please help! i want help!

[Kostilaks]

I was out with friends. The waitress was near and i wanted to order my drink. but i was not sure if i wanted to order it now or wait some more minutes.

I was having second thoughts, but I really, wanted to order. I was thinking stuff like

• Should I order now? or wait, some time. No! I better order now before she leaves and have to wait again. I must order now! i want to order now! and i will order now! if, I do not order now I will be punished by Gods. oh no! why i thought that? if i order later, i will be punished by Gods. [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]! what is wrong with my thoughts-

(it is like the similar, random, thoughts one can have, when doing push-ups. he may randomly, think "if i do not do full 20, I will die"

I raised my hand and ignored my thoughts and made my order and later, something caught my attention in the converstation and started talking. I remembered after some minutes, the intrusive thoughts I had about "must order now/ must not order now" and I am confused and worried if these thoughts about punishments were valid or not. I have them. everyday and I always pray compulsively about them when they pop up to the point I am losing my sanity. praying for them every, 1 minute.

I worry because I forgot to pray about them. I prayed about them much later. but what if it was too late? i worry mostly, because these thoughts were appearing in my mind, in form of a prayer. they popped in a sentence as if I was talking to Gods. and i worry, if Gods accepted them. I just could not control them.

on the other hand, I calm myself down by thinking that the last year, I prayed compulsively a lot and I tried to control my intrusive thoughts every minute. I tried to much and they always pop up. I think, I acted as a normal, healthy person by ignoring these thoughts (because I forgot to pray about them) I suffered a lot this year by praying compulsively. I just, hope Gods understand that I tried very much to pray for every intrusive thought, to the point I started having mental issues. I just let some slip because I forgot. I prayed about them much later.

 

[Tolworth John]

Have you read the article I suggested, are you putting the suggestions in it into practice.

You say you want help, well one key point in that article is that You Are Responsible for Your Treatment.

If you won't take responsibility how can we help you?


Read and act on

25 tips for successfully treating your OCD.
Find in in the odd section or with Google.

 

[Citizen of the Kingdom]

I don’t think that God thinks it’s necessary to pray for every intrusive thought. Thoughts followed after can be evil. If you don’t give them credence and instead follow after the good thoughts that come to mind then like the scripture of ‘think on these things, whatsoever is of good report, nobel, lovely etc.’ will become a road out of the rut you seem to be in. There’s a book that you can get online As a man thinketh ~ James Allen it’s a 1700’s little book that’s very easy read. (not many pages) it likens it to weeding of the garden of the mind. You’d probably get a lot from reading it. Hope you have a good night.

The Project Gutenberg E-text of As a Man Thinketh, by James Allen

 

[Gkst]

I have OCD for many years and the advice I want to give you is trust god. Althought, OCD might not related or come from a spiritual things. But, I want you to try asking yourself what you worried. You worried that god might not forgive you right? So, the solution to this problem is to trust that god will forgive you. Your OCD is related to vows, and if you search on Internet every website would say god forgive broken promises. So, you don't need to worried.I know it hard to not be anxious. But don't forget getting anxious it not good for your OCD.

 

[Michie]

Please go to the doctor if you want help.

 

[Job405]

Only pray to the one true God, not to "Gods".

 

[covergirl]

Hey sis ignore some of these responses they mean well but I can see how it triggers your thoughts even more. I would just say that the prayer thing is a deeply rooted religious spirit disguising itself as God but not. The true God has compassion and mercy on you and will be set free in Christ's name soon. He already did the work at the cross and you will see it soon. God gives us freedom to make choices in life. Not that we want to be disobedient but if we want to get a coffee or ear something we can! God won't tell you what time to take a shower He wants us to live free and relax He loves you. The compulsions are saying the right prayers, everyday say one less prayer and make progress from there. We are here for you. Tolworth above suggested he gave you some advice to follow so do that and there are great biblical counselors out there (make sure they teach God's grace) who are well equipped for OCD. They helped me tremendously

 

[covergirl]

PS be proud of the courageous step you took to go out with friends. These things will pop up in our minds so an outing won't be 100percent worry free. But when that happens just tell yourself or the thoughts "I will deal with it tomorrow I am not thinking on this right now"