I want to give you hope today! I have been exactly where you are! I have struggled with these thoughts. They hit like a storm in May 2017. I had such severe anxiety, and constant panic attacks. It got to the point where I had an episode of depersonalization and felt myself lift up from my body. I am here to tell you that you can overcome your storm through the power of Christ. He loves you, cares for you, and knows exactly what you are going through. Hold on to him, even when you can't see!
I would have like to tell you that my problem went away immediately, but it has not. I still have days where I struggle with these thoughts and feelings of unworthiness, but I know that these thoughts are not me. As a result of my depersonalization I lost the ability to feel emotions when experiencing these thoughts. It was like my emotions were wrapped in cotton, but I can tell you that the Lord is with me, and he is surely with you also! He will be found when we seek him with our whole hearts!
I had a breakthrough this morning, and I heard, "trust me". I will trust him when I am blind. I know he is my hope, my salvation, and my future. He is your hope, your salvation, and your future. Jesus will see you through! Hang on, when you can't see, can't feel, and are bombarded with horrendous thoughts. He is there in the storm. Even though the storm might not go away immediately he is there. We can hope in the storm. Hang on to the hem of His robe in faith, fight the good fight, He is there on the other side.
No matter how you feel, never give up and keep pressing in. He is there!! Through him we can overcome all things. On this side of heaven we may might not understand everything, but I believe for me this has broken down barriers. This allows us to have a faith that has overcome mighty battles. We can overcome all things through the blood of Christ. Jesus LOVES YOU!!! Never give up my dear friend! I will be praying for you.
Jeremiah 29:13
You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.
John 6:37
All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away.
Ephesians 6:12
For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.
2 Corinthians 12:7-10
7So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations,aa thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited.8Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. 9But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
John 16:33
I have told you these things so that in Me you may have peace. You will have suffering in this world. Be courageous! I have conquered the world."
1 John 1:9
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
1 John 3:20
for whenever our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and he knows everything.
Matthew 8:23-27
23 Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. 24 Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. 25 The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Lord, save us! We’re going to drown!” 26 He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm. 27 The men were amazed and asked, “What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!”