Hi all,
My name is Cyndal and I think I may have bipolar disorder. I have in the past been dignosed with ADD and always just put all my emotional problems on that however I am now thinking there is something else wrong. I really don't know where to start or how to get help. I am a christian and have been praying about it constantly and I think that God is really opening my eyes to get help. When I was about 13 years old I started picking/pulling at my hair and have not been able to stop no matter what I try and now its worse than ever I am scared I am going to start having bald spots and it sounds so stupid like I should be able to just quit but I cant I have tried to controll it but the more I try the more I do it. I always feel nervous,anctious,like my mind is running there are a million thoughts and pictures in my head in one second I cant slow down. Then it hits the time where I am worn out tired and don't even want to move. My grandmother and great aunt have been dignosed with bipolar and my family has always looked down on it as if they should be able to just turn it off. They look at thereapist as conartists just messing people up more than they already were. I am 23 now and have a 4 year old sweet daugher and 1 year old boy/girl twins my husband is wonderful we are a christian family and they are my world and I love them with all my heart but I feel like no one around me understands. I am screaming for help but no one hears. I get little sleep if any. I dont know what to do I feel lost. If anyone can give me some insight or advice I would greatly appreciate it. I have never wanted to be on drugs but I am getting to a point where I would give anything a try my family deserves better and I want to do everything I can to be better. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Thank you all and God bless,
Cyndal
My name is Cyndal and I think I may have bipolar disorder. I have in the past been dignosed with ADD and always just put all my emotional problems on that however I am now thinking there is something else wrong. I really don't know where to start or how to get help. I am a christian and have been praying about it constantly and I think that God is really opening my eyes to get help. When I was about 13 years old I started picking/pulling at my hair and have not been able to stop no matter what I try and now its worse than ever I am scared I am going to start having bald spots and it sounds so stupid like I should be able to just quit but I cant I have tried to controll it but the more I try the more I do it. I always feel nervous,anctious,like my mind is running there are a million thoughts and pictures in my head in one second I cant slow down. Then it hits the time where I am worn out tired and don't even want to move. My grandmother and great aunt have been dignosed with bipolar and my family has always looked down on it as if they should be able to just turn it off. They look at thereapist as conartists just messing people up more than they already were. I am 23 now and have a 4 year old sweet daugher and 1 year old boy/girl twins my husband is wonderful we are a christian family and they are my world and I love them with all my heart but I feel like no one around me understands. I am screaming for help but no one hears. I get little sleep if any. I dont know what to do I feel lost. If anyone can give me some insight or advice I would greatly appreciate it. I have never wanted to be on drugs but I am getting to a point where I would give anything a try my family deserves better and I want to do everything I can to be better. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Thank you all and God bless,
Cyndal