OCD- What is this?

[Emiliano]

So I suffer from OCD and I once had a quick brush with Scrupulousity where I feared I wanted to be a satanist and willfully blaspheming against the Holy Spirit but now my intrusive thoughts are now being directed at my loved ones like parents, brothers, neighbors, and friends such as “What if their secretly satanists?” “What if their going to or already sold their souls to the devil” “What if they secretly hate God and love the Devil?!” I was afraid my OCD was evolving into paranoid schizophrenia for having these thoughts but they seem just like intrusive thoughts but I still cry and scream when I’m nowhere to be seen.

Rationally I see all of them as normal nice friendly people every day and we all attend the same church. Im on meds and all I could do is pray is that God is still in control of my reality and the people in my life and won’t be what my mind says it’ll be.

 

[Southernscotty]

Welcome to CF friend and you can discuss this in the mental health section here, We have many that suffer from OCD here.

 

[Sam91]

Hi Emiliano

Welcome to CF

As @Southernscotty said there is a forum on here where you can talk about that with others who may have had similar experiences.

It is good to see you

EDIT: Found a link for you

https://www.christianforums.com/forums/obsessive-compulsive-disorder.598/

 

[Emiliano]

Thanks for your kindness