I pray to the Generic God who is different than Christian God due to ocd.
Today, my ocd was telling me to do an ocd compulsion before eating dinner. the weird thing is, the ocd compulsion was what I really wanted to do before eating. which means ocd compulsion_= the same thing I want to do. there is another ocd lets called it ocd 2 which does not let me to what I want
ocd 1 tells me stuff like ocd1: do what you want to do before dinner because you may have made a promise to the Generic God
ocd:2: do not do what you want to do before dinner because you may have made a promise to the Generic God
I know all these are thoughts without my will but while being a little careless and happy random thoughts without my will are happen in my head like
ocd1: stop doing what you want to do.
and I do not want to stop it just because my ocd tells me but I worry if I do not stop. so that's where ocd 2 comes
ocd2: you better do not stop what you are doing for 2 reasons. first, it is what you really want and second, the ocd is more worrying if you do the compulsion that is "not to do what you want:"
all these thoughts without my will happen in seconds and I feel happy because the ocd compulsion is the same thing with what I want to do. but sometimes I may hchange opinion and stop doing what I want to do and ocd sasys
ocd: why you stopped? why youwere happy? why you obey one of the two compulsions? maybe that makes the promise you have made without your will to the Generic God valid. just because you felt happy. just because you may have used it as an excuse to do what you want. are you sure they were thoughts without your will?
please calm me down
Today, my ocd was telling me to do an ocd compulsion before eating dinner. the weird thing is, the ocd compulsion was what I really wanted to do before eating. which means ocd compulsion_= the same thing I want to do. there is another ocd lets called it ocd 2 which does not let me to what I want
ocd 1 tells me stuff like ocd1: do what you want to do before dinner because you may have made a promise to the Generic God
ocd:2: do not do what you want to do before dinner because you may have made a promise to the Generic God
I know all these are thoughts without my will but while being a little careless and happy random thoughts without my will are happen in my head like
ocd1: stop doing what you want to do.
and I do not want to stop it just because my ocd tells me but I worry if I do not stop. so that's where ocd 2 comes
ocd2: you better do not stop what you are doing for 2 reasons. first, it is what you really want and second, the ocd is more worrying if you do the compulsion that is "not to do what you want:"
all these thoughts without my will happen in seconds and I feel happy because the ocd compulsion is the same thing with what I want to do. but sometimes I may hchange opinion and stop doing what I want to do and ocd sasys
ocd: why you stopped? why youwere happy? why you obey one of the two compulsions? maybe that makes the promise you have made without your will to the Generic God valid. just because you felt happy. just because you may have used it as an excuse to do what you want. are you sure they were thoughts without your will?
please calm me down
