Hey so I'm not sure where to post this. I'm new here and I'm a Christian but I've made up some weird philosophy that I can't seem to completely disprove yet and I really want it to be disproved; I don't think I'll have any peace until it is disproved.
Maybe I'm just crazy or illogical (tell me if I am in a nice way haha and I also have OCD so yeah maybe I am crazy but if you tell me that please give a reason why this theory is wrong. Please don't give a reason like: lol this is all crazy) As you read, please completely read as a theory; I do not believe any of the stuff my mind has conjured up; however, I would really like someone to disprove it because I haven't found a point where I can disprove it (or maybe I have but I'm blind lol).
But anyways, here's the weird theory I made up that I'd like someone to disprove (please don't laugh): What if we were divine, created the earth and all things good, and were the originator of good and then God who would be THEORETICALLY bad/evil (I know He isn't) somehow contaminated it and everything became fallen.
The contamination would take away our theoretical power to create out of nothing, our creativity to actually have new ideas based off of totally nothing (I mean how God has ideas off of nothing), and the contamination would also cause us to become evil and not as good as we were originally.
Of course, the theoretical original people would have to forget all this or God would have to theoretically take away the memory. I'm not even sure that our brain would physically be able to think completely new ideas and stuff so that would probably disprove all this hopefully. But what if ability theoretically got taken away lol.
What if God theoretically made a pact with Christ saying that He would take away His contamination so that Christ could be what theoretically we were originally supposed to be: divine and perfect? And what would God theoretically get out of this pact: People would turn to Him and worship Him. Jesus would get people worshipping Him.
Theoretically, the reason we become more like Jesus is because God would theoretically lift off the contamination, slowly making us what we were originally supposed to be. Every time we would do a miracle in Jesus' name God would theoretically lift off more of the contamination in that moment.
This whole theory is like the truth twisted so I know that there has to be a point where it just doesn't make any sense or line up with reality. Anyways please tell me if I'm crazy which I think I am but if you do please also give reasons why you know this could not be true.
Yes, I am a Christian so I know this really isn't true, I don't believe it is true, I really don't want this to be true and it hurts typing all this out but I just have OCD and if something is not disproven even if it sounds crazy then I can't have peace and I can't let it go. And yes I know this is empty philosophy. So please just disprove it and please be kind.
looking for some help and some peace
Thanks!!!