Ok that rips it, exhortation

[PropheticTimes]

Don't feel bad, Hopes, I don't go to church and that's because it has lost it's way, they no longer preach the true message of the gospel of Jesus Christ, it has become a 'country club' of sorts, cliques and people wearing masks, or as Paul stated, "Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away." (2 Timothy 3:5).

Church isn't a building, it's a community of believers that should be caring for one another in truth and love. I have yet to find that in any church building near me. I'm not saying they don't exist, but they are few and far between. I feel I can worship God just fine from where I am and fellowship with other believers in various ways.

If any church makes you feel bad about not giving them money, then the 'world' hasn't gotten in them.

 

[Hopes]

Don't feel bad, Hopes, I don't go to church and that's because it has lost it's way, they no longer preach the true message of the gospel of Jesus Christ, it has become a 'country club' of sorts, cliques and people wearing masks, or as Paul stated, "Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away." (2 Timothy 3:5).

Church isn't a building, it's a community of believers that should be caring for one another in truth and love. I have yet to find that in any church building near me. I'm not saying they don't exist, but they are few and far between. I feel I can worship God just fine from where I am and fellowship with other believers in various ways.

If any church makes you feel bad about not giving them money, then the 'world' hasn't gotten in them.

Thanks I do feel bad but I think God was trying to show me something, that I don't belong there, I am not sure where I do belong. I think the only place I feel at ease is in my mobile home in these woods. Yeah its not the Hilton, its almost as old as I am, but its home to me. I still have a lot of bills to pay but somehow this spring/summer I have to make repairs to this thing. I also want to make a prayer garden so I have a private place to go off to pray.

I want to build some hot houses and try growing my own food this year if its the Lords will. It shouldn't cost much to build them so hopefully I can do it. I feel bad because I can't work and don't contribute much so they would give me a way to feel like I contribute something. My husband says I do plenty already but still I would like to do more.

I will just socialize with people here if you guys don't mind. As for study I am reading 1st John and watching "The Holiness of God." A funny side note I once asked God to make me one of them creatures that say Holy, Holy, Holy around the throne day and night when I die LOL. I know He wont but it was worth a shot right? Before that I wanted to be a warrior angel ha ha. I told Him it would be my pleasure to come back and fight during Armageddon. Like He needs my help LOL!

I don't care what He makes me really. Maybe He can get me one of them big buffers like at Walmart and I can shine the floors and streets lol.

 

[PropheticTimes]

I will just socialize with people here if you guys don't mind. As for study I am reading 1st John and watching "The Holiness of God." A funny side note I once asked God to make me one of them creatures that say Holy, Holy, Holy around the throne day and night when I die LOL. I know He wont but it was worth a shot right? Before that I wanted to be a warrior angel ha ha. I told Him it would be my pleasure to come back and fight during Armageddon. Like He needs my help LOL!

I don't care what He makes me really. Maybe He can get me one of them big buffers like at Walmart and I can shine the floors and streets lol.

LOL that's awesome

 

[Hopes]

LOL that's awesome

Well I finished the teaching "The Holiness of God" and I LOVED LOVED it. I have to admit I am a little afraid of what its going to be like to see Jesus in all His Glory. All the descriptions of Him in the Bible make Him sound pretty scary and I don't feel worthy.

I found myself wishing I could have the angel put the coal upon my lips like in this.
6Then one of the seraphim flew to me with a burning coal in his hand, which he had takenfrom the altar with tongs. 7He touched my mouth with it and said, "Behold, this has touched your lips; and your iniquity is taken away and your sin is forgiven."

Just to feel forgiven and have that kind of assurance. I long to feel that.

Oh on a side note something frustrating happened. I went in for a mammogram Monday to shut my Dr up because she has been bugging me about it so I finally gave in and went. Well I thought since there is no breast cancer or issues in my family that I would be in and out of there and it would be over.

Well yesterday I got a call, of course they found something. 2 masses one of which might be a lymph node but the other one they don't know what it is yet and want me to go to a 3 hour ultrasound on the 27th. So back into the storm again. My whole life is like this, one storm after another. I live in the proverbial whirl wind of problems. I am just glad I said no to the colonoscopy because no telling what they would find if I did that LOL.

 

[Hopes]

Well I finished the teaching "The Holiness of God" and I LOVED LOVED it. I have to admit I am a little afraid of what its going to be like to see Jesus in all His Glory. All the descriptions of Him in the Bible make Him sound pretty scary and I don't feel worthy.

I found myself wishing I could have the angel put the coal upon my lips like in this.
6Then one of the seraphim flew to me with a burning coal in his hand, which he had takenfrom the altar with tongs. 7He touched my mouth with it and said, "Behold, this has touched your lips; and your iniquity is taken away and your sin is forgiven."

Just to feel forgiven and have that kind of assurance. I long to feel that.

Oh on a side note something frustrating happened. I went in for a mammogram Monday to shut my Dr up because she has been bugging me about it so I finally gave in and went. Well I thought since there is no breast cancer or issues in my family that I would be in and out of there and it would be over.

Well yesterday I got a call, of course they found something. 2 masses one of which might be a lymph node but the other one they don't know what it is yet and want me to go to a 3 hour ultrasound on the 27th. So back into the storm again. My whole life is like this, one storm after another. I live in the proverbial whirl wind of problems. I am just glad I said no to the colonoscopy because no telling what they would find if I did that LOL.

MA Mammo Screen Bilat Digital EXAM: BILATERAL DIGITAL SCREENING MAMMOGRAM WITH CAD HISTORY: No current breast-related complaints. No significant family history of breast cancer.
COMPARISONS: This is the baseline exam. BREAST COMPOSITION: There are scattered fibroglandular densities.
FINDINGS: There is a mass in the middle third of the superior medial left breast. There is a another ovoid mass in the posterior third of the upper outer left breast which may be a lymph node. No dominant mass in the right breast. No architectural distortion or suspicious calcifications identified bilaterally. IMPRESSION: 1. The patient should return for targeted ultrasound of the left breast masses. 2. Benign findings in the right breast.
BI-RADS: 0 - Incomplete: needs additional imaging evaluation. The patient will be notified to schedule the additional imaging per our standard protocol.

In case no one believed me. Seriously you can't even make this stuff up. Anyway I am going to get going. I want to do some more Bible studies and praise the Lord some more.

 

[PropheticTimes]

Well I finished the teaching "The Holiness of God" and I LOVED LOVED it. I have to admit I am a little afraid of what its going to be like to see Jesus in all His Glory. All the descriptions of Him in the Bible make Him sound pretty scary and I don't feel worthy.

I found myself wishing I could have the angel put the coal upon my lips like in this.
6Then one of the seraphim flew to me with a burning coal in his hand, which he had takenfrom the altar with tongs. 7He touched my mouth with it and said, "Behold, this has touched your lips; and your iniquity is taken away and your sin is forgiven."

Just to feel forgiven and have that kind of assurance. I long to feel that.

Oh on a side note something frustrating happened. I went in for a mammogram Monday to shut my Dr up because she has been bugging me about it so I finally gave in and went. Well I thought since there is no breast cancer or issues in my family that I would be in and out of there and it would be over.

Well yesterday I got a call, of course they found something. 2 masses one of which might be a lymph node but the other one they don't know what it is yet and want me to go to a 3 hour ultrasound on the 27th. So back into the storm again. My whole life is like this, one storm after another. I live in the proverbial whirl wind of problems. I am just glad I said no to the colonoscopy because no telling what they would find if I did that LOL.

yikes! hope it works out ok....that's the very reason I don't get those tests done without reason, cuz the longer I don't know I might have something the less I have to worry LOL

 

[Hopes]

yikes! hope it works out ok....that's the very reason I don't get those tests done without reason, cuz the longer I don't know I might have something the less I have to worry LOL

I am not really worried. Its kind of hard to explain but its because of the way I see God. I had something happen to me once during a manic episode that changed my whole life and perspective on how I see God. I will never be the same.

Maybe someday if I can ever figure out how to put it into words I will post about it. Its not a bad thing, it shows the Greatness of God and how I see Him. Its kind of like this, its one thing to know a thing but then its quite another to really KNOW a thing. Now don't think that I think I am special because of this. It was probably just my mind melting down and not from God at all.

Oh and I shouldn't have said I was trying to shut my Dr up. Shes actually nice. All of them are and they keep my carcass going lol.

 

[Hopes]

I am not really worried. Its kind of hard to explain but its because of the way I see God. I had something happen to me once during a manic episode that changed my whole life and perspective on how I see God. I will never be the same.

Maybe someday if I can ever figure out how to put it into words I will post about it. Its not a bad thing, it shows the Greatness of God and how I see Him. Its kind of like this, its one thing to know a thing but then its quite another to really KNOW a thing. Now don't think that I think I am special because of this. It was probably just my mind melting down and not from God at all.

Oh and I shouldn't have said I was trying to shut my Dr up. Shes actually nice. All of them are and they keep my carcass going lol.

Well I talked to God and I think He does not want me to post about my experience. The thing about people (or some people, not all people) they stand around, rocks at the ready to throw them at the first sign of someone saying something they don't think is possible or agree with. Others, armed with a million and one Bible verses stand at the ready to minister death with a thousand cuts.

My experience, be it from mania or from Abba Father means something to me. It is precious to me and I consider it sacred. If it is or not, it STILL means something to me. The Father is very dear to me. I didn't have much of a biological father. I wont mention what all he did to me because I have forgiven it. I even tried to pray for him not to go to hell over what he did to me. Anyway I asked Him if He could be my Father since I never really had a proper dad. Not biologically of course, but adopt me.

I can already hear the critics grumbling. No way she got a revelation from the Father. Its a demon. Its a demon inhabiting a corpse because she said she lived in a carcass. She sinned unto death, God gave her cancer. Its like Ananias and Sapphira shes trying to rob God so He gave her cancer. I hear these kinds of things in my head every time I go around people and that's why its best for me to stay away from them. Maybe its schitzoaffective disorder? I don't know but sometimes I think I can feel what others are thinking about me. It hurts me too much and I think its best that I just stay alone.

I am going to go now, I have a lot to do and as I explained its just too hard for me to be around people.