- Jan 2, 2019
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- Country
- United States
- Gender
- Male
- Faith
- Non-Denom
- Marital Status
- Single
A while back, I asked you guys for prayers regarding a relationship that I ended. She and I had dated around 5 months, and I've prayed every day since then for her and for us. Gradually, over time as I prayed these prayers, the situation started to become more restricting. Circumstance after circumstance were blocking our way to each other. I wondered if God was telling us "No" or "Not right now." I let her go in November when I felt like I personally couldn't handle it anymore.
Admittedly, we became involved with one another again around mid-December. We saw each other after months during Passion 2020. While it was wonderful to see her, when I realized that we were about to jump into the exact same situation, I felt a turmoil/conviction inside me unlike ever before. So I let her go again. And this time it feels real. I'm watching as she tries to forget about me and move on.
This is a time of profound confusion, frustration, and hurt. She has been my best friend, my supporter, my companion. I feel so empty and lonely after letting her go. It feels like I am single-handedly destroying our bond that we share. I'm watching as it crumbles because of me, and it makes me feel awful. But I also know I can't go back to trying to make that relationship work. I'm trying to trust that this was God's will and that He was providing all the signs that I was asking for, but how quickly I doubt and become discouraged.
Asking for prayer and encouragement right now please. For both her and me. I don't know how to move forward from here.
Admittedly, we became involved with one another again around mid-December. We saw each other after months during Passion 2020. While it was wonderful to see her, when I realized that we were about to jump into the exact same situation, I felt a turmoil/conviction inside me unlike ever before. So I let her go again. And this time it feels real. I'm watching as she tries to forget about me and move on.
This is a time of profound confusion, frustration, and hurt. She has been my best friend, my supporter, my companion. I feel so empty and lonely after letting her go. It feels like I am single-handedly destroying our bond that we share. I'm watching as it crumbles because of me, and it makes me feel awful. But I also know I can't go back to trying to make that relationship work. I'm trying to trust that this was God's will and that He was providing all the signs that I was asking for, but how quickly I doubt and become discouraged.
Asking for prayer and encouragement right now please. For both her and me. I don't know how to move forward from here.