Ocd!!!!!!!!!!!!

[TULIPgirl]

Hi everybody,
I am a real newbie here and I actually joined Christian Forums because I saw the postings on OCD and wanted to join in.
I have struggled with OCD it seems like ever since I can remember-even as a little kid. It is amazing to me when I read the postings and see that other people sound just like me! Yes, I've been to counseling and I thought I was fine just recently, but within the past couple of weeks it hit me again like a ton of bricks-worse than I've had for years-and what makes it really bad is that it's all stuff I thought I had gotten over when I was little. To have all those old worries and thoughts coming back up out of the dark is totally frustrating! I've never taken meds for this and I didn't want to, but if it would help I might give in.
So, really, I wanted to vent a little bit here; it feels better if I can do that. I am a Christian and I know that we are made free in Christ, but then I feel guilty because my parents would say that it is my own sin that's causing all the OCD problems, so it must be my own fault.
Pray for me, please-thanks for letting me vent!

 

[seajoy]

Taking meds is not giving in...it's taking a hold of your treatment. It's allowing the things that are out there to help you. Nothing wrong with that at all.

My parents said the same thing as yours say to you. God is way more loving than our earthly parents could ever dream of being. Your sins are all forgiven in Christ. God doesn't work that way and punish us for our sins. Jesus took that punishment for us.

Now, go get some OCD therapy...perhaps some meds if warranted....it's time to feel good again.

 

[gracealone]

Hi Tulip,
Seajoy is sooo right!! I know what it's like to have it all come back when I thought it would never get a hold on me again. This time round though, I wasn't about to suffer for a couple of years with the torture I went through before. I went to the Doc. got on some meds. and began to learn how to do exposure/response therapy. I'm doing so much better and I'm getting better so much faster than I did before. Knowledge about this disorder has really enabled me to live with so much more hope than I had years ago when I was so beaten down with it. Don't be afraid of meds. A big part of my OCD was the fear of taking the meds. OCD can make everything seem overwhelming and scary when it's gotten a good grip on you.
I want to encourage you to go get help and to understand that the reason people we really love and respect say those hurtful things to us about our disorder is that they are uneducated not lacking compassion. So try to forgive them... but don't agree with them because they are dead wrong.
God Bless,
Mitzi

 

[TULIPgirl]

Thank you both! It's strange how crazy the world can seem with OCD. I think a lot of people wouldn't really understand...I hate to go back to therapy because I am so embarrassed to talk about things that bother me-I know that's silly, but it's hard! I keep holding back just hoping it will go away.

P.S. Listening to music helps!