I'm called Jane, and really need some prayer from you guys, I'm a spirit filled Christian and was baptised 9 weeks ago, also being healed of cancer at the same time
I have undergone many things since though, my family can't understand the change in me and are treating me badly, although my carer/exhusband now is only coming at weekends to see the kids. Because i've been high in the spirit with the healing of cancer God gave me, my doctors have doubled other Medication as I suffer manic depression and they think i'm really ill mentally because I've told them the truth that this miracle was from God, even though they cannot come up with an explanation of how the cancer has gone.
The other problem is I know I need to stop smoking to walk with God properly, but my mind wants to stop, but my fear of stopping is awful, I've tried many times, but not succeeded. I got so worked up about it today at our meeting, I felt Lee our pastor was getting at me, and accused him of blackmail, because the way he said it made me feel I stop smoking now or I can't go to the meetings. I feel so hurt now, guilty and don't know what to do. I've many things to sort out to Walk with God properly, but to me smoking isn't the most immediate thing I should do.
Please pray that God will make me stop now, and wether I should continue going to the meetings. As everone seems to be having a go at me, wether its at home, at work and now in my fellowship. I hope you will pray as I need all the help I can get.
Jane
I have undergone many things since though, my family can't understand the change in me and are treating me badly, although my carer/exhusband now is only coming at weekends to see the kids. Because i've been high in the spirit with the healing of cancer God gave me, my doctors have doubled other Medication as I suffer manic depression and they think i'm really ill mentally because I've told them the truth that this miracle was from God, even though they cannot come up with an explanation of how the cancer has gone. The other problem is I know I need to stop smoking to walk with God properly, but my mind wants to stop, but my fear of stopping is awful, I've tried many times, but not succeeded. I got so worked up about it today at our meeting, I felt Lee our pastor was getting at me, and accused him of blackmail, because the way he said it made me feel I stop smoking now or I can't go to the meetings. I feel so hurt now, guilty and don't know what to do. I've many things to sort out to Walk with God properly, but to me smoking isn't the most immediate thing I should do.Please pray that God will make me stop now, and wether I should continue going to the meetings. As everone seems to be having a go at me, wether its at home, at work and now in my fellowship. I hope you will pray as I need all the help I can get.
Jane
