Please, any suggestion??????

[ShannonJ]

Lately my obsessive thoughts have gotten soooooo bad! My obsessive thoughts are very internal, meaning I am constantly analyzing everything I say and do to the point that I feel like I am literally losing my sanity! I look in the mirror and I know it is me but it seems different, I am kinda creeped out that the reflection is me (why? I don't know, It's been the same reflection for the past 25 years). When I talk to people it is like someone else talking, but still knowing that I am in control of my voice. It is like I am listening in the third person, and not really connected to myself. Also, my thoughts are OUT OF CONTROL! I am constantly thinking about thinking about thinking! I am in such an analysis of myself that it seems that I can't stop. I feel like I have taken a third party perspective to my own being and I chase myself in circles in my head! I have no idea if I am making sense ! I try to reinforce positive statements to myself out-loud. Like when I think "was that me talking, or where do my thoughts come from, or maybe I am way too far over the edge for help???" when I think these things I try to counter them out loud with "yes that is my voice, or my thoughts are my own, or no I am not going crazy." The problem with this is that I feel like I am talking outloud to myself all the time (if that is not enough to make you feel like a nut!) and the other problem is that I am feeling more detached from myself so I feel like (or maybe it is just more negative thoughts) that I am starting to not believe my self. Anyway, sorry that was soooo long. Anyone else go through this? Have any advice? Think I'm nuts?

 

[amishparadise]

Can you get a hold of the OCF's news bulletin? The latest issue has a big article about "philosophical obsession", and I'll bet you would enjoy it.

Praying for you.

 

[ShannonJ]

Where do I find this article? Is it avaliable online?

 

[kimba]

Shannon I feel this way a lot of the time also. I remember as a child having to almost pinch myself and say "this is happening NOW". It is awful and you do feel crazy. The only thing that has been helpful to me is to really really concentrate on other people when I speak with them. I look at them intensely and really focus in on what they are saying. It seems to keep me "in the present" better. I also just try to continue to live my life. Sometimes I feel really present and I cherish those times. My Paxil makes me feel worse this way during parts of the day, but the rest it seems to be helping with this. I looked up some things on "derealization" on the internet too and found that other, non ocd people have this also. Praying for you. Kim

 

[amishparadise]

Where do I find this article? Is it avaliable online?

You can get it online at http://www.ocfoundation.org , but, unfortunately, I think it requires paid membership. Maybe you could e-mail their "Contact Us" page and ask if you could download just the one article for a cheap price. I'd give it a try. Good luck, and God bless.

 

[QUannie]

ShannonJ,
I am so sorry you are struggling and going through this!
Remember, The Lord is with you, He sees your struggle and knows what your going through......believe and trust in that TRUTH!Focus on His promises!! He is unchanging~unlike our struggles and obsessions that go from one thing to another! Hang in there!He loves SOOOOOO much!!
I prayed for you!!!

Love,
Q

 

[frank1234]

Hi shannonj;
I too over-analyze things in my head too much where I have developed a severe false guilt issue(relating to what is and what is not sin). I also, like you, when I talk, it feels there is a third person talking and not me, eventhough I know I am in control of my speech. Believe it or not there is a physiological illness that is causing this(or what they some times call Brain fog). The problem with traditional way of dealing with this is that they try to treat the symptoms instead of the root cause of the illness, that's why they put you on different kind of medications in order to help you not feel what you are feeling without treating what's lieyng underneath. There is only one way of finding the root cause of your physical illness and that is alternative/holistic treatments and doctors. I very much recommand, depending of what area you live, to find a good holistic doctor who will tell you what those foundational problems are and to treat them with natural/herbal medicine). You will be surprised by the things you will learn as you go through this process of finding out the root causes of the problem (spiritually, mentally, emotionally, as well as physiclly). GOD be with you.