FYI I posted the same thread in the general struggles section. I re post it in the depression section hoping to get more feedback and support. I hope my thread wont be sensitive or controversial. But I need to vent. Besides the fact I fear of going to hell, I have this on my mind. I felt this way for years but now things are getting worse in the world now thanks to the media and government. I'm feeling more ashamed and less proud of my heritage (Italian). It literally hurts me when people call them racists, mafias, bringing up what Columbus did, the Italian invasion of Somalia, Libya, and Eritrea, of what the Roman Empire did, and especially the crucifixion of Jesus. I'm starting to wish that I was a different nationality. Now I'm afraid to tell people what my background is bc I fear they will judge me. Does anyone here feel the same way? Or had felt the same way? Again I don't mean to have this topic come as offensive. If so, I will ask the MOD to remove it.
well, i guess you can see italians in the roman empire as war heroes if you'd like...i mean rooms full of italian food...awesome stuff, right?...
think of the buildings roman technology has built...think of even italian relationships as some sort of genuinity because we were still exploring the world...very much so...italians are not fools either...they came up with a great tally of scores of and like literally legions of their own content like statues and art...
even though i like to brush up on my christian lessons, you're hearing from me...a non christian...but even if they were ruthless with christians witht he roman empire at least...not only as yourself as an italian can learn from that history...but now even the term ruthlessness can be studied upon in the higher mysteries of labels...of course with destructive things like that, you must only research in my belief...i mean what you can get yourself out of that are entirety power pathways of knowledge...but of course just for knowledge...i mean heck...the label mercenaries came out of ruthlessness i suppose...
look, the romans may have been guilty of some things...but they were your ancestors...not you...to me...everything is not everything...i also believe in a beyond beyond but in knowledge...yet another open avenue for you to ponder about the histories italy...i'm sure if you question more about your country...you'd be surprised...wait...isn't leonardo da vinci italian?...anyways, look, look, look...i'm sure there are great insights of the knowledge of italy...
remember...there is always something good about each nation...like i said...the food italy...
i mean find bright scholars of italy...even modern scholars...
at the very least, there is the everything about each nation...have some pride at least in the prowess italians can give...italy...i would consider an elite country and i mean in the present...also think of the hotels italy provides...come on man, brighten up...besides, the past is the past...
the romans' chance in conquering the world can give you insight in how great warriors they were...like i said...try to see on the better, brighter side...obviously you can see reason that there were some italian citizens during the roman's empire's apex that questioned with compassion of the war...
italy even being able to have treasuries i bet they have can be yet another prowess in the pride of something in your country...perhaps there are some innocent souls in italy now that would not want to bother anyone...
maybe your country hasn't failed you...have you expected everything is not as it appears in it's entirety?...heck, think of the common markets in italy and in all it's glory...and i'm sure there are good police who are just doing their duty too...though i'm not so sure in the achievement in that in the particular for sure...
i'm not sure about official representatives in italy...but you can be a shining hope for them in terms of determining yourself as a good guy. Their may be greed in precious resources in italy...but it's still all there, right?
the cities in water of italy looks beautiful enough...and it's not like everyone's unfair...there are such things as regular servicing in italy...that's good stuff, right?...heck, italy can be such a good vacation spot that they have visitor guides and stuff...
but like i said, think of whole entireties of data in your country...
go to a library or something and see things that are new and is exclsuive side to you about your home country because you can be excited about being proud of some things...should you retrieve any new information...well...good luck...i mean that's gotta be enough good assistance to you, right?...maybe even give you strange information you can decipher like philosophy or something from italy...i mean in libraries...you can seek guidance, information, and direction...perhaps you will know famous italian names and seek power of knowledge from it like usual family names or famous fiction and real people from the history of italy and now...and what better answers can come from than a library...hmmm...i'm not sure about bibles in libraries though...but perhaps there far more than more than enough of existence of knowledge of which you can be proud of italy...more than you might imagine...have high hopes of learning more of your country...learning more secrets...paying attention to detail...and perhaps you'll get more new glimpses of new knowledge of italy...even carefully, not so famous knowledge can be found possibly...but if you've felt you've done enough to prove yourself of italy, then so be it...but then again, you might find knowledge disappointing and not helping you about your nation...
then again, there's the coronavirus so i guess you gotta stick to the internet...perhaps you have to avert such things for yourself for now...but i really hope you have a possible turning point about the history of your country...good luck and don't go into information crises...hopefully...
i guess all i'm saying is to overcome your shame of your country...well, goodbye then...