I have Aspergers. I also have dyspraxia and depression. I need help in verbalizing what I'm thinking and feeling as I struggle with that. I also need someone safe to talk to. What I mean by safe is whenever I have tried to verbalize my struggles before I got a lot of "just think happy good thoughts" or "overcome be an overcomer" stuff like that. When I hear that kind of stuff I shut down and will no longer share. I am not saying I want to stay in a place of self pity. What I need is someone I can talk to and tell them I'm depressed or angry or frustrated or that I feel nothing at all as my emtions tend to turn off or that I feel everything or that I dunno how I'm feeling and I need a little help and just have any of the above be accepted. I'm always having to put on an act and fake it even at Church as no one there has any experience with my above issues and that's not their fault. I just want a friend I can be my total self with. I know I can be myself with GOD and I do pray and talk to Him a lot but even Jesus had friends with whom He could talk honestly and be Himself with. So is there anyone on here who wants to be my close friend? This is probably not how close friends are normally made but I dunno how to do it the normal way. And of course the friendship would work both ways as I would want my close fend to feel comfortable being themselves with me and be comfortable saying to me that they are mad or sad or whatever emotion. And whoever will be my close friend I will pray for just as I would like whoever my close friend will be will pray for me. Also whoever will be my friend I think it would be cool to do a Bible study together I've done that through e-mail before and it was very fascinating and interesting. We could even e-mail and talk to each other about our day or talk about a hobby we enjoy or whatever. Also I do get dreams that happen and I do get visions so I would like a close friend that I can share that stuff with who won't get freaked out or afraid of me cause of it. And by visions I don't mean just the waking dreams but I mean I see angels and demons sometimes and I want to share what I see with a close friend. GOD knows I think in pictures so it makes sense to me that He speaks to me in pictures. Sometimes when I share my dreams and visions with Christians they can become afraid of me. Also I would like to find a close friend that's around my age I'm 29 years old. My Church friends are age 50 and over and I love them and they love me but I have next to nothing in common with them. It would be nice to have a close friend that's around my age. So who wants to be my e-mail penpal and my close friend??
