OCD devil obsession..Please help

[Scared but trusting God]

So I’m 16 and about 2 months ago I really accepted Jesus into my heart. This is when my OCD and anxiety got worse. First my OCD focused on going to hell. I repented from my sins. Next my obsession was about sins. I thought that everything was a sin and was terrified of sinning. Then about a month ago, I started having doubts about God and bad thoughts about Jesus. This turned into my mind convincing me I want to worship other gods. Thankfully, I got over this. Now my obsession is about the devil and its driving me crazy. It started when I had an intrusive thought and repeated a thought 3 times in my head. Immediately, I got scared that I accidentally talked to the devil and put my faith in him and got terrified. This is where the obsession started. I started getting these disturbing thoughts about the devil being good, being responsible for miracles, being greater than God and many other terrible images in my head. I’m so scared that I’m believe these things. My mind is convincing me I believe these things and want to serve the devil. I don’t want to serve the devil or worship the devil! I’m finding myself thinking more about hating the devil than loving God. Every time I get a thought I get scared that I believe it and confess to God over and over again. I feel bad that I do this out of fear instead of genuine sorrow. Also, I’m scared that I tried to think these thoughts to distract myself from other bad thoughts. I asked God for forgiveness so many times but I keep unconsciously doing it. If I don’t react with fear, I’m scared that I don’t care and want to be a satanist. Like last night, I thought a thought about the devil being cool and I didn’t immediately react and then started to get scared I believe it. I have confessed so many times to God. Now, I have a fear that sinning means serving the devil. I have repented of my sins. I’m scared that wanting to sin means wanting to serve the devil. I feel like if I talk on the phone or text my friends or even watch tv that means serving the devil. Should I not want to do these things? My thoughts and feelings are all over the place and I’m scared God is mad at me. I’m terrified of going to hell. I’m scared that I lost my salvation. Please help me.

 

[Dave G.]

Well a couple of things. Are you under doctors care for your OCD, prescribed medicine and do you take it if so ?

God is not mad at you for having OCD and lousy control over intrusive thoughts, so you can drop that one thing off your list.

And a third thing. From what I've seen of OCD Christians coming into the forum your story is pretty much the same as the rest of them. So this is nothing new around here. The devil will always kick you when you're down too !! So this gets difficult to discern if it's your own true thoughts, OCD generated thoughts or the enemy playing games on you. Now you stated you don't want to worship Satan, so that sounds like your right mind there. It doesn't much matter if it's OCD or the devil then that suggests you do, right ??? So you can drop that off your list too.

 

[Scared but trusting God]

Well a couple of things. Are you under doctors care for your OCD, prescribed medicine and do you take it if so ?

God is not mad at you for having OCD and lousy control over intrusive thoughts, so you can drop that one thing off your list.

And a third thing. From what I've seen of OCD Christians coming into the forum your story is pretty much the same as the rest of them. So this is nothing new around here. The devil will always kick you when you're down too !! So this gets difficult to discern if it's your own true thoughts, OCD generated thoughts or the enemy playing games on you. Now you stated you don't want to worship Satan, so that sounds like your right mind there. It doesn't much matter if it's OCD or the devil then that suggests you do, right ??? So you can drop that off your list too.

Thank you for replying. I don’t take any medication for OCD, but I want to start therapy. My parent doesn’t know anything about OCD and just thinks I have anxiety. I’m just scared that a Christian shouldn’t have these thoughts about worshipping the devil. I really don’t want to but my mind is convincing me I do. It’s driving me crazy. And I’m scared that sinning means serving the devil. I really don’t want to serve the devil.

 

[Dave G.]

Thank you for replying. I don’t take any medication for OCD, but I want to start therapy. My parent doesn’t know anything about OCD and just thinks I have anxiety. I’m just scared that a Christian shouldn’t have these thoughts about worshipping the devil. I really don’t want to but my mind is convincing me I do. It’s driving me crazy. And I’m scared that sinning means serving the devil. I really don’t want to serve the devil.

God knows your true heart better than you do !! And it's about your heart. OCD and the devil battle in your mind but God knows your heart. Don't be fooled. I bet you're smarter than that, you already know this devil stuff could be tricks in your mind and not real.

 

[SarahsKnight]

So I’m 16 and about 2 months ago I really accepted Jesus into my heart. This is when my OCD and anxiety got worse. First my OCD focused on going to hell. I repented from my sins. Next my obsession was about sins. I thought that everything was a sin and was terrified of sinning. Then about a month ago, I started having doubts about God and bad thoughts about Jesus. This turned into my mind convincing me I want to worship other gods. Thankfully, I got over this. Now my obsession is about the devil and its driving me crazy. It started when I had an intrusive thought and repeated a thought 3 times in my head. Immediately, I got scared that I accidentally talked to the devil and put my faith in him and got terrified. This is where the obsession started. I started getting these disturbing thoughts about the devil being good, being responsible for miracles, being greater than God and many other terrible images in my head. I’m so scared that I’m believe these things. My mind is convincing me I believe these things and want to serve the devil. I don’t want to serve the devil or worship the devil! I’m finding myself thinking more about hating the devil than loving God. Every time I get a thought I get scared that I believe it and confess to God over and over again. I feel bad that I do this out of fear instead of genuine sorrow. Also, I’m scared that I tried to think these thoughts to distract myself from other bad thoughts. I asked God for forgiveness so many times but I keep unconsciously doing it. If I don’t react with fear, I’m scared that I don’t care and want to be a satanist. Like last night, I thought a thought about the devil being cool and I didn’t immediately react and then started to get scared I believe it. I have confessed so many times to God. Now, I have a fear that sinning means serving the devil. I have repented of my sins. I’m scared that wanting to sin means wanting to serve the devil. I feel like if I talk on the phone or text my friends or even watch tv that means serving the devil. Should I not want to do these things? My thoughts and feelings are all over the place and I’m scared God is mad at me. I’m terrified of going to hell. I’m scared that I lost my salvation. Please help me.

I sympathize, @Scared but trusting God . I too once suffered from similar OCD so I know how crippling it can be, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Just know that I will pray for your healing from this problem, this is obsessive fear of sin and hell. I am most confident that, by the words of 1 John 4:1-3, the Holy Spirit has told me that He has not and will not cast you away, regardless of what you are thinking, feeling, and experiencing right now due to OCD. I pray that you will be eventually healed from your OCD, or at least be able to manage it much better, but for now all I can do is assure you - as much as it can possibly mean to hear this from another mortal, sinful human such as myself - that God loves you and will ultimately keep you.

 

[Scared but trusting God]

God knows your true heart better than you do !! And it's about your heart. OCD and the devil battle in your mind but God knows your heart. Don't be fooled. I bet you're smarter than that, you already know this devil stuff could be tricks in your mind and not real.

I have a question. Is sinning the same as serving the devil. Do I have to think about it this way? It makes me very scared to think that by sinning your serving the devil.

 

[Scared but trusting God]

I sympathize, @Scared but trusting God . I too once suffered from similar OCD so I know how crippling it can be, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Just know that I will pray for your healing from this problem, this is obsessive fear of sin and hell. I am most confident that, by the words of 1 John 4:1-3, the Holy Spirit has told me that He has not and will not cast you away, regardless of what you are thinking, feeling, and experiencing right now due to OCD. I pray that you will be eventually healed from your OCD, or at least be able to manage it much better, but for now all I can do is assure you - as much as it can possibly mean to hear this from another mortal, sinful human such as myself - that God loves you and will ultimately keep you.

Wow this brought me so much peace. Thank you for replying. It means so much to me. You don’t know how much I needed this.

 

[SarahsKnight]

I’m just scared that a Christian shouldn’t have these thoughts about worshipping the devil.

We shouldn't, perhaps, but unfortunately many of us have or still do - not because we truly like the thoughts or the prospect of loving/worshiping Satan or his ways, but because it scared us so much when the thought first ever came to our minds. It's the initial fear we felt in response to that first time, and the worry that the bad thought was "real" or "true" of us, that causes the thought to keep repeating. Just like how obsessive compulsive disorder works, unfortunately.

You are not alone in this.

 

[Scared but trusting God]

We shouldn't, perhaps, but unfortunately many of us have or still do - not because we truly like the thoughts or the prospect of loving/worshiping Satan or his ways, but because it scared us so much when the thought first ever came to our minds. It's the initial fear we felt in response to that first time, and the worry that the bad thought was "real" or "true" of us, that causes the thought to keep repeating. Just like how obsessive compulsive disorder works, unfortunately.

You are not alone in this.

My OCD tries to convince me I like these thoughts. I really don’t want these thoughts. My thoughts and feelings are all over the place. I genuinely want to love God and follow Jesus.

 

[Dave G.]

I have a question. Is sinning the same as serving the devil. Do I have to think about it this way? It makes me very scared to think that by sinning your serving the devil.

Well think of sinning like this. Satan comes to rob kill and destroy. By sinning you're opening a door that was closed to Satan but now has access to you through that door you left cracked open for him. Close the door up by being a child of God accepting Jesus as your savior and confessing your sin to Him. We all sin but we have someone we can run to. Don't fear God in that way, never hide your sin from Him but rather confess it. And if it's on going sin that you have to keep confessing then ask Him for help in dealing with it.

You're not worshiping Satan, OCD is messing with your head. But I join the other posters prayer, I pray for you OCD folks anyway so you're kind of rolled in by default.

 

[Scared but trusting God]

Well think of sinning like this. Satan comes to rob kill and destroy. By sinning you're opening a door that was closed to Satan but now has access to you through that door you left cracked open for him. Close the door up by being a child of God accepting Jesus as your savior and confessing your sin to Him. We all sin but we have someone we can run to. Don't fear God in that way, never hide your sin from Him but rather confess it. And if it's on going sin that you have to keep confessing then ask Him for help in dealing with it.

You're not worshiping Satan, OCD is messing with your head. But I join the other posters prayer, I pray for you OCD folks anyway so you're kind of rolled in by default.

I have repented of my sins. The sins that are the hardest for me to stop are thoughts because I can’t control them. I am trying to follow Jesus.

 

[Dave G.]

I have repented of my sins. The sins that are the hardest for me to stop are thoughts because I can’t control them. I am trying to follow Jesus.

I seriously doubt God considers OCD thoughts as sin. And you don't agree with them anyway and you don't act on them !!!!!!!!!! So how is that sin ? Don't confuse yourself, sin is a willful act.

 

[SarahsKnight]

My OCD tries to convince me I like these thoughts

I know. It is good that you recognize that it is just your OCD, and not the real you who even so much as entertains the notion that these bad thoughts are amicable.

 

[NBB]

I had similar issues, don't worry God understands your problems, so chill that he doesn't get 'scared' of that, don't get alarmed about those thoughts. But being faithful to God in the way you can is totally worth it, seek him and pray whenever you can, and never give up.

In my case i had ocd devil related problems, this can be important to know that the enemy does this kind of stuff, that we can get rid of those problems with the help of God, or maybe some minister doing deliverance too. I actually don't believe in the chemical inbalance opinion on ocd, in my case it was the enemy putting those intrusive thoughts in me, when i drove off a spirit that i detected i didn't have those thoughts ever again... the world is oblivious to the war going on including pshychiatrists.

 

[Mari17]

So I’m 16 and about 2 months ago I really accepted Jesus into my heart. This is when my OCD and anxiety got worse. First my OCD focused on going to hell. I repented from my sins. Next my obsession was about sins. I thought that everything was a sin and was terrified of sinning. Then about a month ago, I started having doubts about God and bad thoughts about Jesus. This turned into my mind convincing me I want to worship other gods. Thankfully, I got over this. Now my obsession is about the devil and its driving me crazy. It started when I had an intrusive thought and repeated a thought 3 times in my head. Immediately, I got scared that I accidentally talked to the devil and put my faith in him and got terrified. This is where the obsession started. I started getting these disturbing thoughts about the devil being good, being responsible for miracles, being greater than God and many other terrible images in my head. I’m so scared that I’m believe these things. My mind is convincing me I believe these things and want to serve the devil. I don’t want to serve the devil or worship the devil! I’m finding myself thinking more about hating the devil than loving God. Every time I get a thought I get scared that I believe it and confess to God over and over again. I feel bad that I do this out of fear instead of genuine sorrow. Also, I’m scared that I tried to think these thoughts to distract myself from other bad thoughts. I asked God for forgiveness so many times but I keep unconsciously doing it. If I don’t react with fear, I’m scared that I don’t care and want to be a satanist. Like last night, I thought a thought about the devil being cool and I didn’t immediately react and then started to get scared I believe it. I have confessed so many times to God. Now, I have a fear that sinning means serving the devil. I have repented of my sins. I’m scared that wanting to sin means wanting to serve the devil. I feel like if I talk on the phone or text my friends or even watch tv that means serving the devil. Should I not want to do these things? My thoughts and feelings are all over the place and I’m scared God is mad at me. I’m terrified of going to hell. I’m scared that I lost my salvation. Please help me.

This is a very typical obsession! I've had a similar obsession in the past. OCD is definitely treatable, and it's possible to learn to live more victoriously over it as you learn how to manage it. I'd be happy to talk about what I've learned about dealing with OCD, and to suggest some good informational websites. It's a tough disorder, but there's lots of hope for learning to deal effectively with it!

 

[Scared but trusting God]

Thank you all for replying. I appreciate this a lot!

 

[Scared but trusting God]

This is a very typical obsession! I've had a similar obsession in the past. OCD is definitely treatable, and it's possible to learn to live more victoriously over it as you learn how to manage it. I'd be happy to talk about what I've learned about dealing with OCD, and to suggest some good informational websites. It's a tough disorder, but there's lots of hope for learning to deal effectively with it!

Thank you. I would love to talk to you!

 

[Mari17]

Thank you. I would love to talk to you!

OK, sent you a p.m.!