Out of control

[AnointedPoetess]

I'm mad at the world and every1 around me and i wanna get better but im not sure how.. im in counseling and on meds but nothing seems to be working well enough.. to me there like weekly fixs.. what should i do?

 

[HappyMomof4]

I guess it depends what you are mad about. I don't know specifically what you should do, but I have had feelings like yours, so I'll tell you what works for me.

Remember God loves all of us. Try to see the good in all people. Even if you disagree with them or with what they do. When someone makes you mad or irritates you, say a quick prayer for them. For me, this really diffuses my anger.

Say a prayer for yourself that God will give you more love and charity toward others.

 

[Amin]

I'm mad at the world and every1 around me and i wanna get better but im not sure how.. im in counseling and on meds but nothing seems to be working well enough.. to me there like weekly fixs.. what should i do?

Hi, I'd ask how you're doing, but i guess your post kinda sums it up.Ya know, i wish i had an answer that would
jump right out, and help in some way. My heart feels your anguish, and pain, for i have been 4 yrs. trying different
medicines, counseling, none of which really work to the extent i would like. Getting angry is one thing to do,
and trust me, i've done that often enough. Another is,( even tho i find this the hardest), to try and give your
anger to God, He can handle it. I know that isn't what you want, or need to hear. It's not what i would want to hear either. We can share our anger, thru Gods' spirit, we are one. He wants us to help each other in such a way that we can see His work, thru Him working thru us.
Right now, i'm wishing i could take away your pain and frustration, but that's not reality. We can tho, lean on each other, and help share our burdens. It would work a lot better if people were closer, but we're not, so anytime you feel like talking, or yelling, or allowing me as one of Gods' children,to help you in some way with your burden, i'd be glad to. Being alone, when we're hurting inside, is a very hard thing to handle, but God really does want the best for you, He also wants to share in your burdens. The best thing i can say is to vent yourself to God, He can handle it, after all, he does know you better than anyone. If you need to, PM me, maybe
being led by Gods' spirit, we can discuss things to help
get us thru those hard times. I pray for nothing less than Gods' best for you. I pray you would sense his arms around you, and let him hold you, until the frustrations
and anger go away. Please, take care of yourself, and
know that God cares about you, and so do i.
God Bless You, Amin.

 

[ceedaisy]

Yes, asking G-d to help you learn how to forgive will be a great thing to do. And maybe letting those around you know that something they did or said hurt you. Otherwise you may hang onto these bad negative feelings. They will all pile up on you, until you just can't take anymore.

And if these friends are online friends, you may need to remember that it is easier to put someone off you can't see than in real life. And also, things can be misinterpreted because you can't see the others emotions. That is a big deal.

I know communication is hard for you, but if you start getting in the habit of speaking your feelings, it will get easier. Keep hanging in there, and just try to be honest with your feelings with others. They won't know they hurt you, until you tell them.

 

[1GODALONE]

I feel that way alot. I'm frustrated with life, tired of "putting up" with people, angry because my life seems so much less interesting than my friends lives. Counseling is good sometimes, meds I have no idea, but I doubt that many people actually "need" them. Look around your life, be thankful for little things. God knows your under pressure, and he is the relief. Read His word, every chance you get, God will show you what you need to know. I will be praying that He does. God bless you.

 

[ceedaisy]

Father, wrap this lady in your loving arms so that she may feel your light and love. She is battling so much and can't not find any relief. Lord, show her the way, show her Your will. I pray that Poetess will be open to Your Light and receptive to Your Love. Bring someone to her that understands what she needs to feel better. Bind the enemy that keeps dragging and holding her down, so that she may stand up and claim victory. In Jesus' Beautiful name, Amen.

 

[Catherineanne]

I'm mad at the world and every1 around me and i wanna get better but im not sure how.. im in counseling and on meds but nothing seems to be working well enough.. to me there like weekly fixs.. what should i do?

I would say, it is a good sign that you are mad with the world, and that you are so determined to get better.

If you can channel that energy into finding out as much as you can about your situation and what has caused it, and into finding a way out, then that is more than half the battle. Still not easy, by any means, but at least it gives you a direction to move in.

Meanwhile, if you find yourself with too much aggression, then you might like to consider ways to release that, in a safe way. Perhaps by running, or going to the gym (if you can bear to do that) or even just dancing in your room to loud music. Anything to release the anger, rather than letting it build up and turn into further depresssion.

 

[thenewageriseth]

I agree with everyone here. Also whenever you can, maybe you can take a trip. It doesn't have to be long, or short. Enjoy life a little more by looking at nature's beauty. There probably is a lot of that where you are. And various music on the radio. And how about some inspirational shows on Christian station(s)? That works.

 

[PorcelainHeart]

I know how you feel AP, I also feel out of control and mad at the world, especially what happen to me last week. I told my shrink I just can't love the person for what they did. So I know how it feels to be mad, just pray about it. And think with more light then darkness. Please, be ok AP, I really like you and I know why you are so hurt.

 

[thenewageriseth]

Yeah me, too. I feel kinda mad at the world sometimes. I was considering withdrawing from ppl outside CF. But Mom says I may just be unhappy and lonely, if I did that. She told me about the different age levels people are on...she told me that I have to learn more about life...well life is the strangest MF... so I don't blame ya'll....

 

[ceedaisy]

I hope you are doing better! Remeber, take control and get out of the house! Take your life back so you can use your gift of helping others through their trials. Keep putting yourself into your poems. Love You!!

 

[ceedaisy]

Yeah me, too. I feel kinda mad at the world sometimes. I was considering withdrawing from ppl outside CF. But Mom says I may just be unhappy and lonely, if I did that. She told me about the different age levels people are on...she told me that I have to learn more about life...well life is the strangest MF... so I don't blame ya'll....

Sounds like you have a great Mom. Yes, life experience does go a long way, not just in learning, but in accepting people and their flaws (to a certain extent). Life is just one great big learning experience.

 

[andrea664]

Im sorry that you are feeling this way AP, i too have been in a similar place to where you are now an what i found that worked for me was to surround my self with lots of positive caring people that would love me no matter how i was feeling and that wouldnt tell me to "get over it" because im sure if one new how to do that they surely would, (i know i would anyways), take heart my dear CF friend, No-one knows what it is like for you unless you tell them so fellowship like this is a great start. and the hardest step too take, so well done!!!!
i also found that a journal (or a notebook ) that only i read helped because it got all the thoughts out of my head. I dont know if you have this in your country or not but you could also try cammomile herbal tea with a tespoon of honey, whenever your feeling a bit wound up too.
I hope this helps, God bless!! please feel free to PM me if you need a chat at anytime!!!!!!

 

[andrea664]

to that!!!!!
life is one continual learining experience and it is alot more fun to have friends to take that journey with too,
God bless you for being so caring! CF needs more members like you!

Sounds like you have a great Mom. Yes, life experience does go a long way, not just in learning, but in accepting people and their flaws (to a certain extent). Life is just one great big learning experience.

 

[thenewageriseth]

Sounds like you have a great Mom. Yes, life experience does go a long way, not just in learning, but in accepting people and their flaws (to a certain extent). Life is just one great big learning experience.

Thanks! You got that right! HEH HEH if life were a course in college, I'd probably have an I for incomplete I wanted to withdraw tho, because of people and maybe their flaws...it's just that i don't want to be hurt anymore...so I think of it as being "safe" from time to time....I mean I don't really want to be as obsessive and loving as I was when I was 13-16. I was happy then. Then last year, everything changed....I mean, just once I would like to hear from someone in the same area I knew...because I have a good friend who moved down south and before, she called me to let me know where she was...I had no clue...I knew she had moved away...I thought she was so cool in 8th grade... oh well... I like it here at CF.