old habits? *might trigger*

[nessa]

i don't know if they are old habits..but they aren't new...

again, i am being accused ot being anorexic! this time..i actually lost 20 lbs first

but i have gone back to barely eating...and what i do eat...i regret later. i still enjoy my growling stomach, and i am used to the weak feeling.

i don't know if i am scared of myself...or scared of what will happen if i go to a doc....

 

[bumblebee62331]

If you are having these symptoms again, it's very serious that you listen to them and realise it's not right or healthy, which you have done by posting here. As you sound like you have been through this before, you know how much it hurts, so please get some help now while you can. It's very important that you don't ignore these symptoms from your body, especially when you have been through this before.

 

[saza]

When I get too stressed out, or upset, nervous, sometimes too excited(but VERY rarely) I just dont eat.
when I was younger i had an ED and its effected my eating now, and even though u feel use to the feelings and things, they aren't right!! u need to get some help to get back on track asap!!

what makes u not wana eat??
mine started from my dad abusing me, n i thought at first,if i dnt eat i wont grow,n he'll stop hittin me cos i'll stay a child. then i jus wanted to die.

 

[nessa]

When I get too stressed out, or upset, nervous, sometimes too excited(but VERY rarely) I just dont eat.
when I was younger i had an ED and its effected my eating now, and even though u feel use to the feelings and things, they aren't right!! u need to get some help to get back on track asap!!

what makes u not wana eat??
mine started from my dad abusing me, n i thought at first,if i dnt eat i wont grow,n he'll stop hittin me cos i'll stay a child. then i jus wanted to die.

when i lived in Germany (1996 - 2000...i was ages 9-13) i stopped eating for a little while because i constantly felt sick. Now..it is just because i wanna lose weight. People always tell me that it is easier to find a boyfriend when you feel good about yourself..well, i have never felt good about myself. I hate the way i look. And i know that when i lose enough weight, i will finally be happy with myself. But i can't go exercise like everyone else...i have a bad knee that acts up easily. so i don't eat.

 

[saza]

I use to LOVE dancing, and I still do, but I can't do it that much now because I'm ill and will eventually just collaspe!

But the small amount I do helps keep me in shape. So, is there anything you enjoy doing? dancing,running or what ever? maybe do a small amout and see if that helps, it wont effect u staright away, but it will start to help!

People tell my that I'm beautiful n wat eva and to believe it and when i believe in myself a lad will come blah blah, but its so hard when I get mroe comments tellin me im not pretty n w/e. so its hard to believe that.
but in a song, it says "I am special, I am beautiful, I am wonderful, Powerful, Unstopable" and when things are gettin to me i try and say that to my self and try and believe it, it helps me sometimes.
but try and tell urself things liek that to help you!!

one thing...tell ur self you can over come all this!!