Please pray 4 me, im lost

[meloniej]

Hey, Im Mel, and im 16
Okay so my life wasnt bad at all until a few months ago.
well when i was takin a shower one day, i cought my dad tryin to peak and take a look at me. I dont no y. Its got the the point where im so scared to be around him alone. I cant tell my mother because it will mess up there marriage, and the foster kids that we are wanting to be adopted will go into other homes. Im am just so messed up with wat is goin on.
Also me and my bf isnt goin good at all. Ever since this happened between me and my dad my relationship has changed toward him. Im beginnin to be worried bein around him alone now also.
Next I have this one guy that is threatin to kill me, he has already took a knife at me. and wid it he did cut my arm. He has also done so many different things to harm me also.
Im just havin a really hard time with life rite now, I lost a really good relationship with god. Im just so ashamed to talk to him, and its got to the point where i wana just give up and go off and run away and never come back, or possibly kill myself. I no its wrong, but i cant live wid it anymore.
Please Pray 4 me. Im so scared at this moment on wat is goin to happen next. No one knows bout anythin in my life until now.

 

[tapero]

Dear Mel,

Hi, I'm glad you wrote and shared what is going on in your life. I see you are still online and wanted to write right back before you go offline. I am praying for you.

I will write you a private message, but it may not be tonight. I need for you to be safe and hon that means you need to call 911 or the emergency number for where you are. Don't go through this alone. There are those who care for you deeply and will help.

God bless, Write me if you are up to it..Love, tapero

 

[meloniej]

Dear Mel,

Hi, I'm glad you wrote and shared what is going on in your life. I see you are still online and wanted to write right back before you go offline. I am praying for you.

I will write you a private message, but it may not be tonight. I need for you to be safe and hon that means you need to call 911 or the emergency number for where you are. Don't go through this alone. There are those who care for you deeply and will help.

God bless, Write me if you are up to it..Love, tapero

Yea, that was wat i was thinkin, but there are so many things that i will also have to give up if i call the police, and that will just put me worse situation also. Im really scared there is no lie to that one. I wana thanku 4 takin ur time to write to me, i really needed it.

 

[Gentle-Heart]

Hi - this is my first reply as I've been
away from this forum for nearly a year and I beleive the Lord led me to your post to encourage you and know that He will sort this for you.

I know what it feels like to be fearful and scared and even to have ugly thoughts re wanting to kill yourself - but be encouraged this will pass. It is a season in your life right now that the enemy wants to use to make you feel bad. But God is faithful to His promises and His word to you, is He will never leave you or forsake you. In the midst of this situation He is your Shepherd, and your protector and He will turn things around for you.
I am praying for you, and Jesus too is interceding for you. You will be OK - I ask that the Lord covers you and surrounds you and comforts you with His love and gives you wisdom. That you know much peace and doors will open to you with people you can trust and whom you will be safe.
I am sorry re your dad - that was wrong and I pray that God gently restores you and frees you from fear.That you feel safe with Him as your refuge and strength.

In times like this I find reading the Psalms a comfort - if you have a Bible I encourage you to read the Psalms and let the Holy Spirit minister to you.
Psalm 91 and Psalm 23 are favourites of mine.
Stay safe sweetie and tell the Lord - He understands. Come here as often as you feel able and are free to, people care here who will support you and pray with you and for you.
I was once abused and know how awful it is - so you're not on your own.
Be at peace - I'll be praying.
Love in Jesus.
G-H

PS Just on a pratical note - could you shower with door locked or maybe at school/college?

 

[veganbunny]

Well, yes I will pray for you. It sounds as if things are really hard for you. Do you not have someone you could talk to, such as a theripist, or doctor?

Do not be ashamed, God still loves you; please do not lose your faith!

I have attempted suicide several times in my life, and afterwards people have been hurt, angry and shocked at my actions. PLEASE don't go down that route! Besides, you have so much to live for, so don't do that! Feel freee to PM me, anytime, God Bless and take care x

 

[Lotuspetal_uk]

Hey, Im Mel, and im 16
Okay so my life wasnt bad at all until a few months ago.
well when i was takin a shower one day, i cought my dad tryin to peak and take a look at me. I dont no y. Its got the the point where im so scared to be around him alone. I cant tell my mother because it will mess up there marriage, and the foster kids that we are wanting to be adopted will go into other homes. Im am just so messed up with wat is goin on.
Also me and my bf isnt goin good at all. Ever since this happened between me and my dad my relationship has changed toward him. Im beginnin to be worried bein around him alone now also.
Next I have this one guy that is threatin to kill me, he has already took a knife at me. and wid it he did cut my arm. He has also done so many different things to harm me also.
Im just havin a really hard time with life rite now, I lost a really good relationship with god. Im just so ashamed to talk to him, and its got to the point where i wana just give up and go off and run away and never come back, or possibly kill myself. I no its wrong, but i cant live wid it anymore.
Please Pray 4 me. Im so scared at this moment on wat is goin to happen next. No one knows bout anythin in my life until now.

Oh my precious one - I am so sorry that so much has been placed on your shoulders at such an early age. My heart ached when I read your post and I will lift you up in prayer.

Please call the following number. I went and looked for some helplines for young people in your situation and found the childhelp.org website. They have a toll-free number but it was the following which stood out for me:

Our hotline counselors can listen to you. They won't blame you.
If you aren't ready to tell on someone but you want to talk about your feelings and what is happening to you, call the Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline at 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453), then press 1 to talk to a hotline counselor. Your call is anonymous. (That means that the hotline counselors don't know who you are unless you tell them.) Sometimes it is easier to tell your problems to someone you don't know.
Lots of kids have mixed feelings about the person who is hurting them, especially if they loved and trusted that person. You may be afraid of the person who is hurting you, and are "scared silent."

Please keep us informed here, so that we see that you're ok and if at any time you don't feel safe, please please call 911. Your father needs help.

May the L-rd place a protective hedge around you during this difficult time.

 

[meloniej]

Oh my precious one - I am so sorry that so much has been placed on your shoulders at such an early age. My heart ached when I read your post and I will lift you up in prayer.

Please call the following number. I went and looked for some helplines for young people in your situation and found the childhelp.org website. They have a toll-free number but it was the following which stood out for me:



Please keep us informed here, so that we see that you're ok and if at any time you don't feel safe, please please call 911. Your father needs help.

May the L-rd place a protective hedge around you during this difficult time.

Thanks so much, and i will probably call the hotline, Just Thank you so much!!!

 

[meloniej]

Well, yes I will pray for you. It sounds as if things are really hard for you. Do you not have someone you could talk to, such as a theripist, or doctor?

Do not be ashamed, God still loves you; please do not lose your faith!

I have attempted suicide several times in my life, and afterwards people have been hurt, angry and shocked at my actions. PLEASE don't go down that route! Besides, you have so much to live for, so don't do that! Feel freee to PM me, anytime, God Bless and take care x

Yea i dont wana go down that path, but like i said Im afriad of wat is goin to happen next, and i no that if i do attempt it then i will have to face god about it.

 

[meloniej]

Hi - this is my first reply as I've been
away from this forum for nearly a year and I beleive the Lord led me to your post to encourage you and know that He will sort this for you.

I know what it feels like to be fearful and scared and even to have ugly thoughts re wanting to kill yourself - but be encouraged this will pass. It is a season in your life right now that the enemy wants to use to make you feel bad. But God is faithful to His promises and His word to you, is He will never leave you or forsake you. In the midst of this situation He is your Shepherd, and your protector and He will turn things around for you.
I am praying for you, and Jesus too is interceding for you. You will be OK - I ask that the Lord covers you and surrounds you and comforts you with His love and gives you wisdom. That you know much peace and doors will open to you with people you can trust and whom you will be safe.
I am sorry re your dad - that was wrong and I pray that God gently restores you and frees you from fear.That you feel safe with Him as your refuge and strength.

In times like this I find reading the Psalms a comfort - if you have a Bible I encourage you to read the Psalms and let the Holy Spirit minister to you.
Psalm 91 and Psalm 23 are favourites of mine.
Stay safe sweetie and tell the Lord - He understands. Come here as often as you feel able and are free to, people care here who will support you and pray with you and for you.
I was once abused and know how awful it is - so you're not on your own.
Be at peace - I'll be praying.
Love in Jesus.
G-H

PS Just on a pratical note - could you shower with door locked or maybe at school/college?

Thanks so much!!

 

[Psalm32]

You are in my prayers sister. You will get through this. I pray you will surrender yourself completely to Jesus. Do not be ashamed to run to Jesus for we are all sinners. He knows your heart and is there for you. Make Jesus the center of your life and the priority despite all the worldy distractions and wickedness you will encounter, including those closest to you. Stay close to him and he will protect you.

When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.

Isaiah 43:2

 

[Lotuspetal_uk]

Thanks so much, and i will probably call the hotline, Just Thank you so much!!!

No problem at all.

Please be careful and keep letting us know here that you're ok (yes, I'm also a mom who can't switch off from worrying )

Big 's to you!!!!

 

[Taylor43]

big hugs hun, Please do call the hotline and please get some help. I know you are scared but i do not want to see you getting hurt more. I am here if you need to talk. Just keep safe and keep intouch. I am so sorry i cant be more of a help but as others have said do get help do not let shame keep you from getting help. I am praying for you
Love
Taylor

 

[JoyforJESUS]

I am praying for you and with you.

joyce

 

[meloniej]

No problem at all.

Please be careful and keep letting us know here that you're ok (yes, I'm also a mom who can't switch off from worrying )

Big 's to you!!!!

Yea i understand, Ur one of the first few people that i have met that said they cared. Thank u 4 that, u dont no how much that means 2 me.

 

[Lotuspetal_uk]

Yea i understand, Ur one of the first few people that i have met that said they cared. Thank u 4 that, u dont no how much that means 2 me.

Thank you also sis, we can praise the L-rd for His goodness and how He can make the whole world of believers come together in prayer when one of us needs it. It's amazing what the Holy Spirit places on our hearts - and you deserve nothing less.

I'll continually pray for you, little sis.

 

[taciturn]

oh lil' baby! will be praying for ya. don't loose hope dearie! don't loose hope. things are going to get better even though it might not seem so. talk to Jesus when u r feeling so low, so tired or weary, do not, do not let guilt hide you from God. because guilt is NOT from God. one thing that i always pray is this psalm, "test my heart oh God, know my thoughts, see if there be any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." if there are any iniquities that hide you from Him, you can be sure that He will reveal them to you. nothing on this earth can separate you from the love of Christ. it is only our intimacy with God that is affected when we run a direction away from God, but our relationship is NEVER broken. part of a song goes,

"nothing you can do
can make Him love you more,
and nothing you can say,
can make Him close the door,

because of His great love,
He gave His only Son,
everything was done,
so you could come."

a broken and contrite spirit He does not despise. for He longs for you dear princess(= hold on to Him dear. will be praying for you.

cheryl

feel free to pm me =D

 

[Habiibii]

Oh Meloniej,

I am new here and just read your post. I will add you to my prayer list.

You need to tell someone about your father.... please! If you do not feel you can tell your mom, is there another adult you trust to share this info with? If you are concerned about "messing up your family" as you put it with regard to adopting foster children please realize that if this is beginning to happen to you, then it could eventually happen to them also. You are in my prayers, Melonie.

 

[Lotuspetal_uk]

Has anyone heard from Melanie lately?

I'm kind of worried about her.....

 

[coolchicka]

No one needs to go through stuff like that. I think you should go find a trusted adult that you feel comfortable with and talk to them about it.. Ill be praying for you.

 

[meloniej]

Has anyone heard from Melanie lately?

I'm kind of worried about her.....

hey
sorry i havent been on for a while.
I havent had a chance to get onto the computer. I cant get cought on it so yea.