ocd suicidal thoughts

[whitechocolate37]

I would NEVER commit suicide but I constantly have the thoughts that I will

overdose or something like that. I find these thoughts stronger some days then

others. Does anyone else have this problem?

 

[gracealone]

You mean like "what if I just walk into the bathroom open up the medicine cabinet and swallow a bunch of pills even though I really don't want to!"?
I've had that obsession before and for a while I was afraid for my husband to leave me alone cause, "it might not be safe." Like you I had no desire to do such a thing but the OCD suggested that I just might.
I don't know if that's what it's like but thought I'd share just in case so you'd know someone else has had that too.
Mitzi

I would NEVER commit suicide but I constantly have the thoughts that I will

overdose or something like that. I find these thoughts stronger some days then

others. Does anyone else have this problem?

 

[whitechocolate37]

That's exactly what it's like! I love my life and am happy(when I am not obsessing) but I

would never overdose on pills. That's so opposite to how I am! OCD can be tricky and de-

ceptive. Thanks for you post. It made me not feel alone in this mental struggle!

 

[gracealone]

I know just what you mean. There's nothing quite so comforting as finding someone else with OCD who has struggled with the exact same obsessional content as I have. Suddenly I know that I'm not the freakish anomaly that I thought I was.
Now... let the obsession ring out in your head but don't fight against it. I mean don't try to do any mental debating with it, just totally ignore it and go about your business. Don't engage with it or attend to it or it will bother you a lot more.
Praying for you.
Mitzi

That's exactly what it's like! I love my life and am happy(when I am not obsessing) but I

would never overdose on pills. That's so opposite to how I am! OCD can be tricky and de-

ceptive. Thanks for you post. It made me not feel alone in this mental struggle!

 

[kodadog1024]

whitechocolate, I had this about a year and half ago. I remember having constant obsessions about knives and hurting myself, hanging myself and even throwing myself off high-rise stadium bleachers. And what was even worse was that the thoughts made me so depressed that it became a struggle for me to figure out the thoughts, vs the feelings because of the thoughts. It just drove me deeper and deeper into depression and more and more thoughts. Thank God for medicine.

 

[flowerforever7]

Hi,

I can relate to this. Some years ago I had an obsession that I would swallow all my pills. I do not remember feeling suicidal at that point; I think it was just this fear that I would overdose on all the pills. OCD can be tricky sometimes, and I do not believe I had a desire to do it, just a fear that I would.