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Braydeno said:

isn't swearing/vowing against heaven bad in the bible?What Does the Bible Say About Keeping Promises? like you vowed you would become a preacher, but now it seems like you're just forcing yourself to become one because you vowed to, its pretty easy to change your mind over time. Isn't that why its not good to make vows against the heavens? just stick to yes or no, if you can't keep that vow then say sorry to god and say that you will stop making vows(easier to do that then have all the pressure on your back). Don't force yourself to do something you don't want to do. Don't even vow that you'll stop making vows.

here's an example: I promised god out of happiness that I would fast 2 times every week, After awhile... yeah I couldn't keep up with that promise and broke it by now. lesson learnt.

God promises forgiveness you don't need to bribe him to forgive you by becoming a preacher. God does not take bribes(I remember reading that in the bible somewhere)

Idk what other peoples views are about this(like some others are suggesting medications and counselling) I have faith that god can get rid of, or really calm your OCD down, he can do the impossible. Let him be your medication, and counselling. It's not like you got schizophrenia. I got ocd bad too(getting better slowly), not as bad as you, but, i do get blasphemous thoughts too. He knows you don't want those thoughts, and that your tormented by them, so why would he have anything against you for something you can't control?

here's a tip if you dont mind: I too used to be obsessed with conspiracy, like alex jones and all that crap, Most of it is fake(fear mongling) crap just for views. My life was revolved around how crappy the earth 'n humanity was and how much drama this and that, you get it.... It's not healthy, It gave me a bad attitude to life. That's why I suggest stop watching and believing all that junk.

I hope for the best brother.

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Jane_Doe said:

Actually the requirements for being a preacher varies by denomination. Groups also vary on whether or not they view you having to go to their church/denomination/etc to go to Heaven. For example, Methodist preachers can be married, own a house, and only proclaim that you don't have to be Methodist to go to Heaven. If you want I can give more examples of different views.

Excitably! You are like the many people in need of Christ's healing. Let him heal your metaphorically lame legs and then you may dance singing His praises.

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Jane_Doe said:

Ok. If you wish to pursue that path, getting treatment for your OCD is the first order of business. If you wish to pursue a different path eventually, getting treatment for your OCD is still the first order of business.

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Jane_Doe said:

It's hard to explain, but it's a very common feeling. In which case we have the following choice:
-- Go to that church. Best first step in going there: treating OCD so you know it's you/God who wants to be there and not a mental condition messing you up.
-- Don't go to that church. In which case the first step again is OCD treatment to know it's you/God making the choice and not the OCD.

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Jane_Doe said:

Here's my story, maybe it'll help (this is the super abridged version, feel free to ask more):

I grew up with extreme suicidial depression from kindergarten onward (I was molested). I didn't know what it was to be "normal", because I only known a world covered in shadows of depression and self hatred. I... honestly as much as I hated the shadows, I feared the being "better" more-- that was strange and felt more dangerous than my familiar darkness. So yeah... my growing up was messed up, but I developed coping methods to get along well enough.

Flash foward to college: I was breaking. The war grew desperate I had to fight the shadows-- win or loose. It was a roller coaster for years-- pain, joy, depression, love, fear-- all so vivid. I prayed-- God had always been my comfort. But church people... there were problems there. Finally after years of struggle, I actually admitted that I needed to go to counseling and seek help.

It totally transformed me. The tools I had been stumbling around in the dark trying to find for years- my counselor knew where they were and handed them to me. Finally I was able to heal and become a totally different person. Today I look at the sun free of my old shadows and embrace the Son with unabated joy.

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