Not sure...

[pockleberry]

I don't really know if anyone here can help me or if I even deserve to be helped but yeah I guess I will let you guys decide.

So the other night this image came into my head of a little girl which probably was me and i'm not going to go into what the image was but it was of a sexual nature that really upset me. So now I really don't know what to do, my head tells me to ignore it and forget it ever hapened (if i can) because it wasn't real and it made no sense to me but theres just this tiny thing within me saying what if it wasnt just an image what if it was a memory of something? I want desperatly to just ignore it but when it came into my head I was overwhelmed by this huge irrational fear that something/someone was going to hurt me even though I was in the safety of my room and nothing could even get to me. If it was just an image surely it couldn't cause me to react that stronging, I got so freeked out by it that I dissociated and was so dissconected that I couldn't even feel anything. Also I started feeling really bad about myself leading to self harm like I had done something wrong in this image getting into my head.

So yeah that probably makes no sense but I guess what my question is is like how can you tell if it is a real memory or just something made up? Oh this isn't the first time I've got images like this but this is the only one that has really stuck with me.

 

[Criada]

Firstly, of course you deserve to be helped! You have done nothing wrong, sweetie, whatever happened to you.
If you keep getting these images, it sounds as though there may be an underlying reason... perhaps it would be worth talking to a councillor about this... they may be able to help you explore the reasons.

But above all, don't, please, feel that you are to blame for these images. You didn't chose this, and you are obviously upset by it. It's not your fault, sweetie!!

 

[Johnnz]

Just put it on hold and allow time to work. It can be a real memory or just a personal visual experience. If you were abused in any way that most often will be reflected in your life in some way - fearful of a person, uneasy about sexual issues etc. Just talk about it with Jesus and see what arises from that. Don't panic, don't get to introspective, keep on living healthily.

John
NZ

 

[myanchor]

Did you ever go see a therapist who can maybe hypnotize you for that memory?