Not sure...

[pockleberry]

I don't really know if anyone here can help me or if I even deserve to be helped but yeah I guess I will let you guys decide.

So the other night this image came into my head of a little girl which probably was me and i'm not going to go into what the image was but it was of a sexual nature that really upset me. So now I really don't know what to do, my head tells me to ignore it and forget it ever hapened (if i can) because it wasn't real and it made no sense to me but theres just this tiny thing within me saying what if it wasnt just an image what if it was a memory of something? I want desperatly to just ignore it but when it came into my head I was overwhelmed by this huge irrational fear that something/someone was going to hurt me even though I was in the safety of my room and nothing could even get to me. If it was just an image surely it couldn't cause me to react that stronging, I got so freeked out by it that I dissociated and was so dissconected that I couldn't even feel anything. Also I started feeling really bad about myself leading to self harm like I had done something wrong in this image getting into my head.

So yeah that probably makes no sense but I guess what my question is is like how can you tell if it is a real memory or just something made up? Oh this isn't the first time I've got images like this but this is the only one that has really stuck with me.

P.S I posted this both in here and in survivors of sexual assult cause i wasn't sure where it should go...

 

[dizzydoll]

Lift it up to God first. Try to find a good qualified Christian councelor if possible. It could be an abuse memory or it could be a subconcious expression of a troubleing situation in life. You need to find someone you can talk with who can objectively and in a healthy way help you sort it out. Ask God to reveal what this is but do so in a safe environment preferably with a trustworthy support person. In this situation let the memory or thoughts come to you. Write them down so that when you feel stable enough you can go back to it and pray for healing and guidance from Jehova Rapha. Study this name of God. Put your hands on anything and everything you can find about that name of God. preceptaustin.org has an excellent study on it. Get on prayer chains. You don't have to tell anyone just ask for quiet unspoken. May God heal and bless you as you gain dicernment on how to deal with this.
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Izzy

I don't really know if anyone here can help me or if I even deserve to be helped but yeah I guess I will let you guys decide.

So the other night this image came into my head of a little girl which probably was me and i'm not going to go into what the image was but it was of a sexual nature that really upset me. So now I really don't know what to do, my head tells me to ignore it and forget it ever hapened (if i can) because it wasn't real and it made no sense to me but theres just this tiny thing within me saying what if it wasnt just an image what if it was a memory of something? I want desperatly to just ignore it but when it came into my head I was overwhelmed by this huge irrational fear that something/someone was going to hurt me even though I was in the safety of my room and nothing could even get to me. If it was just an image surely it couldn't cause me to react that stronging, I got so freeked out by it that I dissociated and was so dissconected that I couldn't even feel anything. Also I started feeling really bad about myself leading to self harm like I had done something wrong in this image getting into my head.

So yeah that probably makes no sense but I guess what my question is is like how can you tell if it is a real memory or just something made up? Oh this isn't the first time I've got images like this but this is the only one that has really stuck with me.

P.S I posted this both in here and in survivors of sexual assult cause i wasn't sure where it should go...