Just posted in the wrong forum I think... I want to accept Jesus, please help me.
Realize your human nature of being a sinner who sins. Understand that Jesus came to the earth from Heaven to help us sinners. He taught us how to act and behave with each other (good and bad people). In this teaching, we were to be a new being following his pathway that he laid out for us, even through his death. The new being (born again) is possible by condemning our old self through confessions of our sins to God & also to our new family from God (spiritual church) and being born again is possible through accepting the Gospel of Jesus, of his death & sacrificed blood to make us innocent of sin before God. Jesus' pathway for us is to live a life of holiness only possible through being a being of compassion and love (being filled with the Holy Spirit and obeying our Lord's teachings). The Law of God is alive for Christians and dwells within them, as Christ spoke, the Law is love (love your Father in Heaven and your neighbor). This Law is the will of our Father in Heaven and dwells within our every second of time and every fiber of being, now and forever (Jesus doesn't change nor God has any shadow). This Faith of ours is from our hope through Christ and trust of him, so we obey his words alone (to obey the will of our Father in Heaven). Your faith is very personal yet public. You walk with God, through obeying Christ and accepting him and the Holy Spirit who comes to dwell with you and help & teach you all that you need to know. Jesus told us to baptise new believers and so we are baptised in our Faith.
Don't be swayed over by the constant barriage of rules and regulations over your faith with your Father through Christ & the Holy Spirit (many try to be leaders, yet we have one already, Jesus Christ). The spiritual church is united. Be found in it by holding close to Jesus and this wonderful freedom that he gives you. If you obey the teachings of Christ and follow him, you are part of his spiritual church (those who obey Christ alone and follow him).
Welcome to your new family. Please read of Jesus' life and words and those of his disciples in the New Testament. There are modern day writers that have endured for Jesus and have been blessed by the Holy Spirit with wisdom and guidiance for the church. A couple that are helpful in spiritual growth are Tom White and Richard Wurmbrand. Suffering for Christ like the Apostles and disciples helps us to become closer to God. To be hated by the world because of our love and compassion (following Christ), allows us to tune out the world and to be near to our Father and his will for us.
There are plenty of Christians who can help you and will, just look into them to make sure they are truly following Christ. All over the world are planted bad seeds (children of Satan)(ones that can not be holy, follow Christ or obey Christ's knowledge to us: his Father's will (Jesus' teachings)).
I hoped that I have helped you some. May God bless you and his Spirit dwell within you forever. Remember to always confess your sins. Showing the light of God, and your will to follow him, destroies the evil one and his claim of you. Being a new Christian is very serious, for human nature will try to take your new freedom and get you to lust and sin. Don't. It is simply amazing how vulnerable a new Christian is towards sinning again & being swayed away from his freedom (obeying & following Jesus & the Holy Spirit). Giving up selfishness and lusts by replacing them with the nature of Christ in you is paramount for your salvation. We still live in the world, have wives and family and work & learn to make a living, only we live our lives out holy and staying only within the teachings of Christ as our Faith & hope. Welcome to the spiritual church of Jesus Christ.
Remember that nothing replaces or is greater than the words of Jesus Christ. Obey his teachings and find the greatest hope and joy that is possible on earth. Don't rely on theologies, but instead remember that the Holy Spirit, that is given to you, is enough and sufficient for you to instruct & help you and guide you to the Father through Jesus Christ.
I wish that it weren't so complicated. I will just say follow Christ only, be holy and loving, remember to confess your sins and have faith & hope in what is coming by God's hands and through Christ Jesus. Love you brother.