Passion for God fading in my struggles

[vsw874]

I have depression & anxiety so it’s hard to want to go to church. I struggle with meeting people at church, so I don’t look forward to feeling alone there. Christian counseling has failed me multiple times, and I’ve tried meditating on verses. Nothing works to get help or support so my faith in God is not very strong. I know I shouldn’t depend on people, which I don’t because I am introverted and spend 99% of my time alone, but I’m tired of being so isolated and I thought God did not create us to be alone.
2 Timothy 1:7 says how God does not give us a spirit of fear, so why after 15 years of my life this won’t go away? I don’t feel confident in my personality to open up to others, I’ve wasted time being stuck and miserable in jobs because of anxiety, I’m just extremely confused.
It also adds insult to injury that my younger sister is so much more passionate for God and is outgoing and has tons of friends and is always having fun. I’m too a shamed to talk to her and she kind of looks down on me because I guess I’m not much to look up to

 

[mukk_in]

Clinical counseling may help (you may be suffering from chronic depression). In the mean time please meditate on this verse: "For I know the plans that I have for you, plans to prosper you and not harm you. Plans to give you hope and a secure future (Jeremiah 29:11)." Faith comes by being in God's word, there's no other way. God bless.

 

[friend of]

A neat trick I've found for reading God's word is in random scripture generators like these ones

Random Bible Verse

Random Bible Verse

Try reading through them. They change every day. God bless you in your journey

 

[WilliamBo]

Just keep seeking God. It's about a personal relationship with God. He has to become more real than the air you breathe. Being outgoing and charming and social isn't always a good thing- narcissistic people are that way. In my 6-7 year walk with God, I have learned no person will satisfy you- only God will

 

[Samaritan Woman]

I have depression & anxiety so it’s hard to want to go to church. I struggle with meeting people at church, so I don’t look forward to feeling alone there. Christian counseling has failed me multiple times, and I’ve tried meditating on verses. Nothing works to get help or support so my faith in God is not very strong. I know I shouldn’t depend on people, which I don’t because I am introverted and spend 99% of my time alone, but I’m tired of being so isolated and I thought God did not create us to be alone.
2 Timothy 1:7 says how God does not give us a spirit of fear, so why after 15 years of my life this won’t go away? I don’t feel confident in my personality to open up to others, I’ve wasted time being stuck and miserable in jobs because of anxiety, I’m just extremely confused.
It also adds insult to injury that my younger sister is so much more passionate for God and is outgoing and has tons of friends and is always having fun. I’m too a shamed to talk to her and she kind of looks down on me because I guess I’m not much to look up to

Have you sought a doctor about your depression and anxiety? There might be a biological basis for your symptoms; I know several people who need medication for these conditions which helps given them a "leg up" for dealing with spiritual issues. If you have a chemical imbalance with your brain, no amount of counseling is going to help. I should know - I'm bipolar with OCD so can attest to how much proper medication assists me with depression and fear.

 

[Norbert L]

I have depression & anxiety so it’s hard to want to go to church. I struggle with meeting people at church, so I don’t look forward to feeling alone there. Christian counseling has failed me multiple times, and I’ve tried meditating on verses. Nothing works to get help or support so my faith in God is not very strong. I know I shouldn’t depend on people, which I don’t because I am introverted and spend 99% of my time alone, but I’m tired of being so isolated and I thought God did not create us to be alone.
2 Timothy 1:7 says how God does not give us a spirit of fear, so why after 15 years of my life this won’t go away? I don’t feel confident in my personality to open up to others, I’ve wasted time being stuck and miserable in jobs because of anxiety, I’m just extremely confused.
It also adds insult to injury that my younger sister is so much more passionate for God and is outgoing and has tons of friends and is always having fun. I’m too a shamed to talk to her and she kind of looks down on me because I guess I’m not much to look up to

Whether you're poor or rich, depression and anxiety are things that some us have to deal with. Generally it's about learning how to ignore it. The million dollar question is how do you do this?

Practice mitigating the thoughts that make you feel down. I say practice because it's just like a sport or game. Sometimes you'll lose but the more you play the better you get at it. If you're passionate about it, pick yourself up and keep going. Proverbs 24:16

 

[Hieronymus]

@ OP,

Maybe don't worry too much.
What is passion worth, when it is about faith and trust in Him?
Either way, one can not feign either, so we pray and try, but still trust in Him.
Who else but God is worthy of such trust?
Nobody.

 

[Vladio1]

Don't worry brother in Jesus Christ. That anxiety minds bring you our enemy. And if you want struggling with that depression - just try to pray for God. And ask him to help you. You will see a very quick help from somebody. Or like said another brother above me - try to speak with God through random scripture generators. I am creator of this one - MyBibleVerses.org And if you feel sad - try to speak with God. God bless you!

 

[Unqualified]

Yes, I say se a doctor and get medication. It’s been to long and you can’t fight it anymore. They say you are eligible after two weeks of it! Then you will get a fresh start, have more energy and have help whenever you are tempted to go down. It’s the only way I know to get out of a bag. I couldn’t punch my way out of a paper bag till I had help to get out of the horrible pit like David. My wife exercises and that helps her. Her choice.

If your truly stuck and can’t get out of it than that is an easy choice. God does heal by doctors..........