love with her. Its sad, I know, but I just can't help it. Its not some kind of obsession about what we once had, but I can't help but see her as beautiful, fun, and all I would want in a girlfriend. Its so temptimg to ask for prayer that we would get back together, yet I know that what I really need prayer for is the strength to accept God's will for both of our lives. If God really doesn't want this to happen again, then I need His help firstly to know this, and secondly to accept it and move on. Its just so hard, I have been trying for so long to get over it and move on, and even spent months apart. Please pray for God to be my centre of attention, and for me to seek and do His will in my life.
Thirdly, I would like prayer for my house. There are tensions between housemates, which at times are almost tangible, and seem like there is no viable solution. I need prayer that God would be in the situations, and would help me to be as Christlike as possible in the situations. I need my housmates to know that I love them all as brothers and sisters in Christ, and that this would show and help defuse tense situations and help in the resolving of arguments between others. Also, there is stress with my housemates as they all have university finals exams coming up. I do not, so please pray for me to be a light and comfort to them, for God to be with the and to comfort them all, and for God's will to be done in the coming exams.
Fourthly, and finally (at last!) is my family. I grew up in a non christian family and struggle with having no christians in my family. I know that others are in far worse situations than I, yet I still find it hard. My family have always beena great source of strength and encouragement for me, yet not in my faith. They are by no means anti-christian, but cannot provide a solid christian base to turn to when I am down and in need of help, and I really miss that, seeing the support others often have from their parents. I also, being so used to being able to look for them for support, am used to complaining about things to them, and I feel this is making me a poor witness. I will rarely seem full of the "joy of knowing Christ" when I'm with them. Please pray for me and them. Most importantly, that they would come to know Christ. Please pray that I could be a better witness to them, and for them, a better understanding of what my faith means to me.
If anyone has made it to this point in my post, then thank you for reading so far! These issues seem small compared to what some are going through, yet they are getting me down a little at the moment. Any time at all spent in prayer for me would be much appreciated. If you don't have time to pray through all of that, then please a spend few seconds praying simply Christ would again become truly the most important focus in my life.
Thank you all, and love in Christ,
Alex
I wasn't really sure whether to put this on here or not, given that there seem to be many others who need prayer more than I. However, if anyone has a spare minute and would be willing to pray for me that would be great!
Firstly, I am feeling a little far from God. I hardly ever seem to pray at the moment, and reading my bible is something of a non-event. I am trying to start up again properly, as of yesterday, with a book on systematic theology which is essentially a huge bible study. I hope that doing this will help me to pray at the same time. I need prayer for the strength and will to carry on with this, and that I should grow closer to God though it more importantly. I really want Him back in my life properly again, though he never left I became rather lukewarm. I need to know His love again, and to once again be certain of His risen existance.
Secondly, and troubling me lots as well, is my ex-girlfriend. We've been apart for about two years now, so ex-girlfriend is maybe even non longer an appropriate term, right now she is still my best friend. We never stopped being friends, and maybe thats part of the problem. The problem is, I am still in love with her. Its sad, I know, but I just can't help it. Its not some kind of obsession about what we once had, but I can't help but see her as beautiful, fun, and all I would want in a girlfriend. Its so temptimg to ask for prayer that we would get back together, yet I know that what I really need prayer for is the strength to accept God's will for both of our lives. If God really doesn't want this to happen again, then I need His help firstly to know this, and secondly to accept it and move on. Its just so hard, I have been trying for so long to get over it and move on, and even spent months apart. Please pray for God to be my centre of attention, and for me to seek and do His will in my life.
Thirdly, I would like prayer for my house. There are tensions between housemates, which at times are almost tangible, and seem like there is no viable solution. I need prayer that God would be in the situations, and would help me to be as Christlike as possible in the situations. I need my housmates to know that I love them all as brothers and sisters in Christ, and that this would show and help defuse tense situations and help in the resolving of arguments between others. Also, there is stress with my housemates as they all have university finals exams coming up. I do not, so please pray for me to be a light and comfort to them, for God to be with the and to comfort them all, and for God's will to be done in the coming exams.
Fourthly, and finally (at last!) is my family. I grew up in a non christian family and struggle with having no christians in my family. I know that others are in far worse situations than I, yet I still find it hard. My family have always beena great source of strength and encouragement for me, yet not in my faith. They are by no means anti-christian, but cannot provide a solid christian base to turn to when I am down and in need of help, and I really miss that, seeing the support others often have from their parents. I also, being so used to being able to look for them for support, am used to complaining about things to them, and I feel this is making me a poor witness. I will rarely seem full of the "joy of knowing Christ" when I'm with them. Please pray for me and them. Most importantly, that they would come to know Christ. Please pray that I could be a better witness to them, and for them, a better understanding of what my faith means to me.
If anyone has made it to this point in my post, then thank you for reading so far! These issues seem small compared to what some are going through, yet they are getting me down a little at the moment. Any time at all spent in prayer for me would be much appreciated. If you don't have time to pray through all of that, then please a spend few seconds praying simply Christ would again become truly the most important focus in my life.
Thank you all, and love in Christ,
Alex
