OCD disturbing thoughts about Jesus.. Please help

[Scared but trusting God]

So my OCD focuses on different things at different times. I had this intrusive sexual thought about Jesus. Then, I got scared that I was viewing Jesus sexually and the images kept coming. My mind is convincing me that I view him sexually. I really don’t want to! I don’t know what to do. Like when I pray to Jesus, it’s so hard now because I’m trying not to think these thoughts. I’m so scared that I am viewing Jesus sexually. When I say that I love him and that he is my Lord and Savior, my mind is convincing me that it’s perverted. Am I going to hell? Please help.

 

[Dave G.]

When someone goes to hell it's not because of OCD thoughts.

 

[GospelS]

Keep meditating on the word of God so you be renewed in your mind. God is gracious. He understands our problems more than we do. Read what Paul says about such difficulties in Romans 7:15-25

For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.

For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.

So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members.

Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.

 

[Scared but trusting God]

Keep meditating on the word of God so you be renewed in your mind. God is gracious. He understands our problems more than we do. Read what Paul says about such difficulties in Romans 7:15-25

For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.

For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.

So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members.

Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.

So it’s not actually me doing this? I really don’t want to.

 

[GospelS]

So it’s not actually me doing this? I really don’t want to.

No, since you really don’t want to or like it. Such things happen to humans and we continue following Christ knowing that our recovery is in Him in due season, no matter what it feels like in the present moment.

 

[Grace1234]

God knows all your heart and all of your life story. God knows that you don’t want those thought. You should pray to him, tell him everything. Althought, it really difficult to explain. What I really want to say is if you don’t know how to explain it, then you told god that you don’t know how to explain it. If you didn’t feel much of repentance because you think it from ocd, then tell him you so confused and didn’t feel much repentance but you want to say sorry. God already know everything about you,but I think He will be happy if you told him everything by yourself. I have watch one of video from YouTube, it said that god are like a dad that want to hear his children story.

I suffer with a religious ocd related to blasphemy thought and vows. Sometimes I always blame ocd.When I pray, I told god everything. For examples, I really want to be forgiven, but sometimes I think it not my faults about all those intrusive thought.It’s hard for me to feel repentance, but I really want to say sorry. I always pray to god for me to expereince his loved ,but I always know that I fear of him more than I feel loved from him.Because I feel likes I’m a sinner. So I started to told god everything. I told him that I fear of you more than I feel loved. But I actually want to feel your loved.I try to open my heart to hear you but I know I actually didn’t open my heart. Somethings like that and next morning I feel his glory. I recommend you to pray to him likes you explain your story in this forums. I means told him all of your struggles. God bless you!

 

[Bobber]

So my OCD focuses on different things at different times. I had this intrusive sexual thought about Jesus. Then, I got scared that I was viewing Jesus sexually and the images kept coming. My mind is convincing me that I view him sexually. I really don’t want to! I don’t know what to do. Like when I pray to Jesus, it’s so hard now because I’m trying not to think these thoughts. I’m so scared that I am viewing Jesus sexually. When I say that I love him and that he is my Lord and Savior, my mind is convincing me that it’s perverted. Am I going to hell? Please help.

Well I've got to say that's a first I've ever heard anyone say this.

But look friend fear not!

Remember who and what God is. He's the Creator of the Heavens and the Earth and all things physical including your human body. He knows that full range and potential for the human mind and body to create impulses some of which are pretty crazy. And don't think Jesus condemns you over something like this. He understands!

The main thing I think he'd have you know is just put your focus on the word and prayer and his word like a fire which has his glory in it will transform you into walking with more of a mind which brings things in order. And again don't worry about doing this in your own strength but fill your spirit and mind with his word power. It's his word in us which causes us to walk on the spiritual plane we should.

Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth. Jn 17:17 God's word has within it the transforming power to change us. It's not us but the word.

And what is the exceeding greatness of his power to us-ward who believe, according to the working of his mighty power...Eph 1:19

 

[Scared but trusting God]

Well I've got to say that's a first I've ever heard anyone say this.

But look friend fear not!

Remember who and what God is. He's the Creator of the Heavens and the Earth and all things physical including your human body. He knows that full range and potential for the human mind and body to create impulses some of which are pretty crazy. And don't think Jesus condemns you over something like this. He understands!

The main thing I think he'd have you know is just put your focus on the word and prayer and his word like a fire which has his glory in it will transform you into walking with more of a mind which brings things in order. And again don't worry about doing this in your own strength but fill your spirit and mind with his word power. It's his word in us which causes us to walk on the spiritual plane we should.

Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth. Jn 17:17 God's word has within it the transforming power to change us. It's not us but the word.

And what is the exceeding greatness of his power to us-ward who believe, according to the working of his mighty power...Eph 1:19

Thank you for answering. My OCD is making it hard to accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior because it’s convincing me that it’s sexual. I don’t know what to do because I don’t want to reject Jesus. I want him to be in my heart. Do you think God understands?

 

[subtlecollision]

First, know that, if you have trusted in Jesus as your savior, you have already been saved. Salvation is an event. You have already passed from death to life.

"Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life. He does not come into judgment, but has passed from death to life." John 5:24

How long is eternal life? Eternal. That means it cannot be taken from you.

Also:

"There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus" - Romans 8:1


When you trusted in Christ as your savior, you were born again. You cannot be unborn again. You became a new creation. You were sealed with the Holy Spirit, which guarantees your salvation.

And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession—to the praise of his glory. - Ephesians 1:13-14

So, are you can see, you cannot be separated from Christ once you are united to him. Let this truth sink into your heart. You do not have to be afraid.

"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love." 1 John 4:18

Once the issue of fear of hell is gone, then that paves the way for freedom from sin. It is important to know what God has already done for you through Christ; otherwise, you will be afraid of God and trying to earn your salvation, which cannot be done. It is by grace through faith that we are saved.

 

[KiranLee]

So my OCD focuses on different things at different times. I had this intrusive sexual thought about Jesus. Then, I got scared that I was viewing Jesus sexually and the images kept coming. My mind is convincing me that I view him sexually. I really don’t want to! I don’t know what to do. Like when I pray to Jesus, it’s so hard now because I’m trying not to think these thoughts. I’m so scared that I am viewing Jesus sexually. When I say that I love him and that he is my Lord and Savior, my mind is convincing me that it’s perverted. Am I going to hell? Please help.

You are not alone, I am actually having a similar issue myself, when I try to pray I have images of random things, people, characters, animals ect and then I have horrible feelings like I am praying to those things when I dont want to. It makes me feel like an idolator and it stinks and makes me want to hide in a hole away from every trigger.
But God knows the truth and He knows I dont want this, and He knows you dont want what you're dealing with. I know this is a lot
easier said than done but we have to trust God to handle this nasty little thing called ocd. I am still hurting but I am learning that discomfort is okay if it means pleasing God abd resisting OCD to follow the True God is certainly pleasing God.
God knows. God weighs the heart.

 

[Scared but trusting God]

Thank you all for replying! You have all been so helpful to me. ​

 

[Scared but trusting God]

First, know that, if you have trusted in Jesus as your savior, you have already been saved. Salvation is an event. You have already passed from death to life.

"Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life. He does not come into judgment, but has passed from death to life." John 5:24

How long is eternal life? Eternal. That means it cannot be taken from you.

Also:

"There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus" - Romans 8:1


When you trusted in Christ as your savior, you were born again. You cannot be unborn again. You became a new creation. You were sealed with the Holy Spirit, which guarantees your salvation.

And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession—to the praise of his glory. - Ephesians 1:13-14

So, are you can see, you cannot be separated from Christ once you are united to him. Let this truth sink into your heart. You do not have to be afraid.

"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love." 1 John 4:18

Once the issue of fear of hell is gone, then that paves the way for freedom from sin. It is important to know what God has already done for you through Christ; otherwise, you will be afraid of God and trying to earn your salvation, which cannot be done. It is by grace through faith that we are saved.

Thank you so much for replying. This really helped me feel better and more calm.

 

[Scared but trusting God]

You are not alone, I am actually having a similar issue myself, when I try to pray I have images of random things, people, characters, animals ect and then I have horrible feelings like I am praying to those things when I dont want to. It makes me feel like an idolator and it stinks and makes me want to hide in a hole away from every trigger.
But God knows the truth and He knows I dont want this, and He knows you dont want what you're dealing with. I know this is a lot
easier said than done but we have to trust God to handle this nasty little thing called ocd. I am still hurting but I am learning that discomfort is okay if it means pleasing God abd resisting OCD to follow the True God is certainly pleasing God.
God knows. God weighs the heart.

Thank you for helping me. If it makes you feel better, that happens to me too sometimes. OCD really focuses on things that are important to you and makes you seem like something your not. Deep down you know what you believe and that you love God, but your mind convinces you otherwise. I will pray for you.

 

[Mari17]

So my OCD focuses on different things at different times. I had this intrusive sexual thought about Jesus. Then, I got scared that I was viewing Jesus sexually and the images kept coming. My mind is convincing me that I view him sexually. I really don’t want to! I don’t know what to do. Like when I pray to Jesus, it’s so hard now because I’m trying not to think these thoughts. I’m so scared that I am viewing Jesus sexually. When I say that I love him and that he is my Lord and Savior, my mind is convincing me that it’s perverted. Am I going to hell? Please help.

This is actually a really common obsession! Keep treating it as OCD, using the same strategies (ignore the intrusive thoughts, refuse to do compulsions) that you would for any other obsession.

 

[GaveMeJoy]

So my OCD focuses on different things at different times. I had this intrusive sexual thought about Jesus. Then, I got scared that I was viewing Jesus sexually and the images kept coming. My mind is convincing me that I view him sexually. I really don’t want to! I don’t know what to do. Like when I pray to Jesus, it’s so hard now because I’m trying not to think these thoughts. I’m so scared that I am viewing Jesus sexually. When I say that I love him and that he is my Lord and Savior, my mind is convincing me that it’s perverted. Am I going to hell? Please help.

If you believe he is your lord and savior you are going to heaven no matter what. We suffer from a mental illness, which means our brains are broken. It’s not our fault and we are not responsible. The difference between brain illness and heart illness is brain illnesses can affect our thoughts and actions and make us think that means we sinned. No act that is forced on us by a mental illness (no thought or deed) is voluntary. Therefore it is not disobedience and not a sin.

an example is if the Bible said thou shalt not twitch. But you have Tourette’s syndrome that causes involuntary spasms, you did not twitch. Your body did. That would not be a sin.

I also suffer from obsessive compulsions. Please know you are never lost, you never run out of chances, nor will God hold symptoms of your mental illness against you.

when an organ fails like your heart, God does not hold this against you as a sin or expect you to fix it through prayer. You see a doctor.

the brain is an organ. Ours are broken because the fall of Adam and Eve. Our Version of heart problems Or lung problems are brain problems. Thoughts are affected by the brain. It’s an organ that affects your thoughts.

God KNOWS this better than all the doctors in the world. If you “sin” or have “sinful thoughts” that come from your mental illness (brain) God will not hold this against you. With all sin, if you ask for forgiveness the Bible says you are white as snow. With sins stemming from mental illness, God KNOWS your sickness and your pain. Better than you. Do not be afraid, the Bible says when we sin we have an advocate in Jesus.

when you have the thoughts read these verses I wrote down. It helps me! I promise you will not get through them all without feeling relief from the Lord. The scripture is powerful.

also see a psychologist, therapist and/or psychiatrist you may need medication. God allowed scientists to invent medication and doctors to think of treatments as part of his plan for your life.

 

[Tolworth John]

When I say that I love him and that he is my Lord and Savior, my mind is convincing me that it’s perverted. Am I going to hell? Please help

As has been said OCD is an illness, you need to seek help to cope with it.
Please speak to your doctor to arrange treatment.

For self help there is in the OCD thread the 25 tips post with suggestions from a physiologist on things that can help dealing with OCD.

Please talk to your doctor.