Starforsaken said:
it was really a terrifying experience at the time and also amazing. although what i felt while outside of my body was definitly a menacing presence.... i have no doubt in my mind that this was not a dream... ive had dreams that felt so real, like i was actually there but this was not one of them this was real. wheni had woken up being helpless and paralyzed there... it did feel like something was keeping me down... whether it was sleep paralysis or demonic i dont know... but this has definitly proved to me that the body isnt needed the spirit lives on... its a hard experience to type about... another you exists inside the body... the body just helps you move around...
Star, this whole experience must have really shaken you up. But yeah people are made up of Body (your physical), spirit, and soul.
I am very fearful for you and I am very scared what may happen or become of you. These experience are very serious. Star, I say this with the deepest love and concern. I hope you don't take this the wrong way.
Satan is out to get you. You have given him an advantage to get you because you are not apart of the local church. Star, I know that sometimes people at church can say things or do things that does not seem very godly, and many times it can really HURT. Trust me, I know, I've seen it and been there.
But you know, the bible says that satan is like a prowling lion ready to devour us. 1 peter 5:8 says it " Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour."
I mean think about it. If a lion sees a whole flock of sheep, would he go after the whole flock or would he just go after one? If he went after a whole flock, the flock would scatter. However, if the lion goes after just one sheep. That sheep is most likely going to be His dinner.
When you are not in church, you have no accountability and no one to intercede or pray for you. Yes, you may say that God will keep me accountable or intercede for me. Yes, He will do that, but God speaks through His people. Because God made us relational beings, we are to not only be in relation to him, but also to other members of the body of Christ.
Jesus never intended for us to be alone out there without a spiritual family. Think about it. When Jesus sent His diciples out, he sent them out two by two. The bible always talks about bear with
one another.
Star, it is VERY DANGEROUS to be out of the local church and I believe what you are experiencing is part of the dangers. satan comes to seek and destory. I don't want to see that happen to you. God loves you and He does not want to see that happen to you.
Please it is very crucial for you both spiritually and physcially. What's happening in the spiritual can very much be brought into the physical realm and by then it gets really ugly.
Here are a few verses that the bible talks about belonging to the local church.
Romans 7:4
So, my brothers, you also died to the law through the body of Christ, that you might belong to another, to him who was raised from the dead, in order that we might bear fruit to God.
1 Cor 10:16
Is not the cup of thanksgiving for which we give thanks a participation in the blood of Christ? And is not the bread that we break a participation in the body of Christ?
Where are you taking communion? Jesus did command us to take this in remebrance of me until He comes back.
1 Cor 12:12
The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ.
2 cor 5:10
For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, that each one may receive what is due him for the things done while in the body, whether good or bad.
Ephesians 3:17-18
so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,
There's a lot of other verses that I can list about being in the body of Christ, but here are just some of them.
I am sad that people you have encountered with was not a good one. I have switched churches because of that. There was just too much garbage in the church, but God has lead me to a church that has completely overwhelmed me with so much of God's love. God will also lead you to a church where you can be loved and cared for. Thiere's no promise that you won't get hurt. That's every relationship, but you will work it out TOGETHER. This is goign to be a step of faith that God will provide that family for you, and for you to act in obedience to that.
All those things that you are saying about "problems with anger towards others, cursing, pornography..." They will not get better until you come before the throne of grace and repent and get back into the Body of Christ. I hate saying these things very much, but I am only saying this out of my deepest concern for you. All these things you are struggling with including this experience, they will only get worst. When you indulged in these things, you have given satan the right to mess with you and God cannot do anything about it because YOU have given him the right. God will NOT go against your will.
You may be shaking your fist at me and may be very furious with me, but God loves you and He came to give you living waters, so that you can have an abundant life. He wants to Bless you and blow your mind away. Until you get back into the church and leave the life that you are living now, you are walking out of God's blessings.
I pray that you will get a revelation of all this. May the Lord bring to youi the victory in all these areas of your life.
In Christ Jesus
I will no longer speak about this anymore.