Numb

[Accune]

About a month ago this numbing feeling came and it has become a fight hold on.The thing is that I used those feelings to combat my Ocd.Now with this numb feeling it is hard to stand sometimes and depression and anger are harder to fight.Has anyone felt like this before ?I just want my love and zeal feelings back,but I know deep down that we live by faith not by sight.

 

[rossignol]

Are you talking about a numbing feeling of your emotions or physical?

 

[Accune]

Like the emotions or the zeal for Jesus.I haven't given up,I am enduring by HIS grace.It just feels good to get it out in the open.

 

[gracealone]

Yes, Accune, I think I understand what you're talking about. As I was training myself to ignore the content of my OCD obsessions, eventually I seemed to calm down about the thoughts but what I was left with was this numb/ or dead feeling toward God. I felt that maybe, just maybe I would never experience the joy of my salvation again. That's a scary and depressing way to feel. But please keep in mind that it takes quite awhile to climb out of the pit of this kind of OCD. It's a long process. I found that if I started to make too much of the fact that I felt numb toward God that I would often began to obsess again about whether or not this might be some kind of sign or evidence that maybe I really wasn't saved after all. You have to avoid going down that path. I know it's a distressing feeling but you are right, it is just a feeling. It doesn't mean a thing other than the fact that you've been going through a very difficult season with your OCD. Try to tell yourself... this too shall pass and just like you said, keep on keeping on.
Praying for you tonight.
Mitzi

About a month ago this numbing feeling came and it has become a fight hold on.The thing is that I used those feelings to combat my Ocd.Now with this numb feeling it is hard to stand sometimes and depression and anger are harder to fight.Has anyone felt like this before ?I just want my love and zeal feelings back,but I know deep down that we live by faith not by sight.

 

[tripletiger1200]

I think you have to trust that God has a bigger hold on your life than you have on Him. I've felt that way before too, and it's one reason that I am struggling with letting go, but God understands you are not leaving Him, you are just trying to deal with an illness. God is able to rekindle your fire, just let go and fall in to His arms.