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Guys, ever since I found out of how well benzo's work for my anxiety it's like I can't stop. Even when I feel no anxiety, I just pop another for the reason of euphoria. Thats not healthy at all and I don't want ppl to judge me on this. I have bad days where I think I'm at God's Judgement do to the obsession of OCD. and a friend gave me a klonopin and I felt normel for the first time in months. But now I'm dealing with the struggle of addiction. When I got saved or before it, I used meth, painkillers, Pot and well really anything I could get my hands on. But when I accepted Christ I turn from it all cos he called me and I wanted to be apart of him. Now this is interfiering with my relationship. If I could get the strength to endure having valium but only taking it when I need it then I would be fine. Cos honestly no other med helps my anxiety cos it's to strong. Like I'll give you a example,, Imagen you love one got on a plane. There were 100 on board and the plane crashd, fifty ppl died fifty ppl lived and I asked you not to worry about your loved one. That pull to want to worry is what I go thru whenever my anxiety and OCD Spike So pls pray for me that I'll overcome this and do it the right way. Thsnk you.