Pills

[Princess Leia]

I'm not really sure where to post this...
I've struggled with depression since my parents separated when I was 12.
Lately I've been really tempted by the idea of taking pills (Vicodin) just to knock me out so I can forget everything. I know there's some in the house, and the idea really appeals to me at times. I know I shouldn't, but I really, really want to. Anyone been there?
Princess Leia/Kendra

 

[goldenviolet]

the temptation to take the pills won't solve or numb anything. it will leave you wide open for a medical reaction (liver shut down, heart attack, etc., drug addiction... i'd say it will bring you alot of pain. all the things that could happen are all very negative. i'm not a doctor, but i was a medic and know the genral problems over dosing or mistaking meds can lead to. please don't do it. that tempation has horrible consquences.

how about other ways to cope? what do you think about? who can you talk to? and how about talking to your parents? what else is on your heart?

 

[Amin]

Hi, Kendra, I agree with Goldenviolet , that's not the way to go . Try to think of some alternatives , maybe talking to people here , PM someone . I've been down that road,
and it's really not the solution , it only makes things worse . If i had to do it over again , i would'nt even want that to be an option. I'm not doing that well myself right now, but i'd be willing to listen anytime you want. PM, e-mail, what ever, I'll be praying for you.
Amin.

 

[cgmom]

Hi, I've been there too and I can tell you that pills (or anything) is not the way to go. You don't just numb things out and fall asleep. Accidental overdosing happens all the time.

I just recently had two family members commit suicide and the pain is horrible. There are people in your life that love you and really, you just end up pushing your problems onto them.

Do you have a close friend you can call and talk to when you are feeling like this? Have you seen a counselor about your depression? Sometimes just talking really helps.

 

[heatherq17]

Yes I have. It wont solve anything though the problems are just going to be there the next day. I just have to deal with mine. Feel free to Pm if you want to

 

[If Not For Grace]

This may or may not be applicable to you, but the Holidays are often a depressing time for many people. Cold Weather and other situational items often amplify even clinical depression. You might not even be aware of it, since much of it is just atmospherical. Songs on the radio, decorations, can intensify feelings of loneliness, remind you of loss, etc.

It is not likely you became depressed overnight nor is it likely you will recover overnight. However there must be a conscious effort to replace the negative with the positive. (Even when you don't feel like it).

12-steppers use a thing called "Just for Today" that you might find beneficial. It combines affirmation with action. I urge you to get a copy (download it) and try it. Professionals say that you must reinforce a positive concept over 100 times for it to become a habit. Gratitude is another helpful tool.
Make a list ever how silly it sounds--Be thankful if you can dress or feed yourself, if you have family, friends are not homeless, etc.

JUST START--I know you can do it.

 

[Princess Leia]

Thanks everyone for your prayers and your advice and everything.
I do talk to my boyfriend, but that's about it. I also go to a counselor whenever I can afford to go. He's helped me a lot, and I like him.
Maybe it is partly the holidays, I don't like all the family stuff that goes on because it just makes me think of what I don't have.
Also my counselor told me that I could have SAD -Seasonal Affective Disorder - which makes my depression worse when the weather is bad, like today... gray and cloudy and cold.
The idea of making a list of what you're thankful for sounds like a good idea to me... I'm gonna try that.
Thanks again
Princess Leia/Kendra

 

[mylittlelambs]

removing my personal info

 

[blessedmomof5]

I was hoping that your profile would give me a clue as to where you live, but nope.....because i had an idea....since you cannot afford your counslor at times....i live in the north east, and if you would like more information you may pm me.....or pm me anyway....ok anyway went off track, there are places called youth and family counseling centers that go on a sliding scale.....so if you have no money you may notta.....i used to go yrs ago.....now my husband has great insurance so i use that now.....yes i go again....not ashamed.... everyone has problems, and ya know my parnets seperated when i was 19, and it was ugly, i am 42 and wanna know what it is still ugly......they have done some damage to me......... more than any of us...but they would never admit it, but then i allowed them.ok off on a roll again...sorry.....ok so if you want more info please pm me, i i will gladly share whatever you want......even my story if thats what u need........

In Christ
Denise

 

[TheCrimson]

yeah ive been there before except it wasnt with pills I chugged some clorox down my throat and I had to go to a mental hospital for a week.

 

[TheCrimson]

believe me its not worth it

 

[blessedmomof5]

The crimson,
I pray you did no damage, and the Good Lord was with you day? are you ok now?
Lord please look over your precious child and heal him if he is still suffering i Pray this in Jesus's name
Denise

 

[goldenviolet]

Thanks everyone for your prayers and your advice and everything.
I do talk to my boyfriend, but that's about it. I also go to a counselor whenever I can afford to go. He's helped me a lot, and I like him.
Maybe it is partly the holidays, I don't like all the family stuff that goes on because it just makes me think of what I don't have.
Also my counselor told me that I could have SAD -Seasonal Affective Disorder - which makes my depression worse when the weather is bad, like today... gray and cloudy and cold.
The idea of making a list of what you're thankful for sounds like a good idea to me... I'm gonna try that.
Thanks again
Princess Leia/Kendra

you have a whole lot of love and family from godly people. we may be far away now, but somday God will put us all together. ...

do you have a church family where you are? i'm in salem, oregon ...

 

[Stanfi]

I agree with what has been said here. Taking pills to numb your pain is not the answer. Instead of relieving you of one problem they can cause many more.

If you would feel comfortable with posting more here about how you feel, I am sure we can help you. There is many on this board who have been, and are, where you are, and know what you are going through. Remeber you are not alone!

 

[NewSong]

Hey let us know how you make out with your list.

We care.

 

[Newsboy1900]

i dident think you could drink bleach.