I am new here, this obviously being my first post. I have been a christian for about five years now, yet I feel Christ has been in my heart my life or another way to say it is that God has had His Hand and Will upon from birth. I was born with one of the worst and most medically challenging heart defects in the late 70's. 79'. Most babies like me died, yet I lived. The world class surgeon told my folks after my 13 hr open heart surgery that he didn't believe in God 13 hrs ago, but he that did now because he felt as if God had used him as a tool to fix me, I guess the doctor was quite shaking up over the experience. And there has been many other times in my life where i've felt Gods hand pushing me away from danger. I had a very rough childhood and my teen and young 20 years were just a mess. I hate myself, I didn't care what happened to me, my body or my life. Well, I met my wife at the age of 23 and I started to keep a job, quit drinking. Then we had my beautiful little Lauren Izabella and I started to care about life greatly. Well by the time we had Ellie Morgan I was quite happy with life. I was strong healthy, I was a concrete finisher a good husband and A great dad. Well, I got a job at an iron foundry over the winter months and destroyed my lower back from a jack hammer accident. Well praise the Lord it happened really. My famil went from making a good living to being on welfar and begging for help to pay bills and buy food. It was very hard, for a long time, four years we lived that way fighting my employer for workmans comp. Well, I still praise and Thank the Lord for His infinite wisdom because during a test on my back (MRI) they found something wrong with a major blood vessel. Long story short, my heart had gone bad. My heart defect at birth was corrected after one surgery 23 yr earlier, but now it was in horrible shape and I didn't realize it. I could have died at work from massive heart failure and never would have seen it coming! Praise God!! Between going from being extremely fit and active, to being layed up and in extreme pain all the time from my back my heart has gotten to the point where I need a transplant. I take a lot of meds, I have a pacemaker de-fib. and the doc take very good care of me, I have a actually team of world class Doctors who not only specialize they sub-specialize in my heart problems. So praise the Lord for those blessings. But before I found out about my heart, the Lord found me. And man oh man was I in love with Chirst. I couldn't get enough, still can't get enough!! I am a Jesus Freak through and through. I'm a zealot, a Bible banger, a holy roller, a whatever people wanna call me, but one thing I certainly am, is a servant and slave to my Lord and God Jesus Christ! Can I get an AMEN!!!! lol!! So anyone. I was wondering if anyone could show me the ropes around here, my email is Thank you very much I could really use the help!!!