Not sure if apostate but wants to return to the faith

[1watchman]

Remember that real faith in God is through the Lord Jesus (note John 14:6), and that is not just speaking of an intellectual decision and good efforts, but a true relationship. Do you have that daily in your walk, and is your walk in communion with the Lord Jesus as lord of your life? Are you reading God's Word ---beginning at the Gospels in the New Testament?

I nor anyone else can say if you are really saved, but you can know if you are daily in communion with the Savior who died and rose again for our eternal good and trust Him for everything. The Lord Jesus MUST be your best Friend without doubts to be accepted by God --the Father.

 

[Adstar]

But I denied Him. Isn't that the blasphemy against the Holy Spirit.

Blasphemy against the Holy Spirit is declaring the Holy Spirit to be a demon... People should read the Bible and get their definitions of what balsphemy of the Holy Spirit is directly from the mouth of Jesus rather then just listening to the doctrines of men that have come from the thinking of men..

 

[Dan61861]

So I was saved when I was around 16 years old. Went to my church that taught that only through Christ can we be saved from sin. However about a year and half later I started to falter from the faith and eventually went on living for myself and my fleshly desires. I went seven years of claiming I was a homosexual and an atheist and claimed that I didn't believe in God. There were times during those seven years that I knew deep down what I was doing was wrong but kept going down that destructive path. About a few weeks ago I finally realized that this was not the way I was supposed to be living my life. I felt a crushing guilt that came over me and prayed to God that if he could ever forgive me. Since then I've been turning my life around and trying to walk in the path the lord wants me to walk. My question is though. Am I beyond redemption though?
I heard that if I denied Christ then I never really knew him. As an atheist I did that. But now seeing the error of my ways, I asked Him to forgive me as a sinner and accepted him as my lord and savior. Is me asking Him again valid though?

Shouldn't you look at it in a better light? That God saved you and before you totally fell away He called you back.
In Christ
Daniel