ocd help

[Matheushorta]

Hello, I'm from Brazil, I'm still learning English, so I'll use Google Translate. Well, I'd like to hear some advice because I don't know what to do anymore.I was diagnosed with OCD in 2019. I went to the psychiatrist for free. In Brazil, we have a public medical system, but it takes a while to schedule an appointment. Anyway, I went to the psychiatrist and he quickly said it was OCD, because the symptoms were clear. He prescribed me some medicine and told me to go to therapy, but I didn't care about the severity of the problem and didn't seek therapy. I went back to the doctor again and he said everything was fine. That was at the end of 2019, and then 2020 came and the pandemic hit and everything closed. Brazil only returned to normal in 2022. But I had already come to terms with the disorder.I got used to it, and I was managing to live much better, so I neglected the treatment. In this period from 2019 until today I have had several OCD issues. But what is killing me is the religious one. In 2019, I converted to Christianity, just me, my family and group of friends, so I was "alone", me and OCD, so ocd fed and created a false God in my mind and I related to this false God, I was alone and could only ask questions on the internet. Well, 2022 passed (I met Christian people) and then in 2023 I started attending a church, but I didn't tell anyone in the church that I had OCD because I was afraid people wouldn't understand. But I stayed in that church for a year, getting to know it and OCD killing me more and more. Here's where the problems begin: I live in the interior of Brazil, in my city there are few churches. I started attending one, but I didn't have communion, I felt invisible, it was very bad, it hurts me a lot. I spoke to the pastor, and took the opportunity to talk about OCD, but that was it. It didn't change, I continued to feel invisible. , I went looking for another church, and the same thing happened, invisible. I don't want to be like a superstar, but basic things. I'm without a church. Another problem, the OCD became a huge snowball, I can't do anything anymore, I can't read the Bible, pray properly, listen to praise, the OCD kind of traumatized me. I don't know what else to do, I really wanted to believe, but I don't think I can, I'm trapped in a cage, I can't connect with GOD, it's all very difficult for me. I can't stand so many doubts anymore, I'm always having doubts about Christianity, like I want to have an answer for everything, I can't have a doubt. I can't look at God, I always think he's disappointed in me, sometimes I feel like I need time, like a turtle's pace, you know, one step at a time, but I don't see God like that, I just think of God rushing me, telling me to do and do and do. I don't have money to pay for therapy, and I wanted to work, but with this mindset, I can't. I'm stuck in this cycle. I'm losing hope in life, my dreams are fading away. How am I going to go to college like this? OCD is attacking my gastric system. I have gas and nausea. College is in another city. Since I'm going to travel, my OCD is going to tell me that I'm going to get sick on the way.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. I NEED HELP. DOES ANYONE KNOW OF A FREE RESOURCE?

 

[Unqualified]

Try the chaplain here. But you know the truth about Jesus, stick to it. Don’t let ocd run your life. Go to a church get fed the gospel it’s life changing. You need people.

 

[quietbird]

Hi, I have OCD and I used have really bad scrupulosity OCD. Its really bad, but I promise you by the grace of God you will get through this. My advice is, don't listen to fear. Listen to worship music or the Bible in audio while you can. I relate to the feeling so sick you can't even read the Bible, listening to God's word helps calms me down. Also, I highly recommend you check out Pastor Joseph Prince, his teachings have helped me so much. Here's one video that makes me cry of relief every time I watch it:

 

[NBB]

Hi, most probably your OCD got worse, because the enemy is raising against you because doesn't want you to seek Jesus,
I had OCD, and in my experience, is like in the bible, people were tormented and Jesus freed them of their torment, if you know what i mean.
You could seek some pastor or minister, that does deliverance. Be careful where you go though there are 'wolfs' about too sadly.

 

[Mari17]

Hello, I'm from Brazil, I'm still learning English, so I'll use Google Translate. Well, I'd like to hear some advice because I don't know what to do anymore.I was diagnosed with OCD in 2019. I went to the psychiatrist for free. In Brazil, we have a public medical system, but it takes a while to schedule an appointment. Anyway, I went to the psychiatrist and he quickly said it was OCD, because the symptoms were clear. He prescribed me some medicine and told me to go to therapy, but I didn't care about the severity of the problem and didn't seek therapy. I went back to the doctor again and he said everything was fine. That was at the end of 2019, and then 2020 came and the pandemic hit and everything closed. Brazil only returned to normal in 2022. But I had already come to terms with the disorder.I got used to it, and I was managing to live much better, so I neglected the treatment. In this period from 2019 until today I have had several OCD issues. But what is killing me is the religious one. In 2019, I converted to Christianity, just me, my family and group of friends, so I was "alone", me and OCD, so ocd fed and created a false God in my mind and I related to this false God, I was alone and could only ask questions on the internet. Well, 2022 passed (I met Christian people) and then in 2023 I started attending a church, but I didn't tell anyone in the church that I had OCD because I was afraid people wouldn't understand. But I stayed in that church for a year, getting to know it and OCD killing me more and more. Here's where the problems begin: I live in the interior of Brazil, in my city there are few churches. I started attending one, but I didn't have communion, I felt invisible, it was very bad, it hurts me a lot. I spoke to the pastor, and took the opportunity to talk about OCD, but that was it. It didn't change, I continued to feel invisible. , I went looking for another church, and the same thing happened, invisible. I don't want to be like a superstar, but basic things. I'm without a church. Another problem, the OCD became a huge snowball, I can't do anything anymore, I can't read the Bible, pray properly, listen to praise, the OCD kind of traumatized me. I don't know what else to do, I really wanted to believe, but I don't think I can, I'm trapped in a cage, I can't connect with GOD, it's all very difficult for me. I can't stand so many doubts anymore, I'm always having doubts about Christianity, like I want to have an answer for everything, I can't have a doubt. I can't look at God, I always think he's disappointed in me, sometimes I feel like I need time, like a turtle's pace, you know, one step at a time, but I don't see God like that, I just think of God rushing me, telling me to do and do and do. I don't have money to pay for therapy, and I wanted to work, but with this mindset, I can't. I'm stuck in this cycle. I'm losing hope in life, my dreams are fading away. How am I going to go to college like this? OCD is attacking my gastric system. I have gas and nausea. College is in another city. Since I'm going to travel, my OCD is going to tell me that I'm going to get sick on the way.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. I NEED HELP. DOES ANYONE KNOW OF A FREE RESOURCE?

Thank you for sharing! I am sorry to hear that you are struggling so much. I have been through several big flares with OCD, but it is possible to get through it and to live a healthy life and to accomplish some of your goals. So please don't give up hope! It is possible to change, and the way things are now is not how they will always be.

Here are some resources that have helped me:
Mark DeJesus
Here is his playlist about OCD, specifically:

Also, I have found this blog to be helpful:
Blog - Scrupulosity.com

 

[LoriSaysHey2U]

Hello, I'm from Brazil, I'm still learning English, so I'll use Google Translate. Well, I'd like to hear some advice because I don't know what to do anymore.I was diagnosed with OCD in 2019. I went to the psychiatrist for free. In Brazil, we have a public medical system, but it takes a while to schedule an appointment. Anyway, I went to the psychiatrist and he quickly said it was OCD, because the symptoms were clear. He prescribed me some medicine and told me to go to therapy, but I didn't care about the severity of the problem and didn't seek therapy. I went back to the doctor again and he said everything was fine. That was at the end of 2019, and then 2020 came and the pandemic hit and everything closed. Brazil only returned to normal in 2022. But I had already come to terms with the disorder.I got used to it, and I was managing to live much better, so I neglected the treatment. In this period from 2019 until today I have had several OCD issues. But what is killing me is the religious one. In 2019, I converted to Christianity, just me, my family and group of friends, so I was "alone", me and OCD, so ocd fed and created a false God in my mind and I related to this false God, I was alone and could only ask questions on the internet. Well, 2022 passed (I met Christian people) and then in 2023 I started attending a church, but I didn't tell anyone in the church that I had OCD because I was afraid people wouldn't understand. But I stayed in that church for a year, getting to know it and OCD killing me more and more. Here's where the problems begin: I live in the interior of Brazil, in my city there are few churches. I started attending one, but I didn't have communion, I felt invisible, it was very bad, it hurts me a lot. I spoke to the pastor, and took the opportunity to talk about OCD, but that was it. It didn't change, I continued to feel invisible. , I went looking for another church, and the same thing happened, invisible. I don't want to be like a superstar, but basic things. I'm without a church. Another problem, the OCD became a huge snowball, I can't do anything anymore, I can't read the Bible, pray properly, listen to praise, the OCD kind of traumatized me. I don't know what else to do, I really wanted to believe, but I don't think I can, I'm trapped in a cage, I can't connect with GOD, it's all very difficult for me. I can't stand so many doubts anymore, I'm always having doubts about Christianity, like I want to have an answer for everything, I can't have a doubt. I can't look at God, I always think he's disappointed in me, sometimes I feel like I need time, like a turtle's pace, you know, one step at a time, but I don't see God like that, I just think of God rushing me, telling me to do and do and do. I don't have money to pay for therapy, and I wanted to work, but with this mindset, I can't. I'm stuck in this cycle. I'm losing hope in life, my dreams are fading away. How am I going to go to college like this? OCD is attacking my gastric system. I have gas and nausea. College is in another city. Since I'm going to travel, my OCD is going to tell me that I'm going to get sick on the way.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. I NEED HELP. DOES ANYONE KNOW OF A FREE RESOURCE?

First thing you need to do is Trust God only, no one else. You are in a spiritual battle and if you are a true Believer, God has given you weapons to fight this battle. The Bible calls these weapons that God has given you Spiritual Armor. The Apostle Paul dealt with this often. He explains what they are and how to use them in his letter to the people at the church in a city in Asia Minor called Ephesus. Read Ephesians 6:10-17. James 4:7-8 says "Draw close to God, resist the devil and he will flee from you." How do you draw close to God? Be a PRO Christian (P)ray, (R)Read, and (Obey). Pray to Jesus often. Thank Him throughout your day for even the small things (He loves that), ask Him to help you throughout the day, even with the small things, and thank Him each time, then read His Word daiIy. It really works! I went up into my attic last year and accidentally fell through the ceiling. So now, every time I go into the attic, I pray that the Lord will protect me and get me down safely, and He does. I am close to someone who was diagnosted with bi-polar many years ago. His psychiatrist put him on Olanzapine and he's highly addicted and can't get off of it. When he has the disgustingly horrible nightmares, that's spiritual warfare. Only thing that helps him get back to the peace that only God can give, is to immediate draw close to God and Pray, Read, Obey.. God's Word is sharper than a two-edge sword. The enemy hates it when you do this, so they flee - for a while, but they always come back. I'll be praying for you my dear!

 

[Matheushorta]

Olá, eu tenho TOC e eu costumava ter um TOC de escrupulosidade muito ruim. É muito ruim, mas eu prometo a você pela graça de Deus que você vai superar isso. Meu conselho é, não dê ouvidos ao medo. Ouça música de adoração ou a Bíblia em áudio enquanto você pode. Eu me identifico com a sensação de estar tão doente que você não consegue nem ler a Bíblia, ouvir a palavra de Deus me ajuda a me acalmar. Além disso, eu recomendo fortemente que você confira o Pastor Joseph Prince, seus ensinamentos me ajudaram muito. Aqui está um vídeo que me faz chorar de alívio toda vez que assisto:

OThank you for your response and help, seriously having support is very important.

 

[Matheushorta]

Obrigado por compartilhar! Lamento saber que você está lutando tanto. Eu passei por vários surtos grandes com TOC, mas é possível superar isso e viver uma vida saudável e realizar alguns dos seus objetivos. Então, por favor, não perca a esperança! É possível mudar, e a maneira como as coisas estão agora não é como elas sempre serão.

Aqui estão alguns recursos que me ajudaram:
Marcos De Jesus
Aqui está sua playlist sobre TOC, especificamente:
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Também achei este blog útil:
Blog - Scrupulosity.c OThank you for your help, community support makes a difference, knowing that there are people who care about what I wrote.

 

[Matheushorta]

A primeira coisa que você precisa fazer é confiar somente em Deus, em mais ninguém. Você está em uma batalha espiritual e se você é um verdadeiro crente, Deus lhe deu armas para lutar essa batalha. A Bíblia chama essas armas que Deus lhe deu de Armadura Espiritual. O apóstolo Paulo lidou com isso frequentemente. Ele explica o que são e como usá-las em sua carta às pessoas na igreja em uma cidade na Ásia Menor chamada Éfeso. Leia Efésios 6:10-17. Tiago 4:7-8 diz "Cheguem perto de Deus, resistam ao diabo e ele fugirá de vocês." Como você se aproxima de Deus? Seja um cristão PRO (O)re, (R)leia e (obedeça). Ore a Jesus frequentemente. Agradeça a Ele durante todo o dia, mesmo pelas pequenas coisas (Ele ama isso), peça a Ele para ajudá-lo ao longo do dia, mesmo com as pequenas coisas, e agradeça a Ele todas as vezes, então leia Sua Palavra diariamente. Realmente funciona! Eu subi no meu sótão ano passado e acidentalmente caí do teto. Então agora, toda vez que vou ao sótão, oro para que o Senhor me proteja e me leve para baixo em segurança, e Ele o faz. Sou próximo de alguém que foi diagnosticado com transtorno bipolar há muitos anos. O psiquiatra dele o receitou Olanzapina e ele é altamente viciado e não consegue parar. Quando ele tem pesadelos repugnantemente horríveis, isso é guerra espiritual. A única coisa que o ajuda a voltar à paz que só Deus pode dar é se aproximar imediatamente de Deus e orar, ler, obedecer. A Palavra de Deus é mais afiada do que uma espada de dois gumes. O inimigo odeia quando você faz isso, então eles fogem - por um tempo, mas sempre voltam. Estarei orando por você, minha querida!

MThank you very much for your text.