Please help!

[mommybynoah]

Hello,

I'm sure, like a lot of us born-again, there are tons of people who post about spiritual struggle. I am a scientist but one who was finally able to see God and really truly feel Him the day I became a born-again. I felt elated, totally in the Spirit...when I actually believed. My spriritual birthday was this passed Easter. For months, I felt great...guilty of my sins but I FELT the forgiveness and connection with God. Then the trials came...and HARD. I am not a person with OCD but the thoughts came...the typical "grieving the Holy Spirit" and how the enemy tries to makes us feel like we are "screwed" and there IS no forgiveness for us. Then obscene sexual thoughts...thoughts that made me want to die (my mother is someone who believes Jesus and Mary Magdalene had children) and I constantly ask for forgiveness but after a few financial and family trials (becoming a Christian separated me from most of my family who lives in sin), I feel like my heart shut down. I feel like my mind still wants to believe, I pray and read the Bible daily, but I can't FEEL Him like I used to. What's harder for me is knowing that He continues to bless me every day. When I go to church, I can feel Him somewhat again but the rest of the week is hard for me. What have I done wrong? I try to remember His promises, seek HIS way above my own, and yet I can't feel Him like I used to. I feel like God is silent with me...why? HELP! I just want to make sure I'm saved even though part of me is unmoved in my heart even though my mind knows. It's like I can't feel anything at all...gratitude for what Jesus did. Is God just presenting me with another trial and to not rely on my feelings but rather on HIS word?

 

[If Not For Grace]

Did you think the devil would give up without a fight? Satan knows that the best time to cause you to stumble is when you are young in the faith and new in the spirit. You do not have to be separated from your family just because they do not believe as you do. Remember tyring to convert family is akin to a ssurgen operating on his on family member. Even Jesus had the most resistance in His home town.

There's an old adage that says everytime the devil tries to remind you of your past; remind him of his future. You do not have to let every thought that pops in your head stay there. Cast out what is no longer fruitful for you or old haunts that the enemy tries to put back. Joyce Meyer has a book called "Battlefield of the Mind" that even if you are not a fan of hers, is a great read and gives good insight to spiritual struggles and how to deal with them. Check it out.

 

[1watchman]

If you have the Lord Jesus in your heart, then talk with Him all day every day. Make Him your best Friend and you will be blessed. The Lord will deal with Satan, so keep close to the Lord. Read His Word and pray much (see 2 Cor. 10:5).

 

[oosbey1]

I'm going through the exact same thing. This summer God finally woke me up and gave me the option to follow him. I felt him in my life and I felt his peace and then my trails came too. Sometimes I feel like I'm destined to fail and lose God's love and forgiveness. Its really difficult I know but we have to remember to stay strong and trust in God. Keep fighting!

 

[Johnnz]

Listen to some of these talks. You need a sounder set of beliefs around salvation and what Jesus has accomplished or you. There is some very healthy teaching here.
You're Included | Grace Communion International

John
NZ