Out of Control!!!!

[jen_soccer13]

I am soo out of control right now. I have tried to just put it off as diet and exercise, but I know it isn't. I dont' know what to do anymore.
Lately I have been not eating for days on end and just drinking a ton of water and diet pop to fill me up. I was going to the gym for like 5 hours at a time or more. I am still doing that.
But now today I am out of control eating. I have eaten way tooo much..and junk at that. I have eaten pizza, candy, baked potato, chips, nachos, and chocolate milk. I ate it all at different times and purged each time I ate feeling soo guilty. I am soo scared of calories and is all I can think about now. I dont know what to do.
I have tired to put this off for so long now. I have said that it is just my diet and exercise, but I know in my heart it isn't. And now I am scared and dont' know how to stop!
Any ideas on what to do?..I need help!
~Jennifer

 

[Writer before God]

Wow jin wat is God telling you to do rely on him and he will get you threw this also ask for tons of prayer and if you want me to i will pray for you ?

 

[Writer before God]

ALso eating things isnt the end of the world dont stop eating becasue you think you are fat cus i bet you arnt just go to the gym and work out and stuff but at least eat your greens and meat try the food pyramid

 

[shamgar187126]

1) Eat enough, and eat well. A little junk food won't kill you.
2) Don't kill yourself at the gym.
3) The body is a temple... we've heard that before but God knows what's happening to you, so talk to Him!

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

Hun, you know i am here for you, i wish i could just make it all better for you,

You can beat this hunni you really really can

Love n lots of hugs

Lizzie

 

[Hope_0004]

Jen,

Well, it's fine to say that God will help you, and he can - but with a problem as serious and as potentially health-compromising as this one, you need to get professional help. If you don't feel ready to share with your family yet, it's okay - you can seek help as an adult (over 18) without telling them, and a professional will have to keep what you say confidential unless you are threatening to injure yourself or someone else.

I used to binge and purge all the time. My heart is not the same because of it ... like my actual, blood-pumping organ, not the one you fall in love with. My back teeth started cracking and had to be capped because of acid/lack of nutrition (painful, very painful). I stopped getting my period... it's bad. You don't want it to get that way for you. I wasn't 18 yet, so I had to tell my parents, who were across the country just in knots.

Now, if you feel strong enough to tell family, you definitely should - after I told my parents, I was shocked by how supportive (and not surprised) they were. I am just saying that if you can't do it right now, you can STILL get help. If you are in college, I am absolutely sure they have staff there that is very used to helping people with your problem. If not, there are websites that can give you more info on seeing someone to talk about this with.

God is great, God will help you and I will be praying for you. But there needs to be medical attention for the immediate problem.

 

[jen_soccer13]

Things are not going well with this right now. I am in a lot of pain physically and emotionally because of this. I am afraid to get help because then I will feel like I am no longer in control. I wish there was someone I could tell that I knwo that woudl help me and care and not judge me...too bad there never will be.

Thanks everyone for caring and replying..jsut not sure what to do right now.

 

[Hope_0004]

There are people who can help and won't judge - professionals! Do you think they'd have jobs for long if they sat around and condemned everyone that tried to come to them for help? No m'am!!! I promise, promise, promise there are people to help - I know, I've met them! They've helped me.

As far as you losing contrl, jen, you've already lost it. You are in pain. You've admitted, at least anonymously here, that you have a problem. That's good. But now you have to do something about it! Sometimes that's just as hard as actually fixing it.

I really really hope that you will consider finding a professional. They are the only ones that can help you with something of this magnitude - you are very unlikely to be able to do it on your own.

 

[goldenviolet]

...Jen honey first a hug. second another .... and thirdly !!
......

sweetheart you are dealling with different combined things....with no family support, and living with abusive family... my heart holds much compassion for you!!
these kinds of things are God's specialty. God is just waiting to bless you. you have reached out to Him. and now you just need to continue to reach out. talk to doc and friends, and pray for direction. surround yourself in hope and seek His comfort. God is loving you will see!!
and lastly !!

 

[goldenviolet]

oooooh and

I LOVE YOU!!!

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

Hun are you still bringing up blood? please tell me you went to the doc, please please

Love n Hugs

Lizzie

 

[Hope_0004]

Jen,

Just wanted to say that I hope things are going all right with you... hang in there, and let us know if you need to talk.

 

[jen_soccer13]

No..i didn't go to the doc Lizzie. I am okay for now though.

 

[Hope_0004]

You shouldn't have to deal with this problem alone Jen. I really hope you consider getting help.

 

[jen_soccer13]

I deal with everything alone, why not this? I fear hospitals and really don't want to go there. The doctor here is closed because we go on Easter Break today, so I can't go there. The only other place I know of and am close to is the ER. I fear hospitals and would have to go alone. That will not work for me.

 

[Hope_0004]

You don't have to go to the hospital... in fact, I wouldn't suggest it anyway. Are you in school? There should be counselling available these days at any high school or university. I was talking more of a counsellor, not a doctor, unless you've seriously injured yourself. And obviously, you can't deal with this alone, because you're still doing it and hurting.

I really hope that you will find someone to talk to that can help you.

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

Hunni i am not disappointed but i am seriously worried about you, how are you doing?

 

[jen_soccer13]

I am not really doing any better. If anything I am doing worse. I have not eaten since Wednesday night when I went home the next morning cuz my mom wouldn't let me eat. I have been exercising like crazy...even today against doctors orders due to broken ribs. I hate having to do this every day...all the time..the counting..but I need to do it..I have to lose weight. I have too. I am miserable at this weight and my mom even says I am fat. I am soo messed up. I am wondering if I am even beyond help at this point!

 

[Leta]

Jen
There's nothing left to say because it's all been said but I just wanted you to know that I wil be praying for you and you are LOVED!
God Bless,
Saleta

 

[Leta]

Oh one more thing! You are NOT beyond hope! It seems like it now but you're not hunny! Don't succumb to that mind set, that's what the enemy wants! Don't let him win! Greater is He that is IN YOU then he who is in the world!
God Bless,
Saleta